#agree!!!!!!!

i don't remember the exact quote, but misha was talking about how when he first became a famous actor, or an actor in the limelight, he censored himself for about a month before telling himself that that wasn't him and he didn't give a fuck.

which is something i constantly think back to. whenever i enter new situations i am always overcome with this incredible shyness, worried that people are judging me, or if they find out about different personality quirks i have, they'll immediately push me away. so i keep it all locked in, i giggle and add comments under my breath, i blend in, choosing not to stand out, to be the vibrant person i am. but misha, he reminded me that people are going to judge you whether you are yourself or not. he reminds me that being myself will get me more friends then fading to the back ever will.

not to mention that i can watch videos of cas and laugh and forget all my stress and anxiety. i watch 'no he isn't on any flat bread' or 'i found a liquor store' and i'll still laugh, and i'll feel better. it'll keep me from dropping to the dark areas of my head. it makes me laugh on ugly cold monday mornings on the way to school, it makes me laugh during lunch when i'm sitting alone in a classroom.

misha is an ass, a troll and incredibly wise and well read. he can quote novels about WWII and talk about how horrible jared's farts are all in one breath. he talks about his past without shame, instead of letting it keep him down, he uses to remind himself to do good, to repay the kind acts that got him where he is today. he's so incredibly human to me, it makes me love him, and when he tells a joke, it feels like he's telling me, and it makes me feel less alone.