#acutene

I have always struggled with my acne for as long as I can remember growing up its been one of my biggest insecurities, im 20 now and I can say I've probably dealt with acne since I was 14 , there's been plenty of times where my acne made me feel “ugly “ or un worthy. When I was young and someone I found attractive would come talk to me id tilt my head as silly as that shit sounds lmaoo I did everything in my power to avoid people looking at my face for too long with the fear of them thinking I was hideous ...I hated coming home and knowing someone in the family was randomly bring up ways to help me get rid of my acne ... they would say “ you have a pretty face ,once you get rid or your acne your good to go “ or “ I can help you get rid of those marks”... I know its there's and believe me im trying , I see everyday when I wake up when I use the bathroom when I go to wash my hands  when im in the dressing room , and yea I wash my face multiple times a day all that ... if I were to get rejected in back of my mind I would always place it to my acne ..talking to girls felt impossible .when I would go on dates or I was seeing someone I was afraid they'd look at my face and would go running I felt so ugly..though its a common struggle you still end up feeling like the only monster in the room . To this day I still struggle with my acne and there's times where I don't feel as pretty as I am . im still learning acne does not make you ugly and having acne isn't your personality  you are still beautiful and worthy of going out , of finding a partner and still worthy of being confident .