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⏠â My muse conveys one of their wishes to you.
Her footsteps ended sharp, her eyes widening at the sight of the android seemingly sleepingâwas it even acceptable to employ âsleepâ to a robot? Charging batteries shouldnât be an element out of the ordinary for any electronic devices, but Junhee tends to forget that he wasnât human.Â
Carefully, she placed the tray with biscuits and tea down, sitting across him. I wonder if he gets neck pain for sleeping like this⌠His head slightly dipping forward, his back resting against the wall, she wanted to readjust his posture, but she remembered that the chances of electrocution were high. Instead, she remained quiet; making sure her pets wouldnât disturb the robot from recharging.
In silence, she contemplated him with fascination for a moment. Was there not a time when she wouldnât be amazed over such matters? She had encountered humanoid beings beforeâand living with a mutant had definitely failed in decreasing her interest in them. Wasnât it odd for a human to not fear them despite their heightened capabilities? Who knows when her life would be endangered by one of them if she keeps showing signs of naive hospitality?
Junhee gazed at Chanshik with a heavy heart. A lot of thoughts scrambled with the influence of a desire she tried to suppress at multiple occasions. Words clogged her throat, incapable of expressing her emotions earnestly. She did self-censure for the past months in order to cover most of her negativity. She did not lose hope in peopleâshe lost faith in herself if that made sense.
Attachment became problematic as unfortunate events piled up. She wondered if it was wrong to give such an amount of affection that would definitely not be returned fully in the end. Yet, it did not stop her from meeting new people and befriend them with the same mindset she had prior to her fiancĂŠâs death and the disappearance of close friends⌠and that hurt.
The risks of receiving pain rather than affection increased, and there were days when she would question about life being cruel and harsh and feelings being merciless and unstoppable. âWhat will it be if I wasnât easily attached to people?â Junhee asked despite knowing she wouldnât get any answer from the other. âThen again, I would be incapable of socializing, discussing with everyone so openlyâŚâ She sighed, petting her duck that was now curled up into a feathered ball, his eyes closed.
âWhat it feels like to be an android? Will it make things easier or will it be as complex as being human?â A light smile formed on her lips. She knew she wouldnât get any answer from him. There was a double-edge comfort in knowing that he wouldnât know. âI wish I wasnât so blatantly attached to those who will eventually leave without warningsâŚâ










