First impressionâThis dude reminds me of Sanada Genichirou [from Prince of Tennis].â
Impression nowMore complex than I initially gave him credit for! Extremely blunt, but not malicious. Extremely skilled, and aware of it but not boastful. Ushijima respects talent and well-executed plays when he sees it (re: his comment regarding Nishinoyaâs toss as a libero). Heâs a keen observer as well, though perhaps less adept at reading people (unless heâs spent ample time in their company). I find Ushijimaâs family history, and the effects that might have had on him growing up fascinating. Weâre told that Ushijimaâs father married into his wifeâs family, and that Ushijima took on the wifeâs family name, rather than his fatherâs.
Itâs interesting to note Ushijimaâs fatherâs words here - âI wonât interfere with anything elseâ. Itâs clear heâs not the head of the household, and that the females in the Ushijima family (including his wife) hold more authority than him. Itâs also framed as one of the only times heâs defied the traditions of the Ushijima household. Ushijima appears to be a quiet child as well, but note how heâs observing the scene - heâs engaged, even if heâs not saying anything. Itâs a fairly reasonable conclusion to assume he sees his father being bossed around the house.
The one thing that gets his father fired up is volleyball, and he tells his son (again, no direct pressure - ââŚif you decide you want to continue playingâŚâ) that he hopes that Ushijima will come to like volleyball.
I think itâs significant that Ushijima says straight out that he doesnât want to be âlike his dadâ - heâs observed his father in the Ushijima household enough to not want to be in that position where his authority is overridden by another party. Rather, he wants to be the dependable ace who âcan pull off anythingâ. I also honestly think his passion for volleyball stems from his fatherâs.
tl;dr - Ushijima is more nuanced that most people give him credit for. Heâs most famous for the âyou should have come to Shiratorizawaâ shtick, but look a little closer, and youâll see a character with a particularly unique backstory amidst the HQ cast.
Favorite moment
Idea for a storyAdmittedly, I donât have a standalone story idea for Ushijima, but it would be interesting to maybe explore his development into Terrastorm and his early interactions with Oikawa as foster brothers in âEven Heroesâ.
Unpopular opinionUshijima Wakatoshi is not a bad guy yooooo. Ushijima is not emotionless; he merely processes and reacts to things/situations inwardly. Heâs socially awkward, not anti-social. Itâs easy to see Ushijima through Oikawa-lenses, but he genuinely expresses what he thinks with very little filtering.
Favorite relationshipHmmm, I mostly write Ushijima as a supporting chara. I suppose Ushijima/Semi?âŚI know a lot of people ship Ushijima/Tendou as well, but eeeh, I personally prefer them as bros.
Favorite headcanonUshijimaâs green thumb is amazing. Ushijima doesnât become a volleyball coach after he retires either, though he is occasionally coerced by his old teammates (if they become coaches) to demonstrate his skills. He picks up a degree in mechanical engineering, knowing that volleyball will not be a long-term career. He never stops playing volleyball though. He improves slightly at tact with age, but is best known for brutal honesty.[character meme]
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First impressionâAh, the token pretty-boy superior-skills character who will end up being taken down a peg or two. Possibly similar to Aomine Daichi/Atobe Keigo.â
Impression nowI WILL GO DOWN FIGHTING FOR THIS BOI*cough*One of the most beautifully fleshed out characters Iâve encountered in a sports manga, boasting one of the best balances between charisma, self-awareness and insecurity. From the get-go, you get an impression of how confident Oikawa is. He knows heâs a great setter; it shows in his plays and how he plans/sets without hesitation or doubt. At the same time, he is aware that his skills are as highly developed as they are though practice rather than natural talent, and works his ass off to push them to their highest potential. Heâs also all too conscious of the naturally gifted, and fears being surpassed by something completely out of his control (raw talent). This worry fluctuates, occasionally getting bad enough that it visibly frustrates him for long periods of time, even causing him to lash out thoughtlessly, almost physically retaliating against Kageyama once. For me at least, that makes him so relatable, itâs almost ridiculous. Hereâs a character whoâs confident on the outside, but hides an inner core of insecurity that try as he might, he canât completely dispel because thereâs no actual way to fix the problem causing it.I really like his pettiness as well, but thatâs not completely unique to Oikawa as a character. Still, it adds a nice dimension to his personality. Donât get me started on his dynamics with the others, I can talk about Oikawa and Iwaizumi until the cows come home, probably.
Favorite moment
*SCREAMS INCOHERENTLY*
Idea for a storyI would really like to flesh that Overwatch!AU I have in my mind-archives somewhere. Something completely new thoughâŚI still have that soulmate-inversion trope I want to work on, but havenât.Â
Unpopular opinionIâm not sure I have unpopular opinions, to be honestâŚ? Maybe that Oikawa isnât completely incapable outside volleyball? I mean, I believe he enjoys being doted on, but heâs not completely reliant (on Iwaizumi or anyone else) to function.I do think Oikawa could end up on the National team, but may not make it into the first string/would not stay long in first string. The competitiveness it takes to be on a top-tier team would draw out that small difference between honed and honed+raw talent, and given the competition there is likely to be for that one spot, itâs unlikely Oikawa would make that final cut. Would Oikawa destroy himself to try to narrow that gap? Mmmm, could be spun either way, depending on the fic context.
Favorite relationshipOikawa/Iwaizumi - Iwaoi. Seriously, this ship got me back into the fanfic writing scene, thatâs how motivational this ship is. The canon relationship between these two is so strong, I cannot - Oikawaâs absolute confidence that Iwaizumi will hit any toss Oikawa sends him, that Iwaizumi is always the best choice for a spike in a pinch, how Iwaizumi moderates Oikawaâs behavior (comic relief/pulling him out of his self-esteem issues), the casual way they treat/talk to each other that hints at a solidly-built friendship - hi, I think Iâll go read some Iwaoi now.
Favorite headcanonOikawa realizes he loves his childhood friend through the absence-makes-the-heart-fonder trope. Oikawa secretly likes matching clothes with Iwaizumi, no matter how much he complains that Iwa-chan has bad fashion sense (HEY, I SHOULD WRITE THIS.) Oikawa isnât very fond of coffee, but is good at making it because itâs Iwaizumiâs preferred choice of drink. Oikawa is uncannily perceptive at picking up peopleâs emotions, but off-court, heâs not always accurate at deducing the causes behind them. Oikawa, tucked in fluffy blankets, half-asleep against a windowsill waiting for Iwaizumi to come home. Oikawaâs back-up career after retirement is not being a volleyball coach, though he would do coaching on the side for fun.
Buckle up, guys, because I HAVE A LOT OF FEELINGS AND YOU GUYS ASKED TO SEE MY LOVE LETTER TO IWAIZUMI SO.
First impressionâHmmm, seems like an unassuming supporting character.ââŚI canât lie; Iwa-chan isnât an early attention-grabber. The first time Seijou appeared, the focus was given to Kindaichi and Kageyamaâs old rift (thus giving Kindaichi most of the scenes) and then Oikawaâs entrance. Iwaizumiâs mostly shafted at the beginning.
Impression nowI WILL MOVE MOUNTAINS FOR THIS BOI.You know how I love Oikawa? I love Iwaizumi more. Iâm doing the fist-heart-clutch right now just thinking about him, ugh how is he so good.Hereâs the thing: Iwaizumi is shown to have high physical strength, and is a strong wing spiker and ace with above-average skills. But heâs not exceptional in his volleyball potential, especially in a sports series populated with characters like Bokuto, Oikawa, Ushijima and even Aone.Where Iwaizumi shines is his role as an unwavering support/anchor for Oikawa. Iâd argue that this was pre-planned from the start: their names when combined [ âä¸ĺžšâ ittetsu (the combination of âHajimeâ and âTooruâ)]  means âobstinate; stubborn; inflexibleâ, implying even in the character planning stage, Furudate had created these two to be optimal when paired together. Names aside, look at their dynamics; even with shipping goggles off, their synergy is undeniable, and after Oikawaâs grand introduction, they often appear together in off-scenes. Iâll spare you guys the more popular scenes (i.e. Iwaizumi knowing Oikawa would go watch Karasuno vs. Shiratorizawa) in favor of highlighting less obvious panels:
Note that while Oikawa is the focus in both these frames (neither meant to highlight Iwaizumi in any form), Iwaizumi is also present. This is a constant recurrence in the manga; theyâre often found physically standing together, or in close vicinity of each other.Then letâs talk about Iwaizumi as a stabilizing influence on Oikawa. This plays out in two aspects: the first is as a running gag that Iwaizumi is Oikawaâs keeper. Heck, even Irihata (the coach) tells Iwaizumi to fetch Oikawa in a fashion that implies that itâs something Iwaizumiâs done often enough. And of course, there are a flurry of gifs of Iwaizumiâs terrifying expression cowing Oikawa into easy submission (âNobody hits me like that! - oh, Iwachan.â *follows docilely*)The second aspect is the more critical one, and likely the reason why they make such a great ship: Iwaizumi actively bolsters and maintains Oikawaâs sense of confidence in his skills. Itâs not wrong to say that Iwaizumi actually actively enables Oikawa to play at the peak of his skills:
Look at what Iwaizumi says here, and how Oikawa responds: thereâs a sense that this is an oft-repeated argument between these two, with Iwaizumi actively reminding Oikawa that heâs actually good in his role. Iâve said in Oikawaâs character analysis that despite his confidence, Oikawa has a core of insecurity that if left unchecked, could be destructive on his psyche and well-being. Following that, I donât think Iâm overreaching in saying that while heâs not the only factor in play, Iwaizumi is a crucial contributor to keeping Oikawaâs confidence at the healthy level it is. He also acts as Oikawaâs check, preventing him from doing regrettable things that range from trivial (âDonât stay up all nightâ) to significant (preventing Oikawa from injuring himself/ injuring Kageyama):
Oikawaâs trust in Iwaizumi is high enough that Iwaizumiâs words actually penetrate and stick - they work, and Oikawa calms down enough to play at his best again. Note that the above is while theyâre in Kitagawa Daiichi - the Iwaoi relationship started early, and continued into the Seijou arc. If you need further proof of their implicit trust in each other, look no further than that iconic in-manga analysis that Oikawa will always toss to Iwaizumi in a pinch. In short, instinctually, Oikawa will always trust Iwaizumi above all his other teammates.
Ushijima may have said Oikawa would be better off in Shiratorizawa, but take a minute to think of the dynamics in Shiratorizawa. Yes, the volleyball skill level is higher, which would utilize Oikawaâs strengths more, but think of the team membersâ various personalities, and consider Oikawaâs insecurities again. While I do like Shiratorizawa on its own merit, I donât think itâs unreasonable to conclude that Oikawa is likely to burn himself out/injure himself in an attempt to âbe betterâ beyond his feasible limits without Iwaizumi around. Heck, think of Aobajousai minus Iwaizumi - how do you think Oikawa would fare?tl;dr: All hail Iwa-chan, the Oikawa-whisperer.
Okay, some quick non-related Oikawa-stuff: Iwaizumi is also extremely perceptive and authoritative; itâs implied heâs more reliable than Oikawa as a vice-captain in club affairs. This shows best with Kindaichi and most importantly, Kyoutani. Iwaizumi asserts his dominance with his physical strength, but itâs worth noting that heâs aware of it and does use it to direct Kyoutani. Also, Iwaizumiâs is always shown as steady - not once do you see him being jealous, or tired of dealing with Oikawa. He is patient, observant, and pro-active with a good sense of self-esteem - case in point, he tells Oikawa he looks forward to meeting him as an equal rival, placing himself toe-to-toe with Oikawaâs massive skills. Iwa-chan is perfect.Â
Favorite momentEvery moment is a favorite Iwa-chan moment. But here, have casual-clothes!Iwaizumi, with casual-Oikawa!burn:
Idea for a storyThe Overwatch AU mentioned in Oikawaâs section, with Iwaizumi as Hanzo. Ideally, Iâd like to write a longfic featuring Iwaizumiâs POV one day though, set in a contemporary slice-of-life setting.Â
Unpopular opinionUh, again, I really donât think I have unpopular opinions?âŚBut I downplay Iwaizumiâs insulting of Oikawa - itâs usually strategic, and he times it well; he doesnât toss them out without good purpose. Itâs pretty much a boke-tsukkomi relationship.Also, I feel that itâs unlikely that Iwaizumi will go pro - as much as this manga hypes up their skills, itâs worth remembering theyâre only at high-school level; even on this playing field, Iwaizumi is not particularly exceptional skill-wise, with most of his playing potential amplified by Oikawa. Heâll likely continue playing in university, maybe more actively if itâs with Oikawa (mostly at Oikawaâs insistence), but aside from upkeeping his general fitness (gym, maybe), heâs likely to downscale his volleyball playing over time in favor of focusing on his studies.
Favorite relationshipGosh, I wonder what it could be.Â
Favorite headcanonIwaizumi actually does decently at every sport; in high school, whenever other teams need a filler, heâs a common go-to substitute. Iwaizumi eventually majors in Physiotherapy - not (solely) because of Oikawa, but because heâs genuinely interested in understanding how the body works and how injuries effect it. Iwaizumi is a late riser, and extremely hard to rouse in the morning if there are no classes. He eventually learns to drive, but prefers to ride shotgun. Iwaizumi is not a particularly romantic person, but never hesitates to say âI love youâ to his s/o (Oikawa). Heâs surprisingly weak to physical affection; heâll never say it out loud,but he loves being kissed along his neck, and sleeping in his s/o (Oikawaâs) lap.[character meme]
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1) How many works in progress to do you currently have in progress?
I usually focus on one WIP at a time, but currently, I suppose I have 3: a finished one ready to go (by this weekend, if all goes according to plan!), sentences scrapped together from a flash of an idea, and scenes from a story that was compelling once.
2) Do you/would you write fan fiction?
I write more fanfiction than original work, Iâm afraid.
3) Do you prefer paper books or ebooks?
Paper, for most part.
4) When did you start writing?
When I was super-young - maybe around nine or so?
5) Do you have someone you trust that you share your work with?
I spam @wataksampingan most times; sheâs kind of my beta reader and monkey-kicker most times.
6) Where is your favourite place to write?
At home, on my laptop.Â
7) Favourite childhood book?
Got a whole bunch of this, but the ones that come to mind are âAnne of the Islandâ by Lucy Maud Montgomery, Louisa May Alcottâs books (especially âSix Cousinsâ and âRose in Bloomâ), âThe Coral Islandâ by R.M. Ballantyne, The Nancy Drew series by Carolyn Keene and âThe Faraway Treeâ by Enid Blyton.
8) Writing for fun or writing for publication?
For fun, though I enter competitions every once in a while. Have had a couple of short essays published, but given that I write a lot of fanfiction, the majority of my writing is produced as an outlet for my indulgent ideas.
9) Pen and paper or computer?
Computer. I can work with pen and paper, but not for long stuff.
10) Have you ever taken any writing classes?
Yep; when I was very young, and during my Masters (âNon-Fiction Writingâ, and âPoetry and Musicâ).
11) What inspires you to write?
The idea of a story I really want to see realized. I donât usually visualise a story in its entirety until I actually write it out.
Gonna tag @newamsterdame, @shions-heart, @kythen, @risquetendencies, @pallasjoannas and any writer keen on doing this meme. ^^
Hi Axtar! (If it's okay to call you that?) I've been reading your fics for a while now and I just noticed that some of them are in present tense and some in past tense. I was so absorbed in them I didn't realize it until now! As a writer myself, I'm always conflicted which tense to use and end up sticking to what's familiar for me (present tense). How do you decide?
Hey hey, anon! Axtar is fine. :D
First and foremost, thank you for reading my fics - I hope theyâve been enjoyable for most part!
As for the tensesâŚI wish I could tell you thereâs a fixed formula for my usage of tenses, but for most part, itâs mostly instinctual. lD;;;; Personally, I find past tense easier for describing action scenes/action in general, while present tense is my go-to for descriptive prose. So I guess it really comes down to the first scene I jot down for a fic; if I start with a descriptive passage, itâs probably going to end up in present tense. If I start with some sort of action scene, then itâs more likely to end up in past tense.
Iâm sorry if this is not terribly helpful! o(*´д`*)o
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hi! It's Yori from the ao3 comments section! I actually had come here with fic questions, but I saw the writing slump post and I just wanted to say chin up girl! even if you haven't made any progress writing, the fact that you even bothered to try in the first place is great! If you need a haitus, take a proper haitus and rest up! I'll still be here supporting you! :) I'm gonna drop a few more longer reviews later on ao3, so don't be too harsh on yourself ok? Hope you feel better!
*big-big hugs*Honestly, thank you for this peptalk so very much! When I looked at my post this morning, I winced at how whiny it sounded, and actually considered flipping it to private. Iâm thinking Iâll give myself maybe another week or two to clear off the big things at work, then start working on a paragraph a day to get myself rolling again. May not necessarily be good stuff, but anything is progress, right?And this isnât pressure to write more reviews *flails*, but your long reviews are so epic, whenever I check my inbox and see one, I find a comfy place to settle down and savor it. Itâs so good to read your running commentary as you go through the fic - do you write it as you read? However you go about doing it, please allow me to bury you with fuzzy gratefulness.â¤
(Feel free to hit me with the fic questions anyway! All the fic-canon in my head has to be useful for something.)
*trots in* hey it's yori from ao3, since I saw that you want people to talk to you about your fics, truly why does seijou cling to the mine in"Sing with me", and also can I get the deets for what really went down in the kurodai dance fic when iwa ran after oikawa? or better yet, can I get the thoughts of iwa from both "same space" and "sing with me" when Oikawa flashes that skin via pulling down zipper/pulling collar parts respectively? iwa being thirty for oikawa makes my day lol.
Oh also this isnât in anon but Iâd say your specialty would be AU fics.Â
Looking back at my stuffâŚI really doâŚwriteâŚa lot of AUs. Hopefully good AUs though! I tend to get caught up in planning the settings and making sure everything makes sense that I feel that I sometimes over-plan and mess up what I initially want to convey.Â
Detailed explanation of the significance of the JiyĹŤshinu mines in A Song of Conquest and Fate and an Iwaoi drabble in the Seen A Million Faces universe below the cut:Â
A Song of Conquest and Fate: JiyĹŤshinu mines/Tanima Gyakusatsu The reason why Seijou clings to the JiyĹŤshinu mines is two-fold. Firstly, it really does contribute largely to the main exports of Seijou. More importantly however, it is a significant site for an event that led to the end of the Kasai Age.Â
I actually outlined a brief history here to @silentmight and @wataksampingan, but tl;dr - Oikawa, at the command of his father, massacred 28 men (the strongest and oldest cavalry unit in Seijouâs then-army) who were publicly revolting against the emperorâs tyrannical rule at said mines. This kind of protest was the first of its kind, given that the emperor was considered the favored child of the gods and it was considered suicidal/impossible to oppose him. That it had managed to amass as many as 28 people was already noteworthy in and of itself. But doubt had already already growing within the people regarding the fourth Seijou no TennĹ, especially since he had shown no proof of wielding elfire, forcing the young prince to use it in his stead. Added to the cruelty of his reign, there were whispers that Seijou no TennĹ was not as favored by the gods as he proclaimed himself to be after all. Yet no one dared to revolt for fear of their lives until this incident, which was later called âTanima Gyakusatsuâ - The Calvary Massacreâ.Â
At that point in time, Oikawa (despite/because of being emotionally abused by his father) believes his fatherâs rule to be fair and just. Tanima Gyakusatsu is the first of a series of events that ultimately led to Oikawa killing his father and taking over as emperor. The JiyĹŤshinu minesis thus perceived as a sacred site: for the people of Seijou, it represents the power of the public citizensâ voices. For Oikawa, it is a bitter reminder of who he once was, and who he must never be again.
(âŚok, I lied: that wasnât as tl;dr at all! But this is as concise as I can get? ;â;)
Seen A Million Faces: What happened to Iwaoi? âŚin all honesty, I was flailing so hard over writing the Kurodai in this, I didnât actually plan out the Iwaoi get-together part of this fic at all. lDD;;; *guilty face* But!Â
Iwaizumi pretty much runs all the way to Nekoma, probably frightening some of the students exiting/entering. He ignores Levâs loud âHey, what are you-?â in favor of dashing down the corridor, careening around Kai like a drunkard on a mission.Heâs not drunk, not by a long shot - if anything, everythingâs that much sharper, that much clearer, emotions and thoughts merging to focus on one person, and one person only-Here.The door slams against the wall, too loud, too hard, but Iwaizumi doesnât care, canât care about anything but the roomâs lone occupant, whose head had whipped up, startled, large hazel eyes growing even wider as he registers Iwaizumiâs presence. Heâs seated on the hardwood floor, legs stretched before him, a support bandage firmly wrapped around his injured knee. Not dancing, at least, even if he was too much of a stubborn idiot to stay at home and rest. His sweater is loose around the collar, worn thin from age, and his hair is up and out of his eyes - the dancer clearly hadnât bothered too much with his appearance.Â
Somehow, heâs still so goddamned handsome, he took what remained of Iwaizumiâs heaving breaths away.
Oikawaâs still staring - they both are, in some bizarre parody of a showdown as the melody of âShape of Youâ vibrates through the walls. Time hasnât stopped, but Iwaizumi feels stuck in place, fixed in this moment that hovered upon a threshold ofâŚwhat? Change? Revelations? Iwaizumi is a volleyball player, not a poet. Heâs a realist, not a dreamer. Itâs why heâs never allowed himself to picture how things might be like if OikawaâŚwell. It was easier to remind himself of all the things that could, that would go wrong. Easier to dislike Kuroo and his âintimacyâ with Oikawa than to admit that he wanted that too.
Easier to swallow his feelings and keep them pent up, the best friend of the best dancer he knows than to doâŚ.whatever he seems to be trying to do right now.
Oikawa likes you. A damn lot.
But did he really? Now that the momentum of adrenaline is no longer propelling him forward, the familiar doubt creeps over him, efficiently suppressing any urge to confess to Oikawa. It subsumes him, merciless in reminding him that there was no reason for Oikawa to pick him over any of his other friends. Just because Kuroo is out of the picture doesnât means Oikawa is unattached -
âIwa-chan.â Oikawaâs voice is just about audible over the music, and shit, Iwaizumi isnât prepared for this.  âWhat are you doing here?â
âYou shouldâŚgo home.â Was that croaking him? âRest. Uh.â
Numb feet donât register the one, two steps Iwaizumi takes back out of the doorway. He needs to regroup, he hadnât thought this through -Â Something smacks him squarely in the side -one of Oikawaâs shoes, its owner holding the other one, face twisted up as if he might cry. Even teeth are pressed hard against the dancerâs lower lip though, and when he next speaks, anger was a tremulous thread lacing each word together.
âDonât you dare. Donât you dare run. Get over here.âÂ
Oikawa beckons and Iwaizumi comes. But hasnât this always been the case with Oikawa?
âIwa-chan.â This close, itâs hard to miss the shakiness in Oikawaâs voice. âWhy are you here?â
âIâŚyouâŚâ Iwaizumi tries, but his heartbeat is heavier than the bass of the song in his ear, louder and faster and blocking up his throat just when he needed words the most. He starts to lean in, hesitates - what the fuck are you doing, you canât just -
And Oikawa meets him where he is, chapped lips soft as they moved against Iwaizumiâs, tentative and hopeful.
*buries head in pillow and screams*Â
I was supposed to be writing head-canon, not a drabble. Literally banged this out at my desk at work - sorry for any errors/general blahness that might have appeared.
 As for Iwaizumiâs thoughts re: Oikawa and his sexy relationships with exposed collars, I might one day actually write Iwaizumiâs POV on that in another fic. But know that in both cases you mentioned, he was indeed a very thirsty man.
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yorimei replied to your post â*trots in* hey it's yori from ao3, since I saw that you want people to...â
Asked a question and got a Drabble instead? Lord I couldn't stop grinning, I had to look down on my walk to class so that I didn't look like a crazy person!!! Thank you for answering my questions!!! But how dare you tease me with the hint of "I might include iwazumi's thoughts in a different story", lady it's time for you to square up imma fight you ����. Also your iwazumi is probably one my all time favorites, I adore the way you write him!
I donât know; I could fight you, I suppose. Or I could do this:
A drop of sweat rolls down Tooru's neck, a testament to how humid the weather has been lately. Hajime watches it as it travels downwards, a stripe silvered by the street lights that peek through the blinds as it rolls towards the groove of Tooru's collarbone, slow, taunting.
Hajime watches it because that's all he can do - watch.Â
His breathing is too loud in the small space they inhabit. His fingers twitch and all he wants to do is touch, goddamnit. His palms curl and uncurl, Â sweaty and fidgety.
"Looks like someone's already all excited, mmm?"
The scarves are snug around his wrist as it jerks forward futilely, muscles jumping in his arm against the restraints. Smacking Tooru is instinctive; Hajime does it all the time - to scold, to draw his attention, to deflect from Hajime's own embarrassment.Â
But now, bound as he was, there's nothing Hajime can do but squirm, heat beading all over his skin as he watches Tooru watch him, hazel eyes glittering. He's flushed all over - as tanned as Hajime is, his body is often too honest. It tells Tooru what Hajime won't say at times - now, it betrays Hajime's arousal as loudly as if Hajime had been begging with every exhale that curls, warm into the space between them.
Hajime holds Tooru's gaze as long as he could, given his naked state in comparison to Tooru's still-dressed appearance. The minute he drops his eyes though, Tooru is abruptly in his space, hands gentle but insistent on his face as they turn Hajime's focus back onto him.Â
They've only just started and already Hajime is running out of breath. It's too much. It's not enough.
"Shittykawa,â he rasps, desperate. âfucking get on with it."
Tooru clicks his tongue, then leans in to nip at Hajime's neck. "Now, now, Iwa-chan, good things come to people who are patient." A slow undulation of hips against Hajime's, and Tooru greedily devours the groans that leak from the corners of Hajime's mouth.Â
"And I'm at my most patient today, don't you agree?"