#aiupenn

Oh, Lane, Lane, Lane… What a beautiful person, both in and out.

I still remember the first time we met; although I believe we did have some brief interactions in a big BSD server at one time previously, it was through a mutual friend or two that we were actually introduced, and from the very beginning, my impression of you was completely spectacular and I liked you a whole lot, though I likely never said it enough due to the fact that I was admittedly quite shy around you at that time, along with the fact that there was a small difference of opinion that we had that made me feel…that perhaps you didn’t like me so much — though that quickly turned out to be nothing more than my own paranoia, looking back at it now. lol

I think that is one of the things that I really like and admire about you; as someone who is very used to having the very uncomfortable and unpleasant interactions that all of us pro-shippers and pro-stanners face in a world filled to the brim with closed-minded antis and cruel people with hardened hearts, talking with you has always been, by contrast, very refreshing and soul-healing given your capacity to accept and love even the people who sometimes have a different viewpoint than you on things.

To me, your presence has always been and always be very comforting; I am a very insecure person, and many times I second-guess myself and beat myself up over things I really shouldn’t, and that has often led to me feeling awkward and even doubting my own welcome in the Fic Support Server we’re in together…but every time I have started feeling that way lately, you have been there to reassure me otherwise and make me feel wanted. You really have no idea how much you’ve helped me in the time we’ve been there, and how much you’ve saved me and made me cry happy tears every time you’ve showed interest in my words and even said you valued my thoughts and opinions and hope to hear me talk…

Out of everyone in the server, though I love you all each very much, you really are one of the people I feel bonded to the most and though I know you are insecure about speaking at times, you are also one of the people I love engaging with the most and also hope to hear from in turn. I really wish that I could properly express how much I adore you as my friend and how much I enjoy hearing all of your takes, but I think that even if I went on for another few thousand words, it still wouldn’t be enough and I would still be dissatisfied with what I’ve put down here and just keep droning on and on until you were bored to death with all I’ve given you to read. That’s a problem I always seem to have when it comes to things like this; that I don’t know how to communicate all of what’s in my heart without just going on forever, because try as I might, no matter how much I say or how I say it, I can’t help feeling that there aren’t enough words in any language anywhere to truly bring my feelings to life in front of you and make the people I love feel all of the love they deserve to feel.

Be that as it may, I’m certainly going to try and to hope and pray that somehow, someway, you’ll hear the sound of my heart pouring out all of my respect and admiration through the things I have to say. When you’re out there facing the hardships you face in fandom and in life, please just know that I am always here and supporting you to the best of my ability, my dear friend, for you mean the world to me, and every time someone says something hurtful to you or your tastes, I just want to erase it all and make it all right for you again, because you are amazing and all of your likes, your faves and your ships are, too.

Bless, my good sir, and may you always feel safe, secure, and happy in spite of whatever the world throws at you.

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“ It was only a sunny smile, and little it cost in the giving, but like morning light it scattered the night and made the day worth living. ” - Tender Is The Night

Such a pretty quote, right? Well, that’s what I believe about Valentine’s Day, and the simple act of a smile can go a long way! With all this rhyming out of the way..

Happy Valentine’s Day, Lane!

It’s been an absolute blast getting to know you, and here’s to a long friendship, right? You’re one of the kindest and most enthusiastic people I know and (this is 100% giving away who i am ;0;) I’m really so glad you enjoy original characters as much as I do! It’s always a little inspiration boost whenever I talk to you, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything.

You’ve got such a wonderful heart and it really shines in everything you do. You’re a beautiful person, in your soul and wherever else beauty counts, and I truly wish you happiness wherever life may take you. You deserve all the joys in the world, from the small to the big, and you have my word that you’re never alone <3

All the best chocolates,

- Your Secretest Pal

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What do I say about Lane except that you’re awesome and a really swell dude 10/10 would befriend again. But seriously man I love having you around and I’m so glad always to meet another person who’s willing to ship even the strangest of rarepairs, and also like… fyokarma rights. I haven’t read much of your writing because we don’t often share ships, but of what I have read, I super love it and I think you’re really skilled and talented, and you have such a good grasp over your characters! I can’t wait to see what all you end up putting out, and I hope I’ll be able to read lots of it!

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