Nov 26, 2025
Honestly
The only way this year could peak in godawful for me is if I end up having colon cancer ngl AND the fact it's even a possibility makes this one of the worst years in my life, if not at least the toughest.
#aifasrants#[probably delete later but]#[I swear to god this year is one of the toughest in a long while and yes I'm includig COVID]#[and yes the fact that I'm HESITANT whether to include the whole year that I had untreated CAH means. A Lot]#[gusee who also might've had an untreated kind of schizophrenia their entire life flskdjf]#[this is honestly. A year lkjfdslk]#[also I DO NOT KNOW what is going on in my colon. Definitely nothing fun but the doctor listed THAT as a possibility so]#[we're trying to rule that out]#[I will update once I know]#[also the AMOUNT of family tragedy is astounding]#[lost my grandma; a grand-aunt and a grand-uncle and my mom almost doesn't make it]#[I'm failing all the courses I'm currenty on at college]#[I'm unemployed]#[lost my high school best friend bc I dunno (he's alive but he refuses to talk to me)]#[and mmmmmmmm]#[I was sick on THE ENTIRETY of my birthday month]#[...]#[...at least I don't feel alone]#[that's a blessing]
