#acidicwisdom

So things are getting worse and I don’t know why this has to happen. I just want someone to vent to (usually that would be my family) but there is struggle there. But whenever there is someone to talk to then I don’t believe they will understand everything because they just don’t know. Also I hate crying in front of people. Too much vulnerability. I don’t know what do anymore. I’m a depressing shit and now I barely eat. yay! college! I’m glad my roommate isn’t in the room a lot, it’s easier to cry without someone listening. I swear I always contradict myself. Also I’m pretty proud of my heritage and I hope I will find people who will not slyly be a racist. I don’t come from a lot of  money so I don’t understand people who take stuff for granted. You come to college and everyone feels entitled. I’m my real self but I don’t know if that is enough and I don’t want my sister to feel the same because she deserves so much more than me! My best friend an hour and half away and in crisis. I’m glad I’m going home this weekend because I don’t want her to feel bad because she the bestest friend I will EVER have.