#ainre

ive decided to be bad at everything yet do it anyway and god what a liberating thing that is

i feel arrogant and obnoxious whenever i whine and complain about everything im unhappy with in my life, inconveniences, tragedies. because how is that not the most entitled thing to say when countless people out there have it way worse than me?i know i know that doesnt invalidate my problems. i should be smart enough to realise that. i should be smart and resilient, right? maybe all my problems would disappear if i was just a little less dumb. hey youre talking down about yourself again hey dont do that thats not nice and it never helps. im actually sitting on the toilet seat rn. im on a poop break. i have my final in the evening tmrw. i cried myself to sleep in the afternoon today. because im giving my all and despite it all despite it goddamn all im being hopeful and brave and since the past four years the list of things i can be grateful for has been shrinking and yet im waiting just in case things get better. but im tired others having it so easy. i just want to get what i want. does that really make me a monster? i think im cursed and doomed. i cant help but see myself going down the same road as my dad. thats all ive known right? we share the same fate dont we?

it's a defense mechanism sorry

the feminine urge to say areyyyyy

miss ma'am mitski you did not need to do that to me today

not to be that person who watched squid game and now wants to watch more kdramas but can someone pls recommend some? i trust ur taste dw i wont be mean about it,, also i think ill watch hometown chachacha because seems to be the buzz of the town?