Jul 11
Reason number 28373728281 why I could never have child(ren) - the PARENT GUILT would be unbearable I would not surviveeeee :,) one of my camp kids had a panic attack this morning and I was able to talk her down pretty quickly and she seemed in good spirits the rest of the day and when I checked on her at the end, but I cannot get her out of my mind I feel like there are so many things I could’ve done better, things I could’ve said that would have helped her more quickly or made the situation less awful or helped her for the future and I just feel so badddddd shdjsjfjsjfkdjfjd I know she was okay and she’ll be okay and it’s not as much of a big deal to her as it is to me but STILL. Parent guilt :3
#like I know from experience that once it’s over it’s usually just in the past#and that she’s probsbly thinking about it any more#and that it’s insignificant to think about it on my end#because what’s done is done#and because she was okay in the end#and because I was able to snap her out of it and get her smiling#but still#I should’ve been better#ugh#aces world#vent#cw vent#cw panic attack#I guess??
