When first I meet you and know you. I was impressed. Yes. Maybe he is the one. He will make me closer to deen.

But all were only temporarily. When I realized that I become a log in the river - floating with feelings.

And day by day I realized something I have forgotten. I become far away. So far away drifted. Unknowingly , we were both drowning. And shaytan had tricked us into beliving that this is a halal relationship.

Drowning in this 'love' makes me forget. On why I wanted you to become part of my life.

The conversation between us starting from something good intention to something that is useless. Of asking what are you doing now ? Did you miss me ?

In the darkness of unknowingly drowning , I saw someone. Someone who really bring me closer to deen - even without me talking to him.

And I realized something that day. This all have to stop and it did. I tried hard and struggle on leaving all behind and today , I finally sees.

That I may not the only one that he sweet talk to.

Indeed Mufti Menk said :

If people can use " lol " without even laughing surely they can use " I love you " without even loving.