๐๐ก๐ช๐๐๐๐๐ง๐'๐จ ๐๐๐ง๐จ๐ฉ ๐ฌ๐๐๐. @aicidos : โ as the saying goes, if you can't go in through the front door, go in through the back door. โ to edelgard, from claude.
๐ฎ๐น๐น ๐๐ต๐ถ๐ป๐ด๐ ๐ฑ๐ผ ๐ป๐ผ๐ ๐ฝ๐ฎ๐๐. seated below the high glass ceilings, so high that she feels dizzy when she turns her face skyward, her body has grown heavy with every thing which has not yet killed her. it feels like gravity is working against him, like the splintered remains called โ self โ and โ form โ are a moment away from collapsing in on themselves. like a star. but instead of creating something from the wreckage, edelgard thinks there will be nothing left when he is at last loosed from whatever is tethering her to the world. nothing at all. just a smear of blood on the ground, perhaps, long since coagulated. practically black. palm - up in his lap, he regards his hands. dark soil is caked under the nails and streaks over the creases of skin, stark against the quiet brown of her skin. the acrid scent of stiff, spined leaves sticks to them. heat pricks the nape of a slender neck and turns errant, baby - soft hairs a dark grey as they plaster to the skin. greenhouse duties don't bother her, not really, but there is to it all a quietude โ one that lends itself to meditations on memories best left alone.
steady fingers press seeds into thumb - sized holes, and he is reminded of small hands and mouths, black with flies. they were burned in the charnel house. even from underground, the smell of those fires made her sick beyond belief, and she had emptied her stomach again and again onto the stone floor until there was nothing left inside him, but the heaving didn't stop. edelgard looked at her brown vomit and knew she was going to die. but by some twist of fate, he didn't. a tightness constricts his chest. some days, she wishes she had died with the rest. she covers the seeds soundlessly, and moves onto the next planter. carrying them with him is much harder than simply following them into the jelly bloat. โ soon. โ he thinks as sweat drips into his eyes. โ iโll see you all soon. โ
caught up in the arms of ghosts, edelgard doesn't notice his company until a hand dangles a ring of keys before his face. light dances off the edges; the sound of metal clinking against itself fills the air, which has gotten close. his gaze dart up into the familiar face of his classmate, half - hidden in shadow. the cat who caught the mouse. rubbing the excess soil off her palms on her trousers, a faint smile crosses her face. she hopes it conceals the grotesques left inside her. claude has a nasty habit of seeing too much. โ your crudeness never ceases to amaze,ย claude. โ she says blithely. it can't be helped โ a warmth ekes into his chest. โ where were you sneaking around this time?ย ย if you feel so inclined to share. โ
hands fold in his lap, and a conspiratorial glint catches in a pale iris. โ i wouldโve thought seteth had sealed every entrance to prohibited areas since the lastย โฆย incident. not well enough, evidently. โ try as she might to hide it, she's terribly interested in whatever trouble claude was skirting around. it, too, will serve as a much - needed distraction. he has to put all this suffering down somewhere.