semi plotted starter for @rinksaint
Everything had been perfect, not just with work, but his personal life had never been better, and he was beyond in love. That was why this was the hardest decision he'd ever had to make, one that he wasn't even sure was the right choice, but how much of that was just his own selfishness? He was clinging to the dream in his head, which meant spending the rest of his life with Troy, but what would Troy's life look like after? Harris knew his life wouldn't be as long, and his most recent health scare had nearly resulted in just that. He'd gotten too comfortable; the implant was still fairly new, all things considered, and there had just been some complications. Health scares had always terrified him; the possibility of his parents outliving him had never been something that sat well with him, and now he had Troy. Beautiful, perfectly imperfect, love of his life, Troy, and he panics, because he knows he shouldn't do this to him. It was real now, he was beyond in love with him, and wasn't it better to suffer now for a little while? To be able to go forward now that he was out and meet perfectly healthy guys who could easily guarantee that Troy would have them for the rest of his life? It's what had led him to this conversation, to sitting opposite Troy rather than beside him, tears in his eyes and telling him, "I can't do this. This," he gestures between them, "is going to destroy you."
