#aimuri

my answers sucks but here ya go darlin’ 

5. do you think of yourself as a human being or a human doing? do you identify yourself by the things you do?

Shortly, I don’t identify with what I do. I identify with what I think and feel, and what my intentions are. And very often, I cover myself up and put on an act. So what I do is not a representation of what I am. I am a human being.

6. are you religious/spiritual?

I’m not religious - I haven’t comitted to one religion just yet. I just looked up what the heck a spiritual person is, and oh god no. Do I look like Mother Theresa?

7. do you care about your ethnicity?

Not really. It doesn’t define me anyway. I do realize that I was born with privelegies comparing to people of other ethnicities however.

8. what musical artists have you most felt connected to over your lifetime?

I’ve felt really connected with Marina & the Diamonds, and perhaps a lil’ with Melanie Martinez, but no more really. I usually connect with singular songs, not the whole package.

9. are you an artist?

It depends on your definition of art. I draw sometimes, but I used to be able to turn words into art. I used to be able to paint smiles on people’s faces. But I’ve kind of lost that. Anyway, I don’t draw enough to call myself an artist.

10. do you have a creed?

So, a creed from my google experience is something you dream to be? A confession? What the heck is it? I’m getting headaches from scrolling through extremely christian websites. They scare me.

11. describe your ideal day.

My ideal day would be… A happy-go-lucky shoujo manga day with lots of hugs and friendship. That’d be really lovely. And lotta nice food.

12. dog person or cat person?

Well, I am definately more cat in my soul than dog. But at the same time, I love dogs. Cats aren’t as fun. It’s funnier to tease dogs, I wouldn’t ever do that to a cat. I mean, I’ve got common sense. But I respect cats more, I feel more at home with them. I admire them dearly. So cat-person it is!

13. inside or outdoors?

Outdoors on a summer night together with a bunch of laughters. Generally inside though, can’t be social amirite? Ahah hah…

14. are you a musician?

Nopety-nope! Definately not.

15. five most influential books over your lifetime.

Oh, wow. So this is going to be ridiculous, but… There was this book that I read like, in sixth grade which actually really spoke to me and affected me in various ways. It’s by Patricia McCormick and it’s called “Cut” (The name was “True Pain” in swedish, so it wasn’t as… Pointly.). Thinking back, I gotta reread that one. Especially since it’s way more relevant right now than in sixth grade.

Other than that, Alice in Wonderland has always influensed my life. It has always just been whispering to me and I’ve always felt myself in that tale. Not in any of the characters, but in the whole book.

Looking For Alaska formed a view on death as in suicide and not finding answers, The Fault in Our Stars made me change my perspective on life and death.

I don’t know, I don’t read alot of books. Or well, I guess I usually do, but nothing relevant. I have been wanting to read “A Vision” by William Butler Yeats, however, and I think that might be something influential.

21. do you love easily?

I do. I think that I actually love too easily - and too fast as well. There was this girl that wrecked me not so long ago. I wanted to ruin every little part of her pathetic life for how she had treated me, and I’ve hated her ever since. I had really strong negative feelings about her, alright? I planned what I would say or do in imaginary situations that would never actually happen because I wanted to always be prepared around her and still show her that I’m the one who rules around there. I cried countless of times to my mother and my friends about how much I hated her and how much she hurt me.

Today, she spoke to me. It wasn’t anything special or anything, she just asked me two questions about this assignment in class that we have to do, making food for one another. But she hadn’t spoke to me for like, weeks? Months? I have no sense of time what so ever, but for a long time, and all this rage and hatred I had built up…

Gone.

The tone she spoke to me in wasn’t out of dislike or anything she’d do in my head, judging from the looks she had given me and my other friend. She talked as if I was her friend, as if this whole conflic never had happened. I bought it.iI got hopeful and happy. I feel as if I’m ready to hug her, joke with her and take her back. All my negative feelings are gone and now I feel some sort of nothingness but love and admiration towards her. It’s like I’m welcoming her back with open arms. I welcome her back into my love. And that kind of explains how I love too easily.