ADELEE hereās my angst idea hehe :)) it might be long Iām sorry in advance
Ok so nat gets recruited to shield when the kgb fell and starts working for them. At the same time, we also got recruited, just another average non-widow spy that they thought could help. Weāre pretty average. But we make friends fast. Weāre super nice and kind hearted so it was easy for us. But nat was having a hard time adjusting. She had a cold demeanor and everyone still hated the Russians so they were just overall meh about her. But we had a smol crush on Nat so we tried to make her feel welcome and would invite her to things or cook extra food for her. Overtime we became friends.
Our stamp of āapprovalā helped other shield agents to begin lowering their guard and trusting nat more. It helped her make a couple friends and ppl would start smiling at her in the hallways. She began to feel more comfortable. Then one night, we were hanging out w nat and she just kissed us out of the blue. She kept apologizing but we were rlly happy it finally happened. One thing led to another and we started dating. When other shield agents found out tho, that the kindest person at shield liked natasha, they started seeing her in a different light. Not only were ppl friendly to her now, they also started flirting with her. It rlly boosted her ego bc she really felt like everyone hated her there for so long.
Although nat has us + ppl were nicer now, she still was feeling off. She didnāt feel like she was home. She didnāt know who she was nor what āhomeā meant. There would be nights where sheād come and hold our blanket w our scent on it and just watch us sleep in hopes that she could feel that sense of peace one day that we seemingly had. So when these flirty comments started coming, she had a hard time shooting them down. She didnāt cheat or anything but she rlly liked entertaining ppl + definitely led them on. It made her feel valued, filling that hole in her heart of not feeling like she belonged.
We of course got rlly sad. We trusted Nat always but things just kept getting out of hand. Every time weād be mad or sad abt it, Nat would just placate us with the best sex and convince us to let it go. But our final straw was when she ignored us at a party to go entertain Maria hill who rlly thought she had a chance. And when we went up to her asking for a dance she rolled her eyes to get Maria to giggle.
We sob and cry and break up w her that night and leave her feeling so alone. Lonelier than she was when she first joined. But she was determined to keep up her cool girl exterior so ppl would still flirt w her and see her as all that. We end up quitting shield bc we didnāt wanna deal w it anymore. She never saw us after that.
AND THEN. One day, fury starts the avengers. Nat, ofc, became an avenger. At this point in her life, she really changed a lot. She went to therapy, she worked on herself, healed, she started exploring who she wanted to be, who she considered family (and the avengers became that for her). She was sure of herself, grounded, stable, and grew into the strong woman we know now as The Black Widow. Soon enough, wanda and pietro joined the team. (Pietro can stay alive or be dead idc LOL). She and wanda were casual friends, not super close but they enjoyed each othersā company. Wanda spent a lot of time outside of the compound anyways, walking around lakes, reading in parks, going to coffee shops and bookstoresāshe liked her time alone.
Anyways then one day, Tony built a new avengers tower and threw a HUGE housewarming party. Everyone was there, even Tonyās old friends from his non iron man days. Everyoneās friends of friends came, like it was a huge ordeal. Which meant, we came too. We were Wandaās plus one. Turns out, we and wanda met when we bonded over wanting to buy the last copy of a book at a local bookstore. We dated ever since. She thought a huge party would be a good opportunity for u to meet everyone, since the party was just a come-and-go basis. She knew abt nat but she thought the party would be so big, u probs wouldnāt run into each other. She would only introduce u to the ppl she wanted u to meet, like Steve.
So there u were, in your killer outfit, nursing a drink in hand. Wanda, being a witch with fast metabolism, drowned her drinks trying to get drunk. You chuckle and go to get her another drink. At the bar, u see nat a few seats down. Not wanting to make it a big deal, u just smile and give her a quick nod before looking down and fidgeting your hands. Sheās so surprised tho that she needs to know why youāre here. And she needs to know how you are, what youāve been doing. She itches to tell u that sheās different now, sheās stable and secure and she wants to share the journey of how she got here. She wonders if now that sheās different, that you two might finally work out this time. But just when sheās about to walk over to you, wanda appears from behind you, grabbing your waist and giving you a kiss before asking whatās taking so long. Then she sees nat, glued to her spot, staring with her mouth agape. Gone was the cool and collected black widow, standing in front of them is just a heartbroken woman in shock.
Wanting to avoid any awkwardness, u wave and nat walks towards yall. You quickly tell her that youāre only here as Wandaās plus one and politely compliment her outfit and say that u hope sheās doing well. You thought the convo would just end there and u could all grab ur drinks and go on your merry way, but nat ends up finding u later that night, asking if ur with wanda and how long. She apologizes for what she did all those years ago and wanted u to know that sheās better now. You tell her that youāre genuinely happy for her and she deserves to feel stable and have family.
Maybe the fic can end here OR MAYBE (š) nat now harbors a bit of hate for wanda and it creates tension. And maybe Nat tries to break yall up bc she rlly wants u back. Especially now that the whole team has met u and likes u and youāre over at the compound all the time.
Anyways Iām SO SORRY this was so long. Feel free to take parts of it and ignore the rest. Or tweak things. Take creative liberty! Thanks for considering this, I rlly love your angst writing so much and am excited to see any part of this come into fruition :)
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