Spilling teardrops on my pillowcase

My mascara always goes to waste (Always goes to)

Drip on my pillowcase

Drip on my pillow (My pillow) case

Drip on my pillowcase

Drip (Drip), drip (Drip)

That doesn’t mean that in the two years in between I didn’t cry when I saw him with those models. When I saw him moving on and becoming toxic, even more, toxic then he was. He told me that in the end I would come back to him and I would beg to be with him again. He was wrong but god did he believe his own words. He didn’t care how many times he made me cry all he cared about was me coming back under his control.

Doctors tell me medicate my heartbreak

But I love to keep it macabre

Tell God my problems, solve 'em, answer my prayers

He answered but the answer was "Nah"

Nino told me that all I needed was the time in those two years to heal my heart but I didn’t listen at first. I wanted to feel the pain as to remember what heartbreak could do to me. But  I got a hold of myself after a while and began to heal to the point that I stopped asking God to help me. Not that he answered my prayers. 

Our chemistry's irrefutable

And I'll love you 'til you die

I'll come to your funeral

But I won't promise to cry

A year after the wedding I found a photo album full of pictures of me and Adrien. I remember each and every single moment in those photos up to the last one. The last one was taken after we had moved in together and before the cheating started. I remember how happy we were and how content he was with living as much as a simple life he would live with me. We were untouchable in the world we live in.

Those memories are dead now.

In a way, they seemed tainted but I guess that life after a breakup. I put the album away in a box as I plan to move out of the apartment I once shared with Adrien. You’d think I would cry or tear up but I didn’t and I won’t. 

I had decided to move into another apartment complex much bigger than this and closer to my job. I haven’t shed a single tear for him since the day I learned of his wedding.

Spilling teardrops on my pillowcase

My mascara always goes to waste (Always goes to)

Drip on my pillowcase

Drip on my pillow (My pillow) case

Drip on my pillowcase

Drip (Drip), drip (Drip)

In those two years, I have shed many tears for the pain Adrien brought me and honestly I’m I’ve never been better.

Our reflection on my windowpane

Shows the nightmare

Call me by my name

(What have I?, what have I? what have-?)

Sometimes, when I still lived in our apartment I would see him still being there. I would hear him calling my name. I would feel his touch. But he wasn’t really there and now I don’t imagine him anymore. I guess that the apartment was haunted by him and our old love. 

Ever since I moved I don’t see, hear, or feel him and it’s the biggest relief in my life because I am now fully able to move on. 

Drip on my pillowcase

Drip on my pillow (My pillow) case

Drip on my pillowcase

Drip (Drip), drip (Drip)

Three years later as I was leaving my work I had bumped into Adrien. I never thought I’d see him again.

Drip on my pillowcase

Drip on my pillow (My pillow) case

Drip on my pillowcase

Drip (Drip), drip (Drip)

“Adrien,” Marinette acknowledged 

“Marinette, It’s good seeing you again,” Adrien responded with a smile on his face

They both were standing just outside the building where Marinette worked. There is a bit of distance between them since Marinette wouldn’t get any closer and Adrien was didn’t know if he should or not.

“How are you and your wife?” Marinette asked out of curiosity, She had hoped he was at least happy.

Adrien looked distraught, “We actually got a divorce, She turned out to be a manipulator and a liar.” 

Marinette shook her head to acknowledge that she understood, She did leave him for his lying and cheating right, Now he knew what it felt like to be lied to but she did feel bad for him. 

“I am sorry for you failed marriage, Adrien,” Marinette said remorsefully

“Look, Marinette I…” Adrien began but was interrupted by someone calling for Marinette. They both turned to see a tall blond man with gray/green eyes.

“Felix!” Marinette exclaimed as she kissed him by bringing him down to her level by grabbing his tie.

“My Marinette how was your day,” The man named Felix asked after being released from the kiss

They stared at each other lovingly when Marinette remembered that Adrien was still there. She quickly turned to him to introduce the guys to each other, “Felix this is Adrien, Adrien this is Felix, my boyfriend”

“Nice to meet you Adrien” Felix greeted as he put his hand out.

“Nice to meet you too Felix,” Adrien greeted back taking Felix’s hand in a firm handshake.

“Anyway, Adrien you were going to tell me something before Felix interrupted” Marinette reminded Adrien

“Right, I was going to say I’m sorry for not believing you about Lila,” Adrien said quickly, “I should have known to trust your instincts.”

“It’s all good Adrien, but hey well actually have to meet and catch up later we have plans today so bye Adrien and have a good day,” Marinette said as she grabbed Felix’s hand and left.

Went back to your house

And we couldn't help but hold each other

Tangled at the mouth

Took a break so I could take a shower

Washed the sand out of my hair

From our perfect day spent at the beach

Looked into the foggy mirror

Saw a message staring back at me

We headed back inside when it got too late. We decided to watch a movie and relax in each other’s arms. We ended up making out on the couch but eventually, we had to stop. We decided to shower separately so I went first. It was hard taking the sand out of my hair but I was able to finally manage it. I then saw that a message was written on the mirror that Adrien left for me. It said ‘I love you’. A small smile appeared on my face.

After all this time you give me butterflies, butterflies

Months go by, I still get butterflies, butterflies

Perfect day, what did I do to deserve this?

When I came out of the bathroom and saw him smiling at me knowing I saw the message I gave a kiss and whispered I love you into his ear while we hugged. He then kissed me again before leaving to go shower also. 

That was a year ago and now we return to the beach house as summer began. But we were both unhappy, we had grown apart as he had gotten busy with his modeling and me with my designing. It didn’t help that he models with beautiful women by his side. We would fight over that fact all the time now so most of the time we ignore the topic but even then it would appear every time a magazine would say Adrien might be with a model.

We thought returning to the beach house would help us relax and reconnect but I doubt it. We had tried before trying to fix what we had but it could only work for so long. Not to mention that he did have a model at the side. See, I had caught them one day when I returned early from my work and I noticed clothes scattered leading to our room. I didn’t confirm what I knew what was happening in that room,  I just left. I stayed at a hotel that night leaving a message for Adrien that I would be stuck at work all night. 

I didn’t even shed a tear.

I saw "I love you" written in the steam

And I couldn't help but smile at the sweet message you left me

But it wasn't in your handwriting

Then those happy little letters

Were the saddest things I've ever seen

I never told him that I knew he was cheating on me, he would try to make it my fault somehow someway. Besides, he didn’t just cheat on me once and after I found out that night I found out he had been cheating on me for two months now.

Coward didn’t have the balls to properly break up with me before becoming a freaking, f**k boy. 

So when I exited the shower after a nice steamy shower and saw the I love you, I did want to cry, not because I knew it wasn’t true, it was because even now he would lie about his feelings for me.

I decided enough was enough.

You need to get your conscience clean

But just spare me the details, please

I wanna keep remembering this perfect day

I'm not the type to be left speechless

But I don't think I can deal with this

That's all the closure that you'll give

This perfect day

Justifications veiled as apologies

I don't wanna cause a scene

Please let me go, I just wanna leave

This perfect day

Oh, how could you miss this?

Wish you would have wiped it away

Let me live in blissful ignorance

And let me have this perfect day

But you left it all in ruins

We ended on a perfect day

Really wish I could forget this

So when I exited the bathroom I finally confronted him about the lying, cheating, and how we both knew that what we had, had to end.

How he should have had the balls to tell me that he didn’t want to be in a relationship with me anymore.

How he shouldn’t have resorted to cheating and lying to me.

How he let those models touch him even when the camera wasn’t on them

He kept yelling at how it was my fault for being too busy we didn’t hang out as we used to.

How it was my fault that he got lonely enough to cheat on me.

I, through all his yelling, was getting more and more pissed off. He was yelling at me and blaming me as though he had a right in doing what he did to me I couldn’t handle it anymore.

“ENOUGH”

'Cause after all this time you give me butterflies, butterflies

Why'd you lie? Don't hurt my butterflies, butterflies

Watch them die, you killed my butterflies, butterflies

Butterflies ruined my perfect day

“Marinette, I love you,” He said to me

All I could do was scoff at him while shaking my head before responding, “If you really love me you never would have lied to me.”

“But..”

“No, you have spoken your side now, now you listen, If you really loved me you never would have cheated on me with those models. You never would have started letting them touch you as much as they did when the camera wasn’t on you.” I explained to him trying to keep my voice level, because this, this was a long time coming, “And let's face it, Adrien, we both are miserable in this relationship, we keep fighting and fighting that you resulted in cheating and me throwing myself into my work and basically becoming an even greater workaholic then we were.” 

“So what are you saying Marinette?” Adrien asked but he knew what came next

“I’m saying” Marinette started before stopping and taking a deep breath to relax before beginning again, “I’m saying we should break up before we become even more miserable than we are now, that we should leave this relationship and see if after all this time we can actually salvage a friendship.”

After that, I went to our room locked the door and stuffed everything back into my luggage and after making sure I had everything that was mine I unlocked the door and left. Adrien didn’t try and stop me, I thank him for that. And while I left and thought about everything we’ve been through and everything that happened all I could think in the end was.