#aliku

This Valentine's Day weekend, I got inspired to revisit and draw one of my oldest random ships, and one of the most obscure/rare ships in KH.

Here's Alice/Riku!

I did share the first image in my Valentine's Day picture dump, but I wanted to make a designated post featuring it, along with my other Alice/Riku picture I did.

aaand, my gurl, Aliku~

least this one’s from this month

Me and the only friend who can rival my ✨Pastel Aesthetic✨

click the image for the deviantArt link, since there you can get the best quality possible~

I recently adopted that small android there and as I was thinking of what to do with them, it hit me that I could make them a companion for my recently unused alien girl I’ve had for a while now, and the rest is history

since I just finished watching Space Dandy, I decided to go for a Dandy/QT feel, but with less of the owner being a dick and the robot hating their life

now these two are trying to break into a college in hopes of obtaining valuable information

Aliku [the alien girl] was adopted from Adorable-adoptss on deviantArt

APA [the robot] was adopted from QuasiEidolon on deviantArt

both belong to me now, and I love em a lot rip

How can I say everything I need to say to her in one breath? So much to say but not enough time. Another summer without you and they hurt alot every time.

If you were right in front of me right now what would I say?

"I'm sorry" that's my natural response to you and I know you've always hated me saying that. "Its never your fault". You'd always say that. It's true, some times it's not my fault. But I just cant accept that I'm not at fault here. I took advantage of you. I was so immature back then it makes me sick to my stomach knowing that was me. A boy who would ruin a really amazing relationship because he didnt get what he wanted. Now I look back at it and now I know why you dont love me anymore. Nothing I can say will ever justify what I did. But we were kids. Now, we're not. I want to prove to you that you're way more important than before. I love you because, I love you. I love everything about you. Your personality, your strengths, your weaknesses, your looks, your past, present and future. I love how you talk and laugh and blink and smile and even breathe. "Im sorry" because I cant help it. I made that promise.

I will always love you. Always have, always will

Moving forward, no more lust, just love. I want that second chance because anyway I see it, We were meant for each other. One day I hope I do.

That's what my phone told me today. To remind me of tomorrow. But i didnt forget. I just dont know how to react you know? I wanted to get her a little projector that way she can binge watch all the shows and movies with a bigger screen. I remember she said she did that all night. But the thing is I didnt get it. Why? Was it because she wouldn't let me give her anything last year? Or she just doesn't like me "wasting money" on her?

No, I didnt because I couldn't.

I think at this point in our lives were complete strangers. She's moved on. And I still haven't. Not to mention the last things I said to her were horrible lies. Just like that time she said she never loved me in the first place. I said it so it would intentionally push us away. And it worked. For a couple months. Now I'm back here. Still using tumblr, the thing she made me make back then, as a way to heal. And it's funny cause it's not working the way I thought it would.

I'm not healing. And I'm glad I'm not.

At this point in my life I'm living for myself just like she said to do. But she told me to move on. She said that. There isn't anything in this world i wouldnt do for her. So that's what I did.

But now, for once I'm going to be selfish and do something for myself; I want to be alone. I rather it be just me. If it's not with her than no one. Yeah, that's selfish and stupid. But after years of still loving her even after it's over, that means something. Maybe it's me being naive, or childish. or maybe, its actually love.

We were the sun and moon and it's funny, I wanted the sun and moon to be together forever. Asking for an eclipse for the rest of our lives. I guess I was asking too much. But there are times when they are together. I should've cherished those moments even more. Cause they dont last. And now they're gone. Far from each other. Waiting to meet again.

That's where we're at right now.

We messed up. I just wish I can fix this. But i cant. Not right now.

Listen, maybe years from now I'll look at this and feel like a total idiot. Or maybe we'll both be laughing at this at some coffee shop making up for all the time we lost. Point is if this is the end of our little story, then I hope the next time, in our many life times, that I meet you again. And that I don't mess up again. And hoping to whoever controls this little thing called life, that they give me that chance. I will never forget you.

Go have fun. Smile and be safe.

Happy Birthday