As someone who scores as severe on ADHD screening tests but has yet to get medicated, it is really fucking hard to try and get people to understand why I struggle so much. Most of the time it's manageable but then I have days where it feels like there's a blender in my brain and electricity running through my bones. And not in a fun way. I can go from perfectly fine to throwing shit and screaming and being absolutely terrified of myself because I have no control of this surprise anger. Trying to relax is damn near impossible because I have to check my phone check my phone check my phone or pack my bag NOW when I don't need to leave for another two hours (I'll still forget something important anyways). But it's hard having relationships when everyone around me doesn't understand why I'm like this and why I can't control it.
