#affray

self control

I always feel like I'm on parole

I’ll fall into that depressive hole

ill grab the tennis ball

and ill start throwing it at the wall

the demons start talking

fuck another whore

it doesn’t matter anymore

believe me, I feel like its hell past that front door

They dont love me, that makes the day feel sore

gambling and mental ramblings fill my day

my emotions constantly affray 

I'm a public menace

I don't know how to act

i cannot control myself and that's a fact

my money goes down the drain

on shit i dont need

just to mask this pain

my emotions are wrong, they tell me