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shes pretty shes smart she has all these friends and shes just everything. how am i supposed to live up to that. im not very pretty, im barely skating by in my classes, i dont have many friends. she had a job. she went to penn state. shes just the perfect child and im just the kid that my parents are stuck with. im the disappointment. the entire family loves her and im honestly the entire family knows im the angry one and im the one that does like anyone. they all love to see her, and they like to see me too but they just expect me to dislike them. i have a reputation for being a brat. honestly i cant handle this. and i cant live up to her and everyone always talks about how much better it is for the younger sibling because the parents favor the baby but honestly my parents are fair if not favoring towards her, and then she did all these things and i just cant live up to that. and everyone expects the younger sibling to do so much better than the older, like oh she did this why cant you? oh she did this well you could have done better. and its just like i cant. she just does everything right and i feel like i do everything wrong. like the one thing i feel like i did right was i found a great guy and hes sweet and i really like him but i even messed that up because all of my friends make it seem like i ditched them for him. and my sister has this guy and her friends are friends with him and her friends like him and its just like she just has everything balanced and her life is so put together and mine is constantly spiraling out of control.