#actuallyaddict

its funny the things you'll do to get away from what's happening

polysubstance abusing in a room full of coke addicts doing lines n talking abt recovery n sobriety and substance use treatment even tho it def doesn't feel like the vibe lol. very difficult to find people who wanna abuse drugs and talk abt getting sober at the same time. im not trying to pressure anyone I just think abt my sobriety the most when im fucked up tbh. bc I deeply understand why im doing it then specifically lmao. I wish I could go to meetings openly and proudly under the influence and express that thats when im most likely to seek out and engage in treatment. im banking on dual diagnosis anonymous specifically bc im only fucked up bc im so mentally ill and no meds or therapy help me smh. if I cant go to a meeting inebriated how am I expected to show up. I cant get sober to get sober yknow? inspire me while im fucked beyond belief once, and trust me, ill show up slightly more sober next time, and slightly more sober the next. expecting sobriety just to witness what recovery might look like is unfair and not realistic. meet addicts where they're at. you cant meet us in sobriety if we're never invited in before we reach that status quo. where is my hope in getting better when yall reject me before I even start. lmao smh??? help meeee I can only do individual counseling but I wanna do group so I dont feel alone or like im comparing myself to one other severely ill addict whose way different than me. what

im not just addicted to doing drugs, I'm addicted to doing drugs at work

ohhhh God ohh godddd they're gonna BLEEP kill m3!!!! they're never gonna talk to me again oh God 😭😭 I think the worst part would be telling me my addiction affects them like 😭😭😭 ugh I don't want to admit to that.. I don't know. its so painful not wanting to admit to being a thoughtless piece of shit. like ik I am. but I can't stop and a big part of me doesn't want to. I don't know. I hate my addiction and what it turns everything in my life into. a big mf mess. every time I use i make a mf mess of something. n I hate myself for it so deeply I can't even admit it

R there any blogs on here that poke fun @ non addicted ppl like us gays poke fun @ the straights bc I’m so into that