#airiespost

is it selfish or bad to say that people who died were supposed to? like what if later on in their life they had cancer or they never had kids and died alone or killed them selves and hurt more people around them concluding in more deaths than 1. i'm not saying it's good that they're dead i'm saying maybe everything happens for some reason or another.

i was thinking, when i die. i don't want anyone at my funeral speaking for me saying shit that isn't true. basically my entire life is a goddamn lie. i hate having people ask me what's wrong when i'm not energetic, i'm just being myself. when people see me just fucking chilling out and have to ruin my mood by asking me what's the matter. i don't care if you're concerned, it just makes me angry because i feel like i live this character thats crazy energetic and fun all the time. i can't sit 2 minutes without talking and someone saying "what's wrong why aren't you talking, what's the matter with you" nobody actually knows whats going on inside my head or who i am. i just want to meet new people so i don't have to be this person anymore. i feel like it's a burden or chore to act exciting all the time.

my definition of "i don't have a type" is thinking all the creatures and interns are cute.