Sana nabigyan ako ng pagkakataon maranasan maramdaman na may buong pamilya, especially having ur parents na happily together..
Im hella mad tired yesterday.. Wala ako pahinga. Straight till now 3:57 am..and to be honest, this day isnt rlly good to me, but still di ko hinayaan magfully blaaah ako for the whole day. Umaga pa lng..wla ako masyado kinakausap.. Even my tita noticed na di ako kumikibo o nagsasalita, so after work pmnta kmi sa mall. I tried to enjoy myself being with them pro wala eh..siguro nadamay na rin ng pagod, Im not in the Mood to talk to anyone except to my baby, even tho i knw shes sleeping na. I keep txting her.. And i seriously miss her so damn much :( .. So yea late na kami nakauwi, and excited umuwi para marinig ko na boses ng baby ko.. Hmm medyo nawala pagod ko nung nakausap ko siya kahit puro kalokohan o asaran lang nagawang usapan, finally eh nangiti na ko :).. So after, wala pa rin pahinga.. Early morning na eh i was still fixing my friend's hair. Then biglang nagsync sakin parents ko :(.. I miss them both. Biglang halo halong emotion na naramdaman ko nung naalala ko sila. Sobrang nalungkot ako then i realized na napaluha ako, so while txting my baby, bigla ko nakuha magtanong sa knya kung ano feeling Ng buong pamilya, makita sila together and especially ung "feeling".. Sinagot niya lahat ng tanong ko.. So habang nagbabasa, di ko mapigilan sarili ko sa pag-iyak.. *sigh* speechless.. Nakaka'inggit?!..oo..di maiiwasan sa isang tulad ko na kahit kailan di naranasan ung naranasan nilang buong pamilya. Di lang siya tinanong ko ng ganito, marami na ko narinig na kwnto bout sa ganito. Lahat sila sinabing "masaya".. Napaisip ako, panong masaya? Like seriously how?.. I never felt that amazing happiness and smile na dulot ng buong pamilya, ung together pa rin parents mo.. Never.. I was in grade 3 ata when my dad left us for abroad, my first and last na nakita siya naglalakad papalayo back then,. I cant remember any. :'( even my parents joke to make me laugh when i was little, especially sa dad ko. I cnt remember his "touch" just last yr lang when he came back to our Life. But still.. Ang empty pa rin.. Pero sa mga nakwento at nakausap ko.hmm the way they talked bout happy family, randam ko ung saya nila.. Parang sarap sarap pala talaga sa pakiramdam. Like napapahanga ako. Nakakatuwa kasi ang swerte swerte nila! ..sayang lng. Di ako nabiyayaan maranasan ung mga nakita ,ngiti at saya na naramdaman nila having a complete family, having your both parents together na yung tipong nagkaisip kana. Well, i think the only thing i can say about this is...Thats life. Shit happens bro.
