#affixjoy

this question doesn't have a simple answer, but i'll do my best.

as far as fic is concerned, probably some of my thasmin stuff - like candy floss or not a honeymoon (available on ao3!).

when it comes to my own original writing, and i am biased, it's the novel i've been writing and rewriting for the last almost 2 years - the hand you're dealt, even if it still needs a lot of work. i do sometimes kick my feet up when editing the romance bits, they are probably my favourite within it.

This idea was fully inspired by this tumblr post:

this one is just a short paragraph of an idea, but the vibe is a "meet-weird" for AOS mckirk. me and @strangenewwords tossed around a few ideas where basically jim's in a moshpit and some guy (bones) approaches him and demands "Open your mouth" and Jim complies simply because "a hot stranger is telling me to do this, I must" but the guy was looking to see if he was dehydrated.

🥹 Favourite behind the scenes picture.

That's hard cause there's so many good one. But I re-discovered this one lately...

unrequited mcspirk hamlet rewrite DEAD DOVE

ohohohoooooo i'm so glad you asked, thank you!!

this idea came entirely from learning that mccoy's middle name is sometimes horatio, and these two facts: 1, i was a theatre kid and an english major so i have Feelings about hamlet, and 2, i read this fanfic (not trek. literally hamlet) in 2014 and never recovered.

in my head it's a AOS-AU gothic space opera. Maybe it counts as a royalty AU, technically.

George Kirk, senior, dies in a horrible accident (warp core?). Jim (absolute train wreck genius, emphasis on train wreck) comes home from the Academy to help deal with the fallout, and starts believing that Winona's new husband (Frank? George's brother? Make that ambiguous AOS canon about who owned the convertible ALL true) killed him because of George's ghost. Bones (in love, just trying to keep jim alive and nearby and that's enough) comes home with him and acts as the ignored voice of reason.

Jim is seeing George's ghost everywhere, Bones is trying to keep him upright and not on fire, Winona is trying to keep her son from destroying her new marriage.

Enter Spock as Ophelia. I personally really like retellings that recontextualize her and try to give her as much agency as possible, so I would do that here too. TBD on what that means. Sarek as Polonius, and then TBD for Laertes.

Jim, Spock, and Bones are the careening-out-of-control three-body-problem center of the story. The biggest change from canon would be making Ophelia and Horatio have their own relationship; maybe both working together to keep Jim from going too far off the deep end, or something else I haven't considered yet.

Chekov and Sulu are Rosencrantz and Guildenstern.

the DEAD DOVE in the outline title comes from the fact that I want to follow canon in that Spock and Jim both die and Bones is left to pick up the pieces of his life and this kingdom.

I think the reason I'm dragging my feet on putting real work into this is because I haven't decided or thought about what I would want this all to MEAN. I don't read or write MCD, generally, and if I did, I would want it to be to make a coherent point rather than just make me sad LOL.

Also because I would have to reread/rewatch Hamlet and I just haven't done that, ha ha.

I went to a protest this morning and there were so many people there their age. So many mother and daughter groups. So many old dads. I’m mostly kind of adjusted to the idea that my parents are like this, but seeing everyone together today brought all my grief to the surface.