#abstractkin

Im sitting here hyper aware of my body and just.

The fuck is that?

Its uncanny. The way fingers can wiggle while the hand is perfectly still. As if they are worms with minds of their own. Seeking for something to attach themselves to.

The way the round nails catch the light. Oddly remeniciant of elephant feet. Or strange squishy hooves. Five little worms with a hard hoove at the end.

The creepy way the skin stretches itself across the bones of the hand as you touch pinky to thumb. Like some kind of fragile flesh balloon.

What are these strange fucked up little things.

I hate that it cant seem to escape them. They're always there. Forcing sensory input into the brain at all times.

A questionaire by @aphroditeblessedmewithyou Only conceptkins can answer. Answering as Voidkin/ abstractkin

What is your relationship with age/nationality/race/other human concepts? Do you identify with some part of those concepts? We dont identify with any human constructs. For something like gender, we kinda see ourselves as All gender. But something like age or race gets complicated and messy.

Since humans made concepts, do you feel as if humanity itself is your family/parents? Human concepts are just them trying to put words to an experience or thing that already exists. They didnt make me, but they do experience me. I existed before them, and I will exist after them.

What are shifts like for you? We are permanently shifted. If anything we have temporary shifts OUT of this state. It can be EXTREMELY distressing. The best we can describe it to others is like, permanent dissociation/derealization (which to be fair, we also have lol) while also feeling like your body dissolves at the edges and expands like smoke.

Do you feel weird being referred to or treated as a human? Yes. We are not human.

Do you view yourself as having a body? No. We do not exist.

What is your view of attraction towards humans? Do you feel as if it is unethical? Sometimes it feels unethical. Like theres a power imbalance. But in reality, it probably isnt. We dont really have power over anything other then myself in this state, that percieved power imbalance doesnt actually exist right now. And I came here for the purpose of intermingling with all the creatures in the first place. lol

Are you polykin? Yes! We are also Felidae Cladotherian (we also call it the Concept of Feline-inity)

Worst thing about physically being a human? Having a body. And Bodily functions. Youre telling me i have to eat EVERY DAY? AND it comes BACK OUT? Bro thats disgusting. And honestly I find it super inefficient. PLUS theres a taboo about talking about it?????? Yall pick a side!!

How do you expirience being otherkin/conceptkin? This feels kinda like asking "how does it feel to be alive" lol, Love the question, no idea how to answer it.

If you have any kintypes, do they feel different from being conceptkin? My other type is also kinda a concept? It doesnt feel too different, but that might be because they intertwine and kinda become one thing.

Were there any identities you identified as before your awakening? There are lots of things that feel close, but arent quite it. Divinekin, Spacekin, Energy, darkmatter, atoms, Life energy. Eldrichkin. Etc

Hey there! Good to hear from you again :)

First I'm gonna say, some people are probably gonna be weird about it. But people can also be super weird about the most mundane of things. No matter which it ends up being, true friends will continue to stand beside you regardless.

In reality all that *should* matter is if you're staying safe or if it's impeding your ability to function. If you (or anyone) chooses to use, please make sure to look up risks and how to do it as safe as possible. (Just a general psa)

As for if its Hearted or Kin. Well. Oof. That's a tricky one.

Figuring that out is hard enough for "normal" 'types. Us concepts have a whole extra layer of abstractness that makes the experiance hard to pin down with words.

As you may know, hearted is a "I identify WITH this thing, this thing is like family to me" where as kin is "I identify AS this thing, this thing IS me." But its not always as straightforward as that. An Identity can be fluid between them, or even be both!

If I were in your shoes, I'd first check out how much the hyperfixation is affecting me. Try to step away from the concept and focus on other things. I personally find that my hearted 'types don't really feel present unless triggered, where as my kin 'types are pretty constant (though the intensity is fluid). I know it's REALLY hard to step away from a hyperfixation, but try to focus on something else for a week or two and check back in. See how you feel then.

Concepts can be tricky because they're pretty loose, making them easily relatable. One thing I do to check is I read other people's thoughts and experiences on the concept. While doing so I try to think "Do I feel like they're talking ABOUT me? Or do I feel familiarity because I understand and agree with what they're saying? Do I feel like I'm being personally criticised? Why? Why not?" Journaling is particularly helpful for this bit.

Lastly. Does it really matter?

Does it matter if its Hearted or Kin? Either way it's something that's important to you, apart of you. See how you feel thinking about that.