░░░░░░ ☾ it’s a warm summer night, and in the distance allison can hear the sounds of a popping bonfire and light chatter from the foxes. somehow she’s ended up with andrew on cleaning duty for the night –– if you ask nicky, he’d probably say it had something to do with losing a bet, but if you ask dan she’d say that they were the only two remotely sober.

which is weird, because allison + party =/= sober.

“Then I get the feeling we’ll get along, I love a good party.”

( how long is the universe going to punish her for wanting too much again ? or is this its way of telling her that she should take what she should get and be grateful, because no matter how bad it gets, at least she’s not neil josten ? ( at least she still has a name and a face . ) )

“i didn’t earn it?” she goes, her high brows the only thing giving her indignation away. how can this monster look at her in the eyes and say she didn’t earn it, when she knows for a fact that after that initial first glance he’d written her off just like they all had, only this time he had thought he’d known the truth of it. no, she thinks. you don’t get to do that. “i should be flattered you think i’m so naturally perfect.” she could say: just because your boytoy would die for it doesn’t mean i don’t deserve it, too. or maybe: you’re not the only one who matters here.

X. ANSWERED

░░░░░░ ☾ allison doesn’t glare at him, but it’s a near thing. she’s been riding the numbness for so long now that the fury he throws at her is a lifeline, whether to pull her up or drag her down, she doesn’t know. all she can do is cling to it. it’s much better than the alternative, of raging and tearing at her skin just so the pain can overwhelm the one inside of her, the one nesting deep in her stomach, feeding on her emptiness.

( seth is dead, seth is dead, seth is dead . )

the face your muse makes when sad – 

the face your muse makes when they see something they want –

the face your muse makes when their berserk button is pushed –

the face your muse makes when they see someone they dislike –