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 “I am, I took 3 pregnancy tests and they all say positive,” she told you, voice raising slightly at your questioning tone. You smiled softly and pulled her in for a gentle hug. Your mind hadn't fully wrapped around the fact that she was pregnant, you were positive that it had been months since you last had sex, let alone sex that she could get pregnant from. 

“We are gonna have a family,” you chuckled while placing your hand softly on her soon to be growing belly. Her small hands came down to clutch over yours “are you excited?” she asked, stars reflecting from the window onto her face. You hummed a yes in response. 

“Okay well, dad,-” Sana stopped momentarily a cheesy grin on her face,”-I'm going to go prepare dinner.” 

Your eyes gazed out of the window into the starry sky. You were beyond excited to be a dad, it was something you had always dreamed of being. Ever since you were a teenager you didn't know what you wanted to do with your life but you always did know one thing, you wanted to have a family.

 Sana seemed like the perfect girl to start a family with. She was perfect for you in multiple ways and you knew that she would be a great mom, she would treat the kids like her friends but would be able to get onto them when needed. If she was pregnant you knew that you wanted to put a ring on her finger you wanted her to be your wife. You were ready to start a new chapter in your life. 

One thing though, one thing holding you back from all your future hopes. When you and Sana made a deal with your boss to move here, you didn't think you'd be having kids anytime soon especially since you didn't know when you could move back and go home. This isn't the place to have kids. 

Rumors had it that your class was getting a new student, supposedly a famous celebrity from some award-winning idol group. Hell even if you couldn't help but get excited. What if your class really did a popular idol, maybe you could befriend them and learn all about the industry. Just then the door slid open and your teacher walked in with a happy smile. “Class I'm happy to introduce that we have a new student joining us for the rest of the school year. Now, this student is special so I need you guys to treat her well, okay? She won't always be here so she will probably need help with some things,” Mrs.Lee explained before gesturing with her hand for the girl to walk in.

She walked in with her hands grabbing at each other tightly, a nervous smile on her face. The girl looked familiar and clearly, everyone else knew who she was. She brushed her bangs away before bowing to introduce herself. “Hello everyone my name is Kim Chaewon. Please take care of me,” she said, eyes locking with yours. In that moment all the other students blurred and it was like she was your only focus. CHaewon had to have been the cutest most precious girl you had seen. She had a rather small frame and a very soft voice but her presence was so strong. Picking up the pace your heart tried to escape from your chest to jump into her arms. Chaewons big doll-like eyes never left yours as she stared right back at you. Your breath hitched when the teacher asked her to take a seat next to you.

Gulping you pulled out the chair for her and moved your things. “Hi, I'm Y/n L/n, nice to meet you,” you introduced yourself. Now that she was closer you could smell the perfume she had been wearing, it smelt like a freshly juiced plum mixed in with some type of flower.

“Nice,, nice to meet you,” Chaewon had to shake her head to gain her focus back. Throughout the teachers' lecture, you kept catching her staring at you. It was like your eyes were opposite magnets trying to pull together. By the time the teacher handed out work, you didn't even realize that the 25 minutes had passed. You were so distracted by Chaewon that the only notes you took were the date and topic.

Staring at the paper in front of you, you tried to distance yourself from the doll-like girl and get the paper done so you didn't fail your class. However, as you worked your way through the paper you noticed she kept staring. “Do you need help with it? Since you just joined you might not be able to follow along,” you suggested while smiling at her. Chaewon immediately shook her head, face matching your teacher red pen.

“I'm fine, thank you,” she said while glancing down at her paper which had the first 5 problems finished, you couldn't tell if they were correct or not.

Shaking your head and starting problem number 8 Chaewon still stole glances at you. Choosing to be bold you turned to her once more “Why do you have to stare at me like that, I can't focus on my work.” Chaewon let out a quiet squeak and started to lightly laugh.

“I'm really sorry you're just really cute and I can't get over it,” she mumbled her sentence in order to hide her embarrassment. Her company would be killing her if they knew what she was doing.

“Thank you, Chaewon. You're also really cute,,, would you like to eat lunch with me? I can help you get caught up and I'd like to get to know you,” you said while leaning a little closer to her. Chaewon nodded her head eagerly.

“Hey! Y/n are you even listening?” Wonyoung snapped her fingers in front of your face as she tried to get your attention. 

“Yeah totally,’ you tried to hide the fact that you were spacing out.

 She stared at you with doe eyes and did that overly cute pout, her plump bottom lip jutting out as she momentarily stopped in her tracks “You clearly weren't even listening to me,” she pointed out, latching herself onto your arm as she started to explain what you had turned out earlier. “I was talking about the food truck in the park,, everyone keeps telling me how good it is and that I should go,” she said, staring up at you expectantly. Furring your brows your mind went back to the thought you had been having seconds before. 

“Hyemi went there last week, she said it was really good,” you pointed out, trying to keep the conversation going. At the mention of Hyemis name Wonyoungs grip loosened before she let go all together, walking slightly ahead. 

“You talk to Hyemi a lot,” Wonyoung mumbled while crossing her arms over her chest and walking slightly faster. 

You jogged a bit to catch up to her “Well you've been so busy lately that we haven't hung out as much and Hyemi noticed,” your dumb self didn't catch onto why Wonyoung was getting upset the more you mentioned Hyemi name. 

“That's cool, I'm glad you are moving on from me,” she said while sending you a quick glance. 

“Moving on? Wonyoung you're still my best friend, what do you want me to do? No make any friends and spend my high school life waiting around for you?” your voice raised as you unintentionally yelled at her. You couldn't hold it back, you were tired of Wonyoung getting upset at you for having other friends, it seemed like she wanted to be the only person in your life sometimes. 

“That's not what I'm asking, Y/n! I don't care if you have other friends and I'm happy you have other friends,, just not Hyemi,” she yelled back, voice cracking. You looked down at her, her face covered with warm tears. 

“Wonyoung-” you mumbled, hand reaching out to brush her tears away “-The only reason I'm hanging out with Hyemi so much is so I can't get over you. I know that you don't love me the way I love you and I'm trying to fall in love with someone else so I don't have to get my heart broken,” you confessed to her while using your shit to help clean her cheeks from her numerous tears. Wonyoung started to cry harder as she pulled you into her burying her face in the crock of your neck. 

“You idiot,, I love you too. All this time I thought I sucked at flirting at that it wasn't working,” she said while lighting hitting your chest. 

“You,, you like me back?” pulling away from her your brain processed what she was saying. You had thought the reason she flirted with you was for fun. 

“Of course I do,” she gave you have signature cute smile and giggle. Staring into her soft eyes your hand tilted her chin up towards you before you pulled her into a soft and sweet kiss.

You could only imagine the confusion on her face when Eunbi burst out laughing in her face, clutching her stomach as she doubled over onto her knees. “Are you being serious? Minju you have a crush,” Eunbi said through many tears and a big smile. A crush. Minju laughed softly, it was a simple as that. She could handle a crush, surely within a few days, it would be buried in the graveyard with all her past crushes. Minju couldn't have been more wrong when she told herself it would die within a few days. In fact, the opposite happened. 

The more time that passed the more that butterflies would be added, much to her dismay. After weeks of you two stealing glances at each other and her clutching her heart thinking that it would burst out of her chest on stage, you made it worse. 

With a charming smile and a twinkle in your eyes, you pushed past your members and came to talk to her. At first, Minju wasn't so sure you were talking to her until she realized that there was no one else in the hall but her. Sure it was risky lying to you but she really liked it,, like really really liked it. After a few minutes of a very small conversation, your members called after you and you waved goodbye. In that moment she was filled with more regret that she ever had been. Minju was shy and had a hard time talking to people, she had a habit of coming off a little bitchy and cold. She was sure that you probably thought of her as some cold-hearted bitch now. Yet, the next day you happily waved at her backstage. Minju put on a big smile and happily waved back. That was the start of something beautiful. 

You had asked for her number and after weeks of texting and secret meetings made it official. Minju couldn't have been happier she was dating thee Y/n L/N of G/N,, but,, the more she thought about it, she was dating thee Y/n L/n of G/n. You were such a cool and dreamy idol whereas she was some lame unwanted trainee who probably didn't deserve to debut with her much more talented members. 

Surely you deserved someone better, someone, like Chaeyeon who was constantly criticized for her looks but she didn't let that stop her, Chaeyeon as hardworking and determined. You definitely deserved better than her. Minju had at first thought that she would never feel more regret in her life then the first time he spoke for you. But Minju had a new talent, being wrong. The regret she felt in this moment was unbearable, it felt like she was holding up the sun with her heart. 

“I'm sorry, Y/n,” Minju made sure her voice was emotionless so you couldn't sense all the sadness and anger in it. “Is it something I did? I thought things were going fine,, please Minju don't leave,” you begged to her with tears streaming down your face. Minju couldn't just tell you that she was breaking up with you because she thought she doesn't deserve you. That would be ridiculous. She wanted to cry and hold you and tell you that she was sorry but she couldn't. “It's not something you can fix,,, I just don't love you anymore,” Minju pushed you away from her, swiveling on her hips she walked away with tears burning her cheeks. Her first tight end as she resisted the urge to go back to you. 

It had all started off in the morning when your alarm didn't go off and you were running late. As student council president it was always your job to be early and help the teachers unlock parts of the building such as the janitor's closet and storage rooms. There was a 99.9% chance that they didn't need to use the janitors closet or storage rooms that early so it was kinda pointless, but of course, you were running late on the one day they needed you. 

Right as your foot stepped place into the school grounds the principle was yelling at you for being late, they needed to print an important document and have it sent to the courthouse by 8:00am and it was already 7:45am. The printer ran out of ink and they needed into those rooms, stat. 

After that whole debacle, you were confronted by the head of the soccer team. A couple weeks ago the soccer team agreed to help with the schools prom which was in a week. Nakamoto Yuta, the captain, was here to tell you what they could no longer do it as they were going on a team bonding trip. “Without you guys I have practically zero help! We really need you,” you tried to beg him to stay but Yuta insisted that the team bonding trip was extremely important. 

Your back was pressed against the uncomfortable hard chair, you were sat alone in the council room. All the other members had something to do today which meant you had to figure out how to set up the prom all by yourself. All the other sports teams already denied you and most clubs were busy preparing for their activities or stressing over what to wear or who to take to prom. 

Checking the list of possible clubs that may be of service your eyes landed on one, the mathematics club. In your mind, the stereotype of the mathematics club was strong. You pictured them as those scrawny and weak losers that had no life. You knew that wasn't true but in this case it was, all of them looked as if they would break lifting more than 20 pounds. No way in hell could they help. “The cheerleaders might be able to help,,Joy is in my class and she might be willing to pitch a hand,” you thought to yourself. “God,,could it get any worse than this,” you grumbled. Glancing at the clock you noticed that it was already 6pm, most clubs were getting out by now. “Great I spent 2 hours doing nothing,” everything was starting to get to you. 

Grabbing your bags you sighed, mind clouded with worry and fear for what to do. A loud vibration interrupted your thoughts, picking up your phone you noticed that your mother had tried calling you 3 time already. Your heart sunk to your stomach, it was never a good thing to have so many missed phone calls from your parents. “Mom! Hey whats up? Huh? What,,is grandpa gonna be okay? Yeah don't worry I'll be fine,” your voice was cracking. 

Of course things could get worse, your dearest grandpa fell down the escalator and got stuck, he couldn't get up and they had to stop the whole thing. He broke his arm and apparently had his skin torn in multiple places. Both of your parents were going to stay in the hospital with him which meant you would be all by yourself. Your throat closed as the tears poured rapidly down your face, blurring your vision. “I fucking hate this!” you screaming loudly, at this house it was unlikely that there were still students. “Why are you doing this to me!” you yelled at the sky, lungs feeling like they would fall out. 

Eunbi peaked through the small crack in the door. Kwon Eunbi was a new student and a member of the cheer team. The lovely girl had heard that Yuta canceled on you, she knew that you needed help and she came to offer her service. When she got to the council room though she overheard your phone call. 

“Y/n,,I'd like to help you with the prom and,,and whatever is going on right now,” Eunbi said while pushing the door open. Surprised by the sudden intrusion you jumped in shock. Eunbi didn't give you time to answer as she wrapped her arms around you, pulling you into her warm embrace. The feeling of her holding you tightly helped soothe your tears, your chest started to feel lighter. 

“You want to help with prom?’ you asked while pulling away and wiping your tears with your sleeve. 

“I already talked to Joy. Her, Mina, Chaeyoung and a member of the photography club are willing to pitch in,” Eunbi gave you the warmest most motherly smile you had ever seen on a young girl. 

“Oh my gosh that's amazing, thank you so much,” you gave her a tight hug to express your appreciation. 

For a moment she could almost picture herself there, towering over her members with that same joyful smile plastered on her face. “Mommy,, come on,” her daughter squealed while pulling on her hand and bringing her towards the ticket taker. Sowon followed and pulled her face mask up higher to try and hide even more. 

She loved her daughter with everything she had, Sowon was willing to give up everything for her. Which had been proven the day she chose to leave behind all her dreams to have her. When Sowon found out she was pregnant from a regrettable one night stand she didn't know what to do. She loved her members and her fans, but she knew that they would be disappointed in her if they found out how she was pregnant. Choosing to leave Gfriend was the hardest thing she had ever done. She could still remember walking into her CEO'S office, head hung low as she handed him the pregnancy test and told her that she wanted to have her contract canceled. The fear that ran through her body when her CEOs started screaming at her, throwing things around, was like none other.

 “Here you go,” Sowon held out her tickets to be scanned. The ticket taker gave them directions as to where to go as her daughter nearly cried with joy, pulling her near their seats. Her breath hitched when she saw the stage, she could remember what it was like to stand on that stage. The adrenaline that ran through her body as she stared at the crowd of fans, their tear faces and loud screams that brought her so much joy. It always felt surreal to be up there and see all of them. How could they all love her so much for doing nothing more than singing? Sowon wanted to puke standing there, she wanted to barf all over all of the fans. But she needed to stay strong and somehow pull through, not only for herself but for her daughter. She took a seat in the nosebleeds with her daughter, she could have gotten better tickets but she had to be selfish, there was no way she could be any closer. 

Glancing at all the signs for her old members made her heart sting with some jealousy. She missed her old life, the life she had before her precious angel was born. Those girls were he family, she spent every day with them and they trained together for the same dream that seemed out of reach. They were her world, she wouldn't have traded them for anything. All of these fans probably didn't even know of her existence, if they did she doubted that they would recognize her now. She still looked the same but being a single mother really took a toll on her. She didn't have the same intense workout routine anymore and she didn't have to stress about her diet. Her hair was a faded brown, it looked worn from the years of intense product. But she was still the same tall and loveable leader that had left gfriend 8 years ago. 

When she left the group she never said goodbye, to the fans or her members. She changed her number and bought an apartment in a small farm town when her members were gone she packed up all her things and then left. Never to see them again. At first she till watched their shows and she cried at all the articles and assumptions made about her. She cried seeing her members try and pretend they knew why she was gone or what happened. She cried when they continued to win awards and have comebacks without her. She cried while staring at all of their old photos and performances mother. 

“Mommy, it should start soon” her daughter screamed with joy, making her pay attention. It was funny to her that no matter how hard she avoided gfriend her daughter fell in love with them. She begged to go to their concert and Sowon also kinda wanted to go. She regretted it now though, she couldn't stand being here much longer. Sowon was on the verge of a mental breakdown.

 “Excuse me,” a short girl wearing a mask and hat tapped her shoulder making her turn around. Her eyes locked with a pair that she knew all too well. The girl's eyes erupted into tears as she stared back at her “Oh my god it is you, i know that tall and posh figure anywhere” she said while pulling Sowon down into a hug. Sowon felt her heart clench as she hugged her tightly. 

“Mommy who is that?” her daughter asked not recognizing her idol. 

“Mommy? The girl looks about 8,, oh my god that's why you left?” the masked girl bent down to stare at her daughter. 

“Here little one,, why don't you and your mommy come with me backstage,” the masked girl said making her daughter smile brightly. 

Sowon couldn't say anything as she trailed behind her, Eunha hadn't changed at all. “Eunha,,” Sowon mumbled as she followed. Both of them were crying so hard their vision was blurry but they didn't want the other to see. “I have a lot of explaining to do,” she tried to lighten up the tense atmosphere.

 Her daughter clenched her hand tighter “Am I going to meet Gfriend?” she asked in excitement. Eunha looked back and nodded “Certainly,” she said while waving at that staff. 

Eunha looked at Sowon “Honey why don't you wait here with this kind lady while I talk to your mommy?” Eunha asked, bending down to be eye level with her daughter. Sowon nodded at her daughter causing her to happily take the staffs hand.