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Yeah I’ve learned to make a whole lot of preparations before I go to any social events… And make sure I have ample time to recover afterwards. The more I do it the easier it seems to get…its a lot like exercising a muscle I think

I am really good at low-key social events so long as they are with groups of people I know well and am comfortable with. That was totally not the case last night. Like, they started asking about music preferences and none of them know my favorite groups and I knew if I started talking about music I like I'd go on and on and want to sing some examples and get overexcited and that bores a lot of folk (not to mention these are people I work with and I don't want them to think I'm weirder than they already do) so I just sorta sat there and vibrated with suppressed urges to flail about stuff. 

Also overall it was just a bit too loud and people were talking about stuff I don't care about and laughing at me for dancing in my chair (not mean laughing, I just don't like when attention being on me) and no one was hugging anyone and there were no snuggle piles and I wanted someone to sit in my lap and really I am not good at this acquaintance thing. I am an all-or-nothing kind of friend. It's either never talking outside of work/school/etc. or I want to play with your hair and hang off your shoulders and let you sit in my lap and snuggle up under blankets to watch movies and talk about our secrets and dreams and fears and silly little things we find entirely too much fun.

bahahahaha ur a cutie if you do go out be careful (people always go out on st patty’s they’re prolly out there already they are in kent)

But where would I goooooo

I would say I could go get frozen yogurt again but I had that already once this week :I

That reminds me did you get the things :?

yES FRIEND i posted a picture in some of them and i thought i tagged you in it but i don't think i did sdkgjhsfkld

Ah, hello. Thank you for your message. uwu/)<3

I certainly feel like one. A coward and a hypocrite, giving advice to people on how to get past tough shit while I can’t even face my own past. I feel awful, knowing that people have been coaching me to move past it for the pas three years and I’ve hardly progressed.

✌: You’re awesome♡: I love your blog✖: I would give you the greatest hug