I am impatient for my life to begin. I cannot wait to receive the vile That will fill the needle; Which will penetrate my skin. My second shot at puberty. This time around, the right kind of change. Will my voice plunge? Will my beard grow? Will I finally feel happy in this body? This is not a sprint, but a marathon. I must pace my steps and make sure I do not fall to my demise. I am impatient to have a flat chest; To walk on the beach without a shirt on. The day I won't be called "Miss" or "ma'am," And my birth name will be a faded memory. Soon Aidan, everyone has been saying. Well, soon is just around the corner And I'm biting my nails.

Floating on clear water Where the trees stretch higher Than any fear I’ve ever known Clean air moves through my body, And the scent of pine Tickles my taste buds. The cold lake cloaks my skin. I get away from all my problems, And my mind is so far gone. You can find it somewhere in the wind, Rustling the branches of the trees. The bird’s cry echoes Into the canyons of lost time, And I highly doubt That you’ll ever find me.

I cannot tell If the trembles and shakes That go through my body and mind Are from you pleasuring me, Or from the way that you Make me feel like Everything will be okay. I would cross deadly waves Just to hear you say How much you love me. With your soft touch Everything else can fall. Yet I still know We will have each other. The obstacles we face, And the distances we cover; Make the vines of our love Grow even stronger. How lucky am I To feel so immensely Towards another person. It's not just anyone; it is you. Our souls are bound by the ropes-- Tightened by our affection. Can I be smothered in your love? I live for the day Where I will wake up next to you. In my present youth, I may sound naïve. But I swear we have loved each other In a life before.

I can't forget the first time The sharp pain was brought into my life They say it's love, I say it's a chemical reaction. With a feverish touch And our deadly attraction. I want us to take this slowly But my legs are shakin' And my throat is expanding So I can't say a word And my skin is swelling So I can't really think. When I can't take it anymore And I'm dead on the floor You can say love killed me Because I'm allergic to what I can't have.

I'd rather crash than never leave the ground.