#alma musing

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when they don't see you

you love them and you're not sure they know. but that's okay. you're used to loving more than you are loved. you give more than is given. and maybe others don't understand but you don't expect more. you tell yourself the love in your heart is not meant to be savored by anyone other than you. it's more than enough to get to exist at the same time as them. you stand in their shadow and you thank the sun for casting it. they touch your arm but they do not feel the same warmth which lingers on your skin for days. you gaze at them and they might even be looking right back but they are not seeing into your soul the same way you have memorized theirs. it's enough you tell yourself. it's enough. it's enough. but what if it's not? and what if you're wrong. what if they see you and all this time you have been too scared to ask what they're looking at.

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the queen.

dignified in your regality, you are a beacon of reason... the true power behind the throne, you take heed of all, cautious in each move you make. some may call you callous in your calculation, but they do not know your heart.

Stole from: @kaizokugaris

No Moral Compass

You are cold, analytical, and you strive to be as objective as a person of flesh and blood can be. Either don't understand the concepts of good and evil, or you understand it perfectly and think it's a load of bull. Some may call you selfish, some may call you unfeeling, but you're just doing what you believe will yield the best results, plain and simple. Why bother with petty ideals of right or wrong when you can do what will actively help those you give a fuck about? Your goals may be selfish or noble or anything in between, but you will not let anyone make you feel like garbage for going after them. You couldn't care less about what people brand you as. You just care about getting shit done by any means necessary.

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@poeticphoenix Them <3

In which I give a short lil blurb on why they're there too 💖

1- Dance The Night, Dua Lipa

A very recent addition that I tossed a coin on due to the previous number one spot. I couldn't help myself, the lyrics and aesthetic are just too fitting and too good. "When my heart breaks you'll never see it, when my world shakes I feel alive". Alma is a party animal, to hide the fact that she feels like a tiny wet cat. This song encapsulates what she's like on her day to day average, and personally that type of song should always take the top spot when dedicating it to a certain character.

2- U (English Version), BELLE ost

Second place goes to this beautiful number, as it combines her vibe with the vibe of her home in Purgatory. While I do enjoy getting into the nitty gritty of the lifestyles of the impoverished, and it's of course far from perfect, I always aim for her home city of Coffinail to be the type of place where a big magical parade like this takes place. It's a massive hub of all sorts of different cultures, and it's a big part of Alma's upbringing.

3- Upside Down, Paloma Faith

This is again, a former number one, as many of these are. However it still fits her very well, as to outsiders Alma is a bit of an oddball. Explaining things about her culture and motives gets tiring after a while, as it is with many other witches. So she'll just skip to the fun part, until it becomes important to explain. Still, a fun and sweet song that also has lyrics to fit her resilience and persistence. She's as hard as the world around her, and just as ridiculous too.

4- Stupid Love, Lady Gaga

Not only does the music video fit something Alma would dream about, but a song about wanting nothing more than to be loved and chasing after it head on is just *chef's kiss* beautiful. Ironically she would never, almost ever, be the first to confess in a romance. But this song is every thought that would go through her head, urging her to just go and get it. It doesn't even apply solely to romance, just the fact that she yearns for any kind of love at all and holds back from pursuing it. She'll get the hang the of it, though. <3

5- Good As Hell, Lizzo

Last but certainly not least, the song I can most hear Alma speaking out loud. The lyrics feel so much like her talking to a friend to cheer them up, and really that's what draws anyone to her at all. Despite her internal struggles, she's an extremely caring person who does everything to find the right thing to say and do for her friends. And every compliment she gives to them is from the heart, 100%.

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