#ain sof

"They're trying to start a fire out there and they don't know what the heck they're doing." - Mother Mary, on the subject of Earth

"fine, but it's the last time, I've had enough of this nonsense." - Jesus

Mary shuts the window.

Whores of Wealth,

Extinguish bloodmeatungh

THE CELESTIAL

Eternal

HROOMBA.

Awaken;

Rise.

    I peer out into the abyss, that never-ending blanket of seemingly empty space. The Ain Sof.

    "The wave of blackness tossed [me] an immeasurable distance, through realms of vacant space where stars rolled in their inscrutable dance, through clouds of blinding colors more vast than [I] could even imagine, where time itself was squeezed and stretched by colossal forces. [I] was lost, lost...but still [I] arced through [my] trajectory, a tiny star."                     -The Singing, by Alison Croggon

    I flew until I could fly no more. I sank into the very depths of my being, unable to perceive the infinite soul around me. How can I grasp infinity within my mind, when I am a finite being? For this is what true spirit is: clutching the infinite and feeling comfort in its arms. It is feeling the lines blur between my body of flesh, blood, and soul, and feeling the earth around me. It is becoming one with that.

    I want to be held by you, The Universe. I want to be embraced as one with you. I want to feel the fear and the exhilaration, the love and the sadness, the elation and the complete. I want to know and feel and be all of you. I want to know you.

    I have been blessed. I now know what true love is, that which is a gift of myself to another. And yet, as a human, I want more. My happiness is fulfilled with my love. My love for my other soul, my family, my close friends and my future family. My purpose, however, will be fulfilled with healing and spirit. Bless me with that ability to heal - to give others a chance at life and at beauty, to give others a chance to breathe and fulfill their purposes. Bless me with your presence, with knowledge and lack of doubt, with true spirit filling the very fibers of my being.