#aconfusedbird

so: if i can make myself seem like someone that shouldn't be fucked with, people will automatically give me a wide berth. projecting a cold, aloof, disdainful persona keeps him safe.

and this is why he's almost a completely different person around vasco. vasco is safe. vasco has seen him at his most hurt and vulnerable and chosen over and over again to only offer him kindness and support. machete is gentle and lighthearted and relaxed around vasco because he knows vasco would never take advantage of it.

i like ur dogs i rotate them frequently

Gnawing on this comment, you put it so succinctly.

Yes, I don't think Machete is hostile or domineering by nature, it's more likely the opposite. But he has found his way into an environment where displaying weakness could cost him his reputation or his position. His innate nervousness has morphed into distrust and avoidance. He can't afford to seem like an easy target. He's very much a trapped animal, living things rarely show their best sides when they're stressed and threatened.

Bird, I’m going to use your tags as an opportunity to share the Blythe Scale of Low Spoon to High Spoon Outfits because it’s something I’ve thought about a lot and that I’ve been wanting to post on this blog anyway.  So!  Thank you for giving me the excuse to do it.  :P

Here, in order of lowest spoons to highest spoons, is the range of what I wear:

I’m wearing nothing but underwear, which may or may not include a bra.  Also, it’s yesterday’s underwear.

I’m wearing nothing but underwear, possibly including a bra, but at least everything’s clean.  (Except for me.  I most likely have not showered.)

I’m wearing yesterday’s pajamas.  I may or may not have changed my underwear/bra.

I’m wearing clean pajamas.  (After this, all clothing can be assumed to be clean.)

I’m wearing something that’s in between pajamas and “real” clothes--a nightgown that doesn’t look too weird to wear during the day, some really hole-y leggings with a random shirt, etc.

I’m wearing “real” clothes, but they’re not really An Outfit.  Think a random pair of pants and a shirt that looks okay with them, or a lightweight dress I can just throw on.

I’m wearing an okay-looking outfit, but it’s nothing special by my standards.  I’m almost certainly not wearing makeup.  I probably won’t bother to photograph this, unless my queue is running low, or I happen to have the time/energy and am up for it.  If I do decide to photograph it, I might throw some makeup on but it’s going to be simple and fast.  (Here’s an example.)

I’m wearing a decent-looking outfit, but no makeup.  I will photograph this if I can, but it’s no big deal if I can’t.  I might wear the outfit another day to get photographs, and I may add makeup that time.  (Here’s an example.)

I’m wearing a decent-looking outfit with makeup.  I will put some effort into trying to photograph this, but if it doesn’t work out, it’s not the end of the world.  I might wear the outfit another day to get photographs.  (Here’s an example.)

I’m wearing a fairly “out there” or high effort outfit, but without makeup.  I may have planned this outfit in advance, or had a specific theme in mind.  This is somewhat rare, as I generally try to wear makeup with my really fancy/wild outfits, otherwise I feel like my face doesn’t “match” my clothes.  I will work hard to photograph this and will definitely wear it again (possibly with makeup) if I can’t get photos the first time ‘round.  (This one just barely squeaks into this category--like I said, this is rare.)

I’m wearing a fairly “out there” or high effort outfit, including makeup.  The makeup may be heavy and/or elaborate.  I probably planned this outfit in advance and/or had a theme in mind when I put it together.  I will try to structure my entire schedule around making sure that I’m home in time to photograph it.  I basically don’t wear outfits like this on days that I know I won’t be able to photograph them.  If something comes up, I will take detailed notes and maybe grab some reference pics with my phone so I can make sure to replicate the outfit.  (The majority of the outfits on my blog fall into this category, but here’s one example.)

There’s a lot of variation within the last four categories, and as I mentioned, most of my outfits on this blog fall into category #11.  All that being said, I almost never wear sweatpants unless I’m going to physical therapy.  (That’s gonna change soon because I got some cool-looking ones for my costume for the dance piece I was in, and I’ve been trying to incorporate them into my wardrobe.  Still, that’s just one pair.)  The reason I have my queue spread out is precisely because I spend plenty of time in low-spoon outfits that would be super boring to photograph--in fact, I’ve spent most of the last two weeks in categories #3 through #5, with only the occasional higher-spoon outfit!  (Today was a #9.)

HI I HOPE YOURE GETTING SETTLED IN OK!!! also why isnt he allowed in the bathroom

THANK U

im settling in well, i’m just waiting to start work again and that’s stressing me out. everything else is mostly settled.

i feel the same way, when people give me that look, and ask me to repeat my name twice? and then comment on what an “original” and “unique” name it is… please