#aipla

(context: shizuku has been an idol fan her whole life, attending concerts alone since the second grade because her cousin sister, who's like a sister to her, became an idol. she was a super fan of idols in general after getting specifically into her cousin's group, and then started becoming friends with a lot of the adults who frequented the scene, being known as a veteran fan by the time she got to middle school. however, when she had to fill out a form 'what do you want to be when you grow up', her cousin encouraged her to put down 'idol', since, as such a big fan, she must have some love for it in her heart! shizuku didn't believe it, and got insecure about it, but submitted it anyway; then, though, her classmates found out and started spreading rumors and saying nasty stuff to her. she's always had issues with not being able to smile properly or not being expressive, so they insulted her like that, and then started actually bullying her physically (throwing her shit in the trash, hiding it, beating her up, insulting her, telling her that her dreams would never come true, stealing her stuff) to the point when they started sending horrible messages (implied in the JP to be death threats/kys messages) to her sms account which she used to keep in touch with her friends. there's a whole-ass message board about people shitting on her dreams in secret, which she the gets invited to??? so, then, she deletes her social media (which causes her to lose contact with all of her friends she's met through her interest in idols) and transfers schools, plus stops thinking she'll ever be an idol. D: )

btw this is probably the censored version since she was telling this to her friends and she feels like she's a burden regardless, like, canonically.