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petition for bunnycat to draw pathetique miku more because if not i will legitimately explode and fucking die

so much would be different if we had our own money but unfortunately were not even allowed to make money or it'll tank our disability case that we are sunk-costed into pursuing even though it's basically certain we won't get it meanwhile medicaid is going to require work hours that we won't be able to complete i don't even know what will happen if I am not allowed to work still but it changes like do I just lose my health insurance. I really want to say fuck it and give up and just go thru the disability job training program and get transit assistance and get a desk job. All this like when this is done it'll be four years of our life wasted on a futile attempt to get the government to take pity on us and give us fucking less that a grand a month. but the backpay is lucrative and it would mean we don't have to kill ourself every day but man I just want to live a life... i definitely couldn't work when I first applied but who knows maybe if we are just in a different situation than before which was mostly food service and instead can sit like a receptionist gig or something we'll manage. but even then it could be really bad. we're being backed into a corner