Went to see Les Miserables tonight and my fave song is always On My Own. It struck me how much it is totally Sherlock pining for John. It fits many of the phases in the show- the 2yr exile, after the wedding, etc - but mostly when Sherlock is on the plane to Serbia in his mind palace. Anyway, hope you enjoy the angst!
[EPONINE]And now Iām all alone again nowhere to goNo one to turn toWithout a home, without a friendWithout a face so say hello toAnd now the night is nearNow I can make believe heās hereSometimes I walk alone at nightWhen everybody else is sleepingI think of him and then Iām happyWith the company Iām keepingThe city goes to bedAnd I can live inside my headOn my own, pretending heās beside meAll alone, I walk with him ātil morningWithout him, I feel his arms around meAnd when I lose my way I close my eyesAnd he has found meIn the rain, the pavement shines like silverAll the lights are misty in the riverIn the darkness, the trees are full of starlightAnd all I see is him and me foreverAnd foreverAnd I know itās only in my mindThat Iām talking to myself and not to himAnd although I know that he is blindStill I say, thereās a way for usI love him, but when the night is overHe is gone, the riverās just a riverWithout him, the world around me changesThe trees are bare and everywhereThe streets are full of strangersI love him, but every day Iām learningAll my life, Iāve only been pretendingWithout me, his world would go on turningA world thatās full of happinessThat I have never knownI love himā¦I love himā¦I love himā¦But only on my own