#agerexscurra

And I really just- ugh. 

If she just disappears, or dies, or breaks up with him, or stops existing, he'll die.

Or at least try to, and end up in a mental ward slowly going mad and feeling worse than he already does. He'd kind of become useless as a muse, as his personality would flatline.

But, also with him being a single-ship...A lot of his relationships with people are half-based around the fact he's with Alys. 

For example, his friendship with Ciel, the friendzoning of Vic, and he's had countless conversations with others like Harley, Annie, or Alois about her- so he'd have to go and start over in those universes. That's a lot of work, and a ton of friendships to rebuild from the ground up.

I could act like she's still there, even when she's...not...?

Or, I could just pause him.

But, I feel like that's really unfair to me, as his writer. 

That, basically, I just have to stop using his modern almost completely just 'cause she's not there??

And, I could just keep him from killing himself, sure- but he'd be miserable. He'd never get over it. Like I said...he'd flatline. Literally he would lose all grip on his emotions and logic would take over. He'd be no fun to write, and no fun to interact with.

I've considered just knocking him into a coma and giving him amnesia, but his next coma is supposed to last until he's nineteen and I don't want to push his timeline so fast- and nineteen year old Kyn with the mindset of fourteen year old Kyn would honestly be a bit annoying.

I'm just gonna sit here with my face on my desk.