Anon. You and your disgusting homophobia were the straw that broke the camel's back.
I will respond, in a post, ONCE, and I will never talk about this unnecessary, deeply obvious shit ever again.
So buckle up, because apparently, I need to wipe the floor and tell a bitch to FUCK OFF.
I will break this down âšïžnice and slowâšïž, since I know how difficult it is for you to read and understand what you read.
When I said I dislike the marketing of Pond and Phuwin as a fixed pair, I meant exactly that, âšïžâšïžâšïžthe marketingâšïžâšïžâšïž.
Words have meaning. Look them up.
This is not a personal attack on âšïžtheir souls,âšïž their sexualities,âšïž or âšïžwhat the fuck they eat for breakfast.âšïž
For all I care, they could be the loveliest people alive.
This is about a very calculated, aggressively curated âšïžsuper-straightâšïž shield that has become so transparent it's practically glowing.
Since looking at the bigger picture seems to be a struggle for you, let's ask the questions you all are âšïžmiraculouslyâšïž choosing to ignore:
Why is it that a staggering number of accounts sporting PondPhuwin profile pictures regularly crawl into the comment sections of openly queer Thai actors to drop slurs and hate, yet turn around and happily consume a show where these two play queer characters?
Why are massive sponsors in notoriously homophobic markets (let's be fucking real, like Indonesia and Malaysia) practically âšïžthrowing moneyâšïž at Pond and Phuwin, while those same brands wouldn't touch an openly queer actor with a ten-foot pole?
As someone with a JOB and a degree where I had to learn HEAVILY about marketing, I will explain.
It is because their marketing is a safety blanket for homophobes.
Read that again.
They have leaned so violently into the 'No homo, we are just super straight dudes!!!!' narrative that they have essentially become the marketing itself.
It's palpable in their interviews (especially their English ones), and especially when they are flying solo without a series to promote. There is this deep, agonizing fear of being perceived as gay, and frankly, it has gotten incredibly icky to watch.
And yes, before you start crying, screaming, throwing up, it has officially bled into their actual work.
Their on screen chemistry has been so thoroughly sanitized that watching their recent series feels less like watching a compelling story and more like watching two straight guys aggressively securing a bag.
Which, listen, YES BITCH, make your money!
But as actors, maybe try actually getting into character without being petrified that the ghost of heterosexuality past is going to snatch your endorsements away.âšïžâšïžâšïžâšïž
There are plenty of straight Thai actors and pairings who manage this just fine.
They are secure enough in their own masculinity to portray queer characters authentically without needing a giant, metaphorical 'I AM STRAIGHT' sign taped to their foreheads.
They don't need a heterosexual shield to protect their egos.
That is exactly why I said that when Pond and Phuwin act âšïžâšïžâšïžapartâšïžâšïžâšïž, their actual talent shines.
Why????
Because they can finally drop the defensive straight man act and just âšïžâšïžâšïžactâšïžâšïžâšïž.
If you genuinely cannot see how calculated, corporate, and weirdly defensive this entire setup is, I don't know what the fuck to tell you.
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My friend send me a screenshot of someone posting on Ao3 how TeeTeePor is official and all of us PorTeeTeePor enjoyers should 'move the fuck on'.
My personal favorite was when they said that 'Teetee was always meant to be the top' and 'Por was always meant to be the bottom'. (Read: Nooooo)
Another favorite was how they cannot WAIT for the day Teetee grows 'more manlier' and Por 'fully embraces his feminine side and drops that cool guy act just like other DMD bottoms'. (Read: Op get therapy, I am begging)
I don't think I need to explain, in detail, why this thought process is a) heteronormative in nature , b) pretty fucking homophobic if you think about it c) fucking ridiculous
What I will say and what I always say is, parasociality is ruining this world.
Those two are actors. A C T O R S !!!!!
Their real life dynamics, bonds, preferences, styles and so on are separate from their work.
Implying that you need to 'look' a certain way or 'drop an act' and 'become more feminine' is driving me up the fucking wall more than you know.
Implying that a young and deeply socially anxious acting pair that expresses, countless times that they do not give a fuck about the 'dynamics' of their characters should 'drop the act'
The notion that all DMD actors who act in the submissive/bottom role 'dropped the act' and 'became' feminine is actually, deadass disgusting.
It is no wonder said person posted this anonymously.
ugh i'm so pissed off. now even if my settings are set to show me mature content and my vpn is set to a diff location it's still barring me from seeing mature content unless i verify my age
After last night's fight and the rain that followed, you're finally alone.
At least for a brief moment.
While you try to find some peace, Karasu stumbles into a problem on campus that he simply canât ignore. And when Karasu canât ignore something, it usually ends with fists instead of words.
This time, a small part of the story is told from the perspective of Karasu and Kickin Chicken.
But as old conflicts escalate, new enemies emerge at the same time. Enemies who are far more dangerous than anything youâve faced so far.
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So...
Where was I, anyway?
Honestly?
No idea.
Every single time I sat down to write, I just didnât have the energy to really follow through in the end. Not even because I lacked ideas. More like the exact opposite.
I probably have more ideas right now than ever before. Scenes. Dialogue. Fights. Character development. Entire future story arcs.
The problem was never inspiration.
The problem was finally sitting down and actually writing those damn ideas down.
Still, I was incredibly happy to read the comments under the Genius Story during this time. Even during the phases when I had absolutely no motivation to keep writing, those comments showed me that the stories are still being read.
For that, I just want to say thank you.
And now, enough about me.
I hope you enjoy reading this chapter.
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Karasu would probably never agree if someone described him that way.
Tall, physically above average, with a presence you canât ignore even if you try. Not a genius, definitely not, but not completely stupid either.
He understands enough to get by, and in his eyes, thatâs all he needs. But he has something else, something you canât learn: Heâs there when it counts. For his people. For the few he truly calls his own.
He had a good childhood. No drama, no chaos, no broken past defining him. Parents who cared. Enough money to get by. And that natural talent for getting along with people. Not because everyone likes himâquite the opposite.
He knows full well that there are plenty of people who canât stand him, who find him annoying, loud, disrespectful, too much.
But thatâs exactly what he doesnât care about.
While others would rack their brains over why someone doesnât like them, why they arenât accepted, Karasu never really understood that. For him, it was never a problem that needed solving.
Itâs just⊠like that.
âIt is what it is.â
He says it often. Sometimes in that exaggeratedly silly voice, half-ironic, half-provocative, and sometimes completely serious, without a hint of a smile. And no matter how he says itâhe means it. Not everyone will like you. Not everyone will get along with you. And thatâs okay.
But if you saw him now, here, in this crowded hallway, amid voices, footsteps, and the usual chaos, no one would guess that heâs just a few seconds away from beating the crap out of his best colleague.
âYo, Kickinâ!â
Karasu raises his arm, despite the people around him, loud enough to cut through the noise. âWhatâs up, dude? Havenât heard from you in a while.â
Kickin slowly turns his head toward him. His blond hair moves slightly with him, almost casually, as if even this small movement were part of a show.
His gaze is⊠empty in a very specific way.
Not just neutral, but that condescending, half-bored, half-annoyed stare where his eyes fix on you, yet at the same time seem to suggest youâre not really worth the effort.
His eyelids slightly lowered, his mouth twisted ever so slightly, as if he were already mocking the conversation internally before it has even begun.
He takes his time. He looks Karasu up and down, slowly, scrutinizingly, as if he were evaluating something heâs already decided on long ago.
He blinks a few times, for no real reason, and it almost seems as if there really isnât a single serious thought behind that look.
Then he straightens up again.
The two are almost the same height; Kickin is perhaps slightly better built, more defined, but otherwise they seem almost like mirror images in posture and presence, only with a completely different expression.
âYeah, no wonder we havenât heard from each other in a long time.â Kickinâs voice is calm, but with that underlying mockery that resonates immediately. âYouâre just chilling with that little faggot over there all the time, arenât you?â
He grins slightly, crookedly, and tilts his head slightly to the side. âI heard that weirdo wants something from DogDay. Is that true?â
Karasu remains silent for a moment. Not because he canât say anything, but because too much is coming up at once.
Kickin has always been like that. Big mouth, no filter, zero thought about when he might just need to shut up. Thatâs exactly why heâs gotten himself into trouble so often⊠and Karasu has had to bear the consequences.
But this time itâs different.
While heâs still thinking about what he could say, what he should say, his emotions are running high. Not just because of what Kickin just said. But because of everything. The last few weeks. Months. Things he canât quite make sense of himself.
âKickin, dudeâŠâ His voice is calmer than it should be.
The atmosphere around them shifts slightly. A few people in the hallway have heard the remark; they turn around, stop, pretend to keep walking, but keep looking anyway. Conversations grow quieter, glances dart back and forth.
That typical feeling when things are about to blow up and everyone can tell, but no one wants to be the first to actually do something about it.
âListen, KickinâŠâ Karasu briefly runs his hand over the back of his neck, takes a deep breath, as if heâs still holding back. âIâve had a ton on my plate lately, and besides, Y/N isnât a sissy or anything.â
His gaze hardens. âHeâs a colleague of mine. And a really decent guy. Plusââ
ââOn top of that,â heâs trying to land a spot at DogDay and seems to have really screwed up.â Kickin cuts him off without a secondâs hesitation. His grin widens, almost provocatively. âYou know, Karasu⊠you used to be cool.â
He takes a small step forward, just enough to make it personal.
âBut now?â A short, derisive laugh. âNow you just hang out with sleeping pills, nerds, and weirdos.â
His gaze hardens.
âWhat has become of you?â
For a moment, neither of them says a word. The air between them suddenly feels heavy, almost tangible, as if it might tip over at any moment.
Karasu stares at Kickin, impassive, but then he squeezes his eyes shut slightly, a small, controlled contraction, as if heâs pushing something back inside himself thatâs rising to the surface far too quickly. His jaw tenses, barely visible, but clear enough.
Behind Kickin, Hoppy leans against the wall, one leg slightly bent, her arms loosely crossed, but her face has long since ceased to show any real composure. She rolls her eyes in annoyance and lets out a soft, exaggerated sound, that typical, half-bored, half-annoyed exhalation.
âWhat are you two even talking about?â Her voice briefly cuts through the tension, as if sheâs trying to downplay the whole thing. She clicks her tongue, glancing back and forth between the two of them. âCome on, we have a lecture inââ
But she breaks off mid-sentence.
Not because sheâs forgotten what she was going to say. But because she notices it herself. Just like the others.
The hallway isnât loud anymore. Not really. Conversations have fallen silent or dropped to a whisper, footsteps have slowed, glances linger. People are pretending to be busy, looking at their phones, talking to friendsâbut every single one of them has at least one eye on this situation.
Karasu exhales loudly through his nose. Long. Controlled. He straightens up even more, as if that were even possible, making himself taller than usual, broader, almost instinctively trying to look down on Kickin, even though the two are barely the same height.
And at that very moment, your voice shoots through his head.
âIn case you havenât noticed, Karasu, Iâm already an outsider.â
The sentence hits him harder than it should. Not because of the words themselves, but because of the way you said them back then. As if you had long since accepted that you would never really belong.
Karasuâs gaze goes blank for a brief moment. Not outwardlyâno one here would noticeâbut inwardly, the thought pulls him away from this hallway, away from Kickin, back to you.
And then he suddenly realizes something he doesnât like at all.
When was the last time he actually had a real conversation with you?
Not some silly comment between two lectures. Not sending a meme. Not a âYo dude.â But really talking.
He doesnât know.
His mind automatically wanders on. The chemistry test. That completely insane exam that you were the only one to pass. The talent show, where you suddenly surprised everyone. The fun fair. The class trip.
All those moments when you were somehow always completely out of place and yet better than everyone else. And then he remembers how you slowly got better after that. Really better. Not happy or healthy or anything like that, but more stable. Out more. Around people more. Less of that dead look in your eyes.
And now?
Now you look worse than you did back then during your absolutely shitty phase.
Karasu exhales sharply through his nose once more. His eyes narrow slightly, this time not because of Kickin, but because of you.
Because thereâs something else. Something nobody here knows.
Youâve got damn superpowers.
The thought sounds completely absurd even in his own head, even now. And yet itâs true. You could theoretically do anything. Tear people apart. Throw things through the air. Defend yourself. Destroy every single person here, if you really wanted to.
But instead, you let yourself be pushed around.
Karasu doesnât get it. Honestly, he doesnât. He thinks about you, about how you look, how you talk, how you always seem like youâd rather apologize for even existing.
That slightly downcast face. The headphones. The dark circles under your eyes. The way you sometimes look like youâre physically present but mentally miles away.
And yet⊠yet something about you sticks with him. Maybe thatâs exactly why.
Meanwhile, even more people are gathering behind the situation in the hallway. The crowd is slowly growing, at first cautiously, then more and more obviously. Some stop right in their tracks, others pretend theyâre just passing by by chance.
Bobby has also shown up by now, along with Crafty and Picky.
Bobby immediately looks back and forth between Karasu and Kickin, her eyes wide with interest, almost alarmed. She realizes right away that this isnât just normal banter anymore. Her arms slowly cross in front of her chest as she tries to figure out whoâs going to lose it first.
Crafty, on the other hand, already seems nervous. As usual, really. Her fingers cling to the sleeve of her hoodie, her gaze darting restlessly through the crowd as if sheâd rather just disappear right back into it. She hates situations like this. The noise. The tension. People who suddenly turn aggressive.
Pickyâs gaze remains fixed on Karasu, analyzing, cautious. She knows him well enough to see that something is different here. That he isnât just having a discussion.
And in the midst of all this chaos, Karasu and Kickin continue to face off.
âListen, Kickin, I get what you mean, honestlyâŠâ Karasuâs voice remains controlled, even though he can feel that by now, probably every single student in this damn hallway is listening to him.
His gaze remains fixed on Kickin, steady, attentive, almost warning. âA lot has happened, really, and we can talk about it. I mean, reallyââ
âYou want to talk about it?â Kickin interrupts him immediately. He draws out the word âtalkâ strangely, mockingly, almost with disgust, as if the very thought of it were ridiculous. âDo you know what I want to talk about?â
Karasu doesnât answer right away. He just looks at him.
Next to Kickin, Hoppy suddenly takes a small step forward. Her eyes widen slightly, not dramatically, but enough that you can tell even she is slowly realizing that this is heading in a direction no one can control anymore.
And Karasu⊠Karasu is confused for a brief moment. Though âconfusedâ isnât really the right word for it. Itâs more like that uncomfortable feeling just before an accident. That knowledge that something is about to be said that canât be taken back.
Because there are many things Kickin could talk about.
And there are some things Karasu definitely doesnât want to hear in the middle of a public place.
The murmuring around them grows louder. People are whispering to each other, now openly turning around, just stopping in their tracks. Some already have their phones half out, just out of reflex, because everyone senses that something is about to escalate.
âIâd love to talk about how you won the talent show!â Kickinâs voice gets louder, more aggressive, each word coming out harder than the one before. âOr the drinking game at the after-party! Or how your little weirdo suddenly hit everything at the fun fairâ!â
Karasuâs expression shifts slightly.
âOr better yet,â Kickin takes half a step closer, his face contorting into that arrogant, almost disgusting smirk, âhow your little faggot friend imagined he could fiââ
Kickin has quick reflexes.
Years of sports, training, athleticsâall of that has shaped his body, made him fast, explosive, confident. Itâs part of why girls are into him, why he moves as if every space automatically belongs to him.
His ego has been fed for yearsâby attention, by success, by people who have told him time and again just how good he is.
But thatâs exactly why Kickin never expected Karasu to actually strike.
Not here. Not in front of everyone. Not without warning.
The punch comes brutally fast. No big movement beforehand, no typical wind-up, nothing. Just pure force.
Karasuâs fist hits Kickin squarely in the face. A dull, sickening thud echoes through the hallway, loud enough to instantly silence all the murmuring. Kickinâs head is jerked to the side, his body immediately loses its balance, crashing into the wall behind him, while several people recoil in shock.
And for a single moment, it is completely silent.
Kickin doesnât move right away. He just stands there, half-leaning against the wall, his head slightly bowed, as if his brain hasnât quite processed what just happened. Slowly, he looks up at Karasu again.
And in his eyes, there is no trace left of that arrogant, carefree smirk.
Only shock.
Not even because of the pain. But because of the fact that Karasu really hit him.
In front of everyone.
For a brief moment, he just stares at him, almost in disbelief, as if some rule of the world had stopped working.
âKarasu, have you completely lost your mindâ?!â Hoppy is the first to find her voice again. She immediately pushes off the wall and takes a step forward, her eyes wide open.
At the same time, another voice echoes through the hallway.
âHEY! BREAK IT UP RIGHT NOW!â Some professor comes running from the other end of the hallway, loud enough that several students immediately step back.
But at that very moment, Kickin strikes back.
Karasu doesnât even see the punch coming. Just movement. Then pain explodes on his cheek. His head is jerked to the side, his ear rings immediately, and before he can even catch his balance, Kickin has already grabbed him by the collar.
âYOU LITTLE SON OF A BITCH!â Kickinâs voice is almost breaking with rage.
And then everything happens way too fast.
Karasu strikes back. Kickin does too. Fists hit faces, shoulders, ribs. Neither of them fights clean, neither thinks. They arenât boxing like professional fighters, but like two people whoâve hated each other for weeks and have finally found a reason.
Kickinâs punches hurt. Really hurt.
Karasu immediately realizes why this guy has been training for years. Kickin strikes fast, aggressively, without pause, and every time a fist connects, it feels like something flickers briefly in his head.
But Karasu doesnât stop.
He canât take it anymore.
Everything comes flooding back at once. Your situation. The last few months. Kickinâs comments. The feeling that something about you is getting worse and worse, and no one but him really notices.
âYOUâRE JUST HANGING OUT WITH FREAKS NOW!â Kickin hits him on the shoulder again, trying to push him back against the wall. âPITIFUL!â
Karasu rams his elbow into his chest.
âSHUT THE HELL UP!â
Complete chaos breaks out around them. People are screaming all at once; some are backing away, others are actually trying to get closer.
Hoppy grabs Kickin by the arm and pulls with all her might. âKICKIN, STOP IT!â
Picky tries to pull Karasu away, but he immediately breaks free again.
And Bobbyâ
Bobby doesnât even look annoyed or surprised anymore.
But genuinely frightened.
Kickin hits Karasu right in the mouth again. The taste of blood. Instantly.
Karasu strikes back, harder this time, and both of them crash into several lockers, causing metal to clang loudly throughout the entire hallway.
âYOU GUYS ARE COMPLETELY CRAZY!â someone yells from somewhere.
But none of it really registers with Karasu.
His head is hot. Loud. Full.
He hears only fragments. Voices. Screams. Insults.
âThat little freak of a friend of yoursâ!â
A blow.
âYouâve become just as embarrassing as he isâ!â
A blow.
Suddenly, someone grabs Karasuâs arm from the side. Firmly. Pulls him back.
And in that moment, he just reacts. Without thinking.
His fist shoots out to the side and hits someone right in the face.
A scream. Not loud. Not aggressive. More like shocked.
And it is precisely this sound that brings him back to reality for a split second.
Karasu turns his head.
And sees Miss Delight.
For a moment, no one moves.
The teacher is half on the floor, half leaning against one of the lockers, one hand covering her face, while blood runs between her fingers and drips onto her clothes. Not much. But enough. Enough that the entire hallway suddenly looks completely different.
Karasuâs breath catches immediately.
The screaming around him becomes muffled, distant, almost as if someone were stuffing cotton wool into his ears. He can still hear voicesâfrantic, loud, panickedâbut none of them really reach him.
Miss Delight slowly raises her other hand to her nose. Blood drips onto the floor.
And it is precisely this sight that hits him harder than any blow before.
Because it immediately reminds him of you.
Of the blood under your nose. Of your eyes. Of that completely broken way youâve been looking lately, as if youâve been falling apart inside for a long time.
Karasuâs gaze slowly drops to his own hands.
Blood.
Not just his. Not just Kickinâs.
BloodâŠ
His chest rises and falls heavily, far too quickly, and slowly his adrenaline begins to subside, just enough for his mind to catch up and understand what has actually just happened here.
Kickin is still standing in front of him, breathing heavily, his lip split open, his face red with rage.
Next to him, Hoppy, completely tense.
Crafty looks like sheâs about to cry.
Picky says something, but Karasu doesnât really hear the words.
And Bobby⊠Bobby looks at him as if sheâs never seen him before.
Not annoyed. Not interested. Not amused.
Frightened.
And thatâs exactly what suddenly hits him right in the chest.
Because just a few minutes ago, he still wanted to seem cool. To be loud. Dominant. To be the guy who has everything under control.
And now?
Now everyone is standing around him, looking at him as if he were the problem. As if he were the dangerous one.
Karasuâs gaze slowly sweeps down the hallway. Students. Professors. People with cell phones. People whispering. People stepping back.
And for a brief, utterly repulsive moment, he suddenly understands you.
Not completely. Not really.
But enough.
Enough to realize how quickly people can change their perspective.
How quickly âthe cool guyâ suddenly becomes âthe crazy one.â
âKarasuâŠâ Bobbyâs voice is quiet this time. Almost uncertain. âWhat⊠whatâs actually wrong with you?â
The question hits him harder than Kickinâs fist.
Because Karasu has no answer.
He looks down at his hands again. Blood is running over his knuckles. His heart is still pounding like crazy, but at the same time, everything suddenly feels empty.
And somewhere deep in his mind, a thought surfaces that he immediately hates.
Maybe Kickin was right.
Maybe he really has become something he no longer recognizes.
Karasu slowly lifts his head again. Very slowly, as if the movement alone would take effort. The screaming around him still blurs into a single muffled sound, somewhere between panic, excitement, and that disgusting curiosity people suddenly develop as soon as violence breaks out somewhere.
His gaze wanders first to Kickin.
And for a split second, he doesnât see Kickin.
He sees you.
Not really. Not physically. But that image in his head suddenly overlaps with it. The slightly slumped posture. The blood under the nose. That strange look in the eyes, half empty, half completely overwhelmed, as if his own mind couldnât keep up anymore.
And suddenly Karasu understands something he absolutely doesnât like: That you probably looked exactly like that while all those people stood around you and just watched.
Kickin wipes his mouth with the back of his hand, sees the blood, curses quietly to himself, but even his eyes look different now. No longer arrogant. No longer superior. But frantic. Overstimulated.
Karasuâs gaze wanders on.
Crafty.
She stands a little way behind the others, shoulders hunched, fingers clenched tightly into her sleeve. Her eyes dart nervously through the crowd, as if she expects something else to happen at any moment. That someone will scream again. That someone will strike again.
And once again, he thinks of you.
Of the time before.
Before you seemed completely numb. When you were just nervous. Anxious. Quiet. That feeling of always being out of place, of always looking as if youâd rather be invisible.
Then Hoppy.
And that hits him the hardest.
Because in her gaze, he recognizes himself. Not the Karasu he usually is. Not the loud one. Not the guy who always has a wisecrack ready.
But the Karasu of right now.
Overwhelmed.
Angry.
And at the same time, somehow lost.
Hoppy looks at him as if sheâs trying to figure out whether sheâs still on his side or not.
Then Bobby.
And with her, itâs different.
She suddenly reminds him of Boxy and Boogie at the same time. Not physically. But in the way she looks at him. That quiet analysis. That âWhat the hell just happened?â in her eyes.
Boxy would probably have exactly the same expression on his face, that confused, slightly disappointed look, while Boogie would probably just stay silent and watch as everything falls apart.
Karasuâs chest heaves heavily.
Heâs thinking of you again.
About your face lately. How broken you look. How empty. How youâve withdrawn further and further, and no one really did anything about it. Not even him.
More students are gathering in the hallway now. The crowd is growing, voices getting louder, professors pushing through the crowd, someone arguing frantically in the background, several people talking over each other at once. Some are looking at Miss Delight, others at Kickin, but most at Karasu.
And this feeling suddenly drives him crazy.
Those looks.
As if he were the problem now.
Karasu exhales sharply and heavily. A sound almost like a growl. His hands are still trembling slightly from the adrenaline, blood sticks to his fingers, to his sleeve, and for a moment everything feels unreal. As if he were standing next to himself, watching someone elseâs life completely crash and burn.
Then he hears a voice.
âEnough.â
Not loud.
But sharp enough that silence falls immediately nonetheless.
Karasu turns his head to the side. At the same time as Kickin.
Miss Delight stands there among the students, one hand still pressed against her bleeding nose. Her eyes look not just angry, but genuinely shaken. Not just by the brawl. But by what she has just seen.
Her gaze shifts back and forth between the two of them.
âYou two,â she says slowly, clearly, every syllable full of control, even though you can hear sheâs still breathing heavily herself. âGo. Immediately. To the university administration.â
Karasu doesnât answer. Neither does Kickin.
For a moment, the two just stand there, breathing heavily, blood on their faces, surrounded by stares, whispers, and that uncomfortable silence that arises when suddenly no one knows what the right thing to say is.
Then Kickin is the first to move. He presses his tongue against his split lip, grimaces briefly in pain, and turns around without a word.
Karasu follows a few seconds later.
The hallway slowly parts before them; students step aside, some immediately, others hesitantly, but no one blocks their path. No one says a word. Even the people who were whispering just a moment ago now prefer to keep their mouths shut.
All you can hear are footsteps, quiet breathing, and somewhere in the distance, the hum of the lights above them.
Hoppy runs after Kickin, still tense, while Bobby simply stands still and looks back at Karasu. Crafty avoids his gaze completely. Picky says something quietly to a professor, but Karasu isnât listening. His head is still buzzing.
And while all this is happening, something else is watching the scene.
Among the upper sections of the hallway, hidden between pipes, shadows, and the dark areas near the ceiling, a figure stands completely motionless. So motionless that no one would even perceive it as a person.
Long, fake black hair falls quietly downward. The white face of the mask looks almost lifeless, smooth, cold, expressionless. Where normal eyes would be, there is only a single horizontal slit running along the mask.
And right in the middle of itâ
A single glowing red eye.
It observes everything.
The small vertical slits at the bottom of the mask emit a faint mechanical sound. Almost like a broken speaker. Then the figure speaks softly to itself.
âAnalysis⊠updated.â
The voice doesnât sound human. Not even artificial in the usual sense. More like something in between. Distorted. Mechanical. Each syllable slightly offset, as if several pitches were layered on top of one another.
The red eye focuses on Kickin first.
âKickin Chicken. Emotionally unstable. Aggression patterns confirmed. Probability of survival⊠low.â
Then the gaze slowly shifts to Karasu. A brief electronic click sounds.
âKarasu. Protective instinct conspicuously high. Potential for violence⊠rising.â The figure tilts its head slightly to the side. âPossible future disruptive factor.â
For a brief moment, the red eye remains completely still. Then a soft hum sounds within the mask.
âBut irrelevant.â
The voice stops.
The eye scans the crowd again.
âY/N⊠not located.â
The red light in the slit flickers slightly.
âAnomaly confirmed.â
The figureâs fingers move slightly. A metallic click. Almost as if it were thinking.
âCombat data from lab sector remains incomplete. Probability of successful survival against experimental unit⊠Statistically impossibleâŠâ
âTo increase the likelihood of victory, every available opportunity must be exploited.â
---
You wake up.
And before you can even think straight, before your vision clears or your brain realizes where you are, you practically jump out of bed. Your heart immediately starts racing, your body reacts faster than your mind, and, almost in a panic, you stumble straight into the bathroom.
You grab the sink, breathing heavily, and slowly lift your head to the mirror.
For a brief moment, you see only yourself. Messy hair. Dark circles under your eyes. A tired face.
Then you realize it.
This isnât your bathroom.
Your gaze slowly wanders around. Toothbrushes. Skincare products. Small bottles and creams, neatly arranged. Things that definitely donât belong to you. It smells different here. Not sterile like the lab. Not empty like your room. But warm. Calm. Like her.
CatNapâŠ
And right at that moment, the memory of last night hits you.
Not like a clear movie, but in fragments. Closeness. Warmth. Her voice. Her hands. That feeling of being so close to someone that for a moment everything else disappears.
Her naked form⊠your racing heart⊠the moaning⊠the sensationâŠ
Your face immediately flushes. Reflexively, you hold a hand up to your face and yet continue to stare into the mirror, as if you need to check whether it all really happened.
You actually did it.
Youâre here. In a girlâs bathroom⊠CatNapâs⊠After a night with her. And the craziest part isnât even that.
Itâs that you donât feel completely worthless right now.
Normally, your head would be full of doubt. Full of self-loathing. Full of thoughts about what you did wrong or why none of this can be real anyway. But right now, thereâs⊠calm.
You exhale slowly and suddenly notice that youâre holding yourself up straight. That your shoulders arenât completely slumped. That youâre not immediately judging yourself in the mirror.
Itâs just a tiny bit of self-confidence. Barely noticeable, really.
But to you, it feels enormous.
Slowly, you open the door and step out of the bathroom again.
The light outside is soft, muted by the rainy sky beyond the windows. The room is quiet, except for the soft sound of her breathing.
And then you see her.
CatNap is still in bed, half under the covers, calm, peaceful, completely relaxed. Her dark hair lies slightly scattered on the pillow; headphones are somewhere next to her, probably having fallen there after the two of you simply fell asleep at some point.
Her face looks so incredibly soft in her sleep, almost vulnerable, completely different from the quiet distance she usually puts between herself and other people.
You just stand there and look at her.
And for the first time in a long, long time, your head doesnât feel like a prison.
Not empty. Not broken. Not full of screams and memories.
Just⊠calm.
After everything thatâs happened. After the blood. The monster. The experiments. The dead. The weeks of fear, loneliness, and that slow breaking inside youâŠ
youâre standing here now, smiling.
She moves slowly in bed. At first barely noticeable, a soft rustle in the fabric of the blanket, then she slowly lifts her head. Her eyes open sluggishly, still half-asleep, unfocused from waking up, until she finally sees you.
And immediately her expression changes.
That small, honest smile appears on her face, still tired, still soft from sleep, but completely genuine. For a moment, neither of you says anything. You just look at each other, and that look alone feels like more closeness than you ever thought possible.
âYouâre really still hereâŠâ she murmurs softly, her voice hoarse from sleep.
You laugh softly through your nose. âWhere else would I be?â
CatNap pulls the blanket a little closer to herself, not really out of shame, more out of reflex, and looks briefly to the side before turning back to you. You can tell she can hardly believe what has happened.
Last night probably feels like both hours and a single moment to both of you at the same time.
âIt was all kind of⊠surreal,â she finally says softly.
You nod slowly.
And immediately the memories come flooding back. Her hands on your shirt. That cautious, nervous drawing closer at the beginning, as if neither of you were sure if this was even real.
The tremor in her voice, that constant glancing away and then looking back again. Two people who both had no idea how to handle so much closeness, and thatâs exactly why it was real.
Not perfect. Not polished like in some movies.
But awkward, emotional, intense.
And thatâs exactly why it was beautiful.
Your face flushes slightly as you think about how, at some point, you just completely lost yourselves in each other. How you both eventually stopped thinking. No more fear of doing something wrong, no more worrying about how you look or come across. Just warmth. Intimacy. The feeling of finally being held by someone without having to feel ashamed of it.
CatNap buries her face halfway in the blanket and laughs softly, nervously. âI still canât believe that really happened.â
âTo be honest, neither can I,â you admit right away.
She looks at you again, this time for a little longer. âAnd I find it even harder to believe that IâŠâ She pauses briefly, then grins, looking slightly embarrassed. ââŠslept with the only person on this planet⊠with superpowers.â
Your face immediately turns much redder.
âPlease donât ever say that again,â you murmur, embarrassed, and briefly cover your face with your hand.
CatNap really laughs this time. Not loudly. Not exaggeratedly. But that quiet, honest laugh that youâve come to recognize instantly.
She slowly sits up, the blanket slips down a bit, her hair is still completely tousled from sleep, and yet she looks more beautiful right now than anything else youâve ever seen.
âIt was wonderful,â she says suddenly, calmly. Her eyes remain fixed on yours. âAnd Iâm glad⊠that youâre here.â
You swallow briefly.
After everything thatâs happened. After the blood. The fight. The monster. Death. The weeks of loneliness, fear, and that feeling of slowly falling apart insideâŠ
youâre here now.
Together.
Two people who have both looked into the darkness of their own lives far too often and yet somehow ended up right here.
And for the first time in a long time, life doesnât feel like something you just have to endure.
âMe too,â you reply quietly.
And just at that moment, your phone suddenly rings.
The ringtone cuts through the quiet atmosphere of the room. You both immediately look to the side at the same time, straight at the display lighting up on the nightstand.
CatNap slowly reaches for her phone, still half-asleep, while you just sit there and suddenly feel that nervous knot in your stomach again.
Just a moment ago, everything had been calm. Warm. Safe. And now, that ringtone alone feels as if the outside world has decided to catch up with you again.
She unlocks her phone, looks at the screenâand her expression changes instantly.
Not dramatically. Not loudly.
But you see it right away.
Her eyes widen. The tiredness vanishes from her face in an instant. She reads something, then again, more slowly this time.
âThat canât be trueâŠâ she murmurs softly.
Your body tenses up immediately. âWhatâs going on?â
CatNap slowly looks up at you.
âKarasu.â
The name alone is enough.
Something tightens in your chest. Images flash through your mind, all at once, way too fast. Karasu, laughing loudly as he walks beside you. Karasu, making stupid comments.
Karasu, defending you even when you didnât want him to.
Your best friend.
Or at least he used to be.
Because at the same time, another thought hits you. How long itâs actually been since youâve really talked. Since the internship. Since Playtime Co. Since everything. At some point, you just stopped replying to messages properly.
At some point, âtomorrowâ suddenly turned into weeks.
CatNap glances at her phone again.
âHe got into a fight with Kickin.â
The sentence hits you like a slap in the face.
âWhatâŠ?â Thatâs all you can manage to say at first.
Your mind needs a moment to even process the words properly. Karasu and Kickin. Fought. Not argued. Not yelled at.
Fought...
You immediately try to figure out how that could have happened. Karasu has known Kickin for ages. The two were friends. Not perfect friends, but friends nonetheless.
And then you notice something else.
The way CatNap looks at you.
Thereâs something else in her gaze. Something she doesnât say outright. Almost as if sheâs waiting for you to figure it out yourself.
And suddenly, your mind connects the dots.
KickinâŠThe last few weeksâŠThe commentsâŠThe remarksâŠThe Fun FairâŠThe bullyingâŠ
Your gaze drops briefly, then you slowly lift it back to her.
And thereâs more exhaustion than surprise in your voice as you ask quietly:
âThey were fighting⊠because of me, werenât they?â
CatNap doesnât answer right away.
She grips her phone a little tighter, just looks at you for a few seconds, and that silence alone confirms everything for you.
âKickin must have⊠said things about you,â she finally says calmly. âNot just ordinary insults. It seems⊠it escalated.â
Of course⊠of course nowâŠ
Of course this has to happen now, too.
Your gaze wanders briefly out the window. Rain is slowly running down the glass; outside, everything looks gray and blurry, and suddenly you feel guilty again.
Not exactly. But that familiar feeling is coming backâthat vague sense that everything gets worse as soon as people have anything to do with me.
âShitâŠâ you murmur quietly.
CatNap immediately moves a little closer to you. Not frantically. Not exaggeratedly. Just calmly.
âHey.â Her voice is soft. âItâs not your fault.â
You just look at her for a few seconds. You want to believe her. Really. But in your head, everything now feels like itâs going to automatically fall apart the moment you become part of it.
People are fighting over you. People are dying around you. Monsters suddenly really exist. And you yourself⊠you donât even know exactly what you are anymore.
Your gaze drops briefly to your hands.
Then you exhale slowly.
âWhat am I even supposed to do now⊠about the lab?â Your voice sounds tired. Not panicked. Not loud. Just exhausted. âWhat the hell am I even supposed to do now?â
CatNap immediately looks at you more seriously. You can tell that her mind is trying to piece everything together somehow.
âI donât understand whatâs going on anyway,â she mutters quietly and looks back at her phone. âIf something really big had happened⊠the university would have sent something by now.â
She frowns slightly.
âI mean⊠an entire neighboring building on campus was practically destroyed.â She says the sentence slowly, almost as if she can hardly believe it herself. âBy a huge⊠monster.â
She falls silent for a moment. Then she looks at you again.
âWhich was then killed by my boyfriend.â
Your face immediately flushes again.
âPlease stop saying that like itâs no big dealâŠâ
A small smile flits across her face, but quickly disappears as reality sets in again.
She glances out the window briefly. âWait a minuteâŠâ Her eyes narrow slightly as she thinks. âIf Karasu and Kickin got into a fight at the university⊠then the others are obviously still in class.â
The sentence makes your stomach sink a little.
That feeling comes on suddenly.
That sickening, heavy pull deep in your stomach. Like right before a roller coaster. Like right before something goes completely wrong and your body already knows it, even though your mind is still lagging behind.
A bead of sweat slowly trickles down your forehead.
âWe should probably go anyway,â you say quietly.
CatNap looks at you immediately. âWhat?â
âTo the university. To the labs.â You exhale heavily through your nose. âIf we just disappear or hide, itâll only make everything more suspicious.â
You realize yourself how absurd the sentence sounds.
As if âconspicuousâ is even a relevant word anymore after last nightâŠ
CatNap glances briefly at the time on her phone and swallows slightly.
âClass started ages ago.â
The feeling in your stomach grows stronger.
Not just fear. Not just panic.
More like the feeling that something is shifting. That things have already happened while the two of you were here. That the world out there hasnât stood still just because you found a few hours of peace.
You slowly wipe your forehead.
âI have this feelingâŠâ you finally murmur.
CatNap immediately moves closer to you. Very calmly. No fuss. No questions.
She gently rests her forehead against yours.
Her eyes close slightly.
âI know,â she whispers.
And thatâs exactly what hits you harder than anything else.
Not because she has a solution. Not because she can tell you that everything will be okay.
But because she understands you.
Really understands.
You just sit there like that for a brief moment. Forehead to forehead. Calm. Silent. As if youâre both trying to hold on to these last seconds of normalcy before you have to go back to reality.
But eventually, you move anyway.
You get dressed. Slowly. Quietly. Almost automatically. The rain outside has let up, but the sky remains gray, heavy, oppressive.
And as you get ready to go back to the university, neither of you has any idea what really awaits you there.
---
Kickin Chicken had probably never felt so uncomfortable sitting there.
Of course, there was that one time back then when he sat on the bed next to his parents and they explained the story about the bees and the flowers to him with the utmost, cringingly serious expression.
And of course there was that incident in high school when he had to sit in the teachersâ lounge after beating up a boy so badly that the boy couldnât even show up for class the next day.
Or that time when he and Karasu had skipped class and got caught by the very teacher they were supposed to have right after.
Right there with KarasuâŠ
Which is kind of ironic, considering that this very same guy is sitting next to him again now.
Only this time, heâs not laughing. Not grinning. Not as a friend.
But after the two of them had tried to beat the crap out of each other.
Kickin leans back slightly and stares up at the ceiling, annoyed. His jaw hurts. His lip is split open. His ribs feel like someone hit them with a hammer, and honestly, Karasu probably tried to do just that.
But this still feels worse.
Because this isnât a normal detention.
Not like the detention Kickin is used to from school.
Back then, there was always DogDay. Class representative. The teachersâ favorite. The girl who somehow managed to defuse any situation, even when Hoppy and he had completely screwed up.
She just had to talk to the teachers for a few minutes, and suddenly everything was âa misunderstanding.â
But now?
Now everything feels different.
DogDay has been mentally somewhere else entirely for weeks anyway. Just like Bubba. Both seem like theyâre constantly thinking about something they donât want to tell anyone else.
And the Smiling CrittersâŠ
Kickin isnât even sure anymore if the group really still exists.
They used to be everywhere together. Loud. Annoying. Flashy.
Now?
Now it all feels like separate pieces slowly falling apart.
And the worst part is that he canât even say exactly when it happened.
Kickin slowly glances to the side.
Karasu is sitting right next to him.
How the hell did we end up here?
Months ago, the two of them would probably have been getting into some kind of stupid trouble together, commenting on girls, or insulting each other during some kind of competition.
And now?
Now theyâre sitting next to each other in silence after seriously trying to beat the other one into the hospital.
Kickin looks ahead again.
The room is huge⊠Way too hugeâŠ
High ceiling. Long rows of empty seats. The hum of the lights above them sounds almost unnaturally loud because no one else is in here. No class. No students. No sounds except for occasional breathing and the faint creaking of the chairs.
Theyâre sitting here all alone.
And thatâs exactly what makes it even more uncomfortable.
Because as long as other people were there, Kickin could stay angry. Stay loud. Pretend he didnât care about anything.
But now?
Now thereâs only Karasu sitting next to him.
And the silence between them feels almost worse than the fight itself.
Again and again, Kickinâs gaze drifts slightly to the left. Not for long. Not conspicuously. Just for a moment.
And almost every single time, Karasu looks over at exactly the same second.
These brief eye contact moments only make everything more awkward.
Neither of them says a word. Both look away immediately, as if theyâd caught each other doing something, and yet it keeps happening. That brief glance upward. That direct meeting of eyes. That immediate looking away afterward.
The huge room makes it even worse. The hum of the lights. The empty rows. That feeling that every breath sounds way too loud.
Kickin leans back further and stares at the ceiling.
And of course, heâs thinking of you again.
He hates that.
He hates how often he has to think of you now.
Because in his eyes, youâre not supposed to be anyone special. Just some small, weird guy with no self-confidence. One of those people who always look like theyâre about to apologize for even being there.
And yet, somehow, you always end up on top.
The chemistry examâŠ
Bubba should have gotten that internship. Not you.
Bubba was smarter. More logical. The guy is practically a walking calculator. But suddenly you come out of nowhere and are the only one to pass that crazy test.
Then the talent show.
To this day, Kickin doesnât understand why you won at all. Honestly, he doesnât. He still remembers exactly how he stood there, waiting for someone to finally realize how weird it all actually was.
But instead, you won.
And then the afterparty.
Karasu against him and Bubba in beer ping-pong. Shouldâve been a sure thing. But somehow he completely humiliated them both.
And the fun fairâŠ
Kickinâs jaw tenses slightly the moment the thought crosses his mind.
You made him look like a complete idiot in front of Hoppy there. Not even with some cool one-liner. Not even because you were stronger.
But simply by standing him up. As if all his blabbering just didnât interest you.
And thatâs exactly what drives him crazy to this day.
Because deep down, Kickin doesnât understand one thing:
How can someone like you win?
You seem weak. Insecure. Nervous. And yet, suddenly, everything goes your way.
For a brief moment, Karasu and Kickinâs eyes really meet this time.
Not just that brief glance away. But truly.
And Kickin suddenly thinks of Hoppy.
About how she looked at him earlier. Not just angry. Not annoyed. But disappointed.
And thatâs exactly whatâs slowly gnawing at his mind right now.
Because he actually likes her. Really.
For a long time. Much longer than he would ever admit.
But every single time he thinks about telling her, something inside him tightens up. So he makes jokes. Flirts half-ironically with random girls. Plays the fool.
Because thatâs easier.
And now he remembers the look in her eyes during the fight, and suddenly he doesnât know anymore whether heâd rather scream or just punch a wall.
The seconds drag on.
Until Karasu finally breaks the silence.
âYour punches really hurt, you son of a bitch.â
Kickin blinks briefly, surprised.
And against his will, he almost has to laugh.
âYeah?â he mutters dryly, lightly wiping his split lip. âYou donât exactly hit like a girl eitherâŠâ
Karasu tilts his head back slightly and stares at the ceiling as well.
âI didnât hit Miss Delight on purpose.â
âNo shit.â
Silence again. But this time, a different kind. Not quite as hostile anymore.
More like⊠broken.
Kickin slowly looks back over at Karasu.
âYou completely lost it over that guy.â
Karasuâs expression changes slightly right away. Not aggressive. But alert.
âWatch how you talk about him.â
Kickin clicks his tongue softly.
And right then, he suddenly notices something that annoys him:
Karasu is serious.
Not that typical âweâre colleaguesâ talk. Not some pity thing.
He really means it.
And thatâs exactly what Kickin doesnât understand.
He leans back further in his chair, briefly crosses his arms, and looks up at the ceiling again, as if the answer were written there somewhere. But the longer he thinks about it, the less sense it makes in his head.
Karasu could hang out with anyone.
With athletes. With popular people. With some girls who fawn over him. With guys who are just as loud and aggressive as he is.
But instead, heâs almost beating the crap out of himself because of you.
Because of you.
Kickin doesnât get it.
Because in his world, people work differently. People team up with people who bring them something. Status. Fun. Attention. Strength. Anything.
But you?
You walk around with headphones on, avoid people, barely speak, always seem like youâre on the verge of mentally breaking downâand yet, somehow, people still stand by you.
Karasu snorts softly through his nose, as if he already senses what Kickin is thinking.
And thatâs exactly why Kickin eventually just asks straight out:
âWhatâs so special about him, anyway?â His voice sounds annoyed. Not aggressive this time. More like genuinely frustrated. âSeriously. I donât get it.â
Karasu looks at him briefly.
Then he leans back a little too.
âHe doesnât have to be anything special.â
Kickin raises his eyebrows slightly.
Karasu shrugs. âHeâs my coworker.â
Kickin immediately wants to make some stupid comment. Something about whether the two of them are secretly together or whether Karasu has just gone completely soft.
The remark is practically on the tip of his tongue.
But then he really looks at Karasu.
And he stops.
Because Karasu doesnât seem embarrassed. Not insecure. Not as if heâs defending himself.
But completely determined.
As if heâd get into a fight ten more times without hesitation if it were about you.
And suddenly, that stupid remark feels somehow⊠wrong.
Kickin looks away again.
Because deep down, he suddenly realizes something that honestly makes him nervous:
There was never anyone who would have stood up for him like that.
Not really.
Sure, people liked him. Girls found him attractive. He had friends. Attention. Status.
But this kind of genuine support?
That âIâll fight for you, even if it makes my own life more complicatedâ?
He never had that.
And even worse:
He doesnât even know if thereâs anyone heâd stand up for in the same way.
The realization unsettles him.
âMy group is just falling apart completely,â Kickin mutters suddenly at some point.
Karasu glances over briefly, but says nothing at first.
And thatâs exactly what prompts Kickin to keep talking.
âThings used to be simpler.â He lets out a dry chuckle. âHoppy and I screwed up. DogDay took care of it. Bubba was the nerd. Everything was easy.â
He shakes his head slightly.
âAnd then all this crap comes along.â
The chemistry exam.
The talent show.
College.
Playtime.
âBubba barely talks anymore.â Kickin looks down at his hands. âDogDay acts like sheâs thinking about something all the time, something she wonât tell anyone. Hoppy gets aggressive over every little thing.â
He clicks his tongue in annoyance.
âAnd then suddenly thereâs him.â
Karasu doesnât say a word.
Kickin realizes himself how absurd that sounds.
âHe just shows up, and suddenly everything changes.â
The words hang in the air for a moment.
Then Kickin laughs bitterly.
âAnd the worst part isâŠâ He runs his hand over his face. âI donât even think Iâm really mad at him anymore.â
Karasu looks him straight in the eye now.
âWhat, then?â
Kickin doesnât answer right away. Because he has to figure out for himself what exactly is eating at him.
âMaybeâŠâ His voice grows quieter. âMaybe it just bugs me that someone like him still manages to get ahead somehow.â
Karasu is silent for a few seconds. Then he exhales slowly.
For the first time since the fight, Kickin canât help but smile a little.
âDude, shut up.â
Karasu grins back ever so slightly.
Not that exaggerated, loud grin he usually wears. But a smaller one. A genuine one. Almost weary.
And thatâs exactly what slowly eases the tension between them.
Not completely relaxed. Too much has happened for that. Too many punches. Too many words. But at least theyâre no longer sitting across from each other as if theyâre about to knock each otherâs teeth out again.
Kickin leans back a little further and stretches his neck briefly. âStill sickening that you actually hit me.â
Karasu shrugs. âYou just really wanted to test how hard I can hit.â
âAnd you just had to test how well I can hit back.â
âFair.â
For a moment, the two fall silent again.
Then Karasu glances slightly to the side.
âBut honestlyâŠâ His voice softens. âIf you really donât want your group to fall apart completely, then stop pushing everyone away the moment things get serious.â
Kickin looks him straight in the eye.
Karasu runs his fingers through his hair briefly. âDogDayâs trying to keep everything together, Bubbaâs probably been racking his brain for three weeks now, and I donât know anything about Picky, Bobby, Crafty, or⊠CatNap⊠and HoppyâŠâ He pauses briefly. âWell.â
Kickin immediately blushes slightly. âWhat do you mean, âwellâ?â
Karasu grins even more broadly now.
âDude.â
âWhat?!â
âDonât mess with me.â Karasu leans slightly toward him. âI can see how youâre looking at her.â
Kickin just stares at him for a few seconds. Then he rolls his eyes in annoyance and looks away.
âMan, just shut your mouth.â
Karasu snorts softly.
And itâs exactly that laugh that eventually makes Kickin stop denying it completely.
âYeah, okay, maybe⊠maybe I just like her.â
The sentence comes out much quieter than anything before it.
Almost uncomfortably honest.
âBut I think she only sees me as a friend anyway.â
Karasu waves it off immediately. âBullshit.â
Kickin immediately looks back over. âHuh?â
âYou two are a perfect match.â Karasu says it as if it were obvious. âYouâre both aggressive, annoying, and have some kind of screw loose.â
âWow. Thanks.â
âYouâre welcome.â
Kickin canât help but chuckle slightly.
Karasu then becomes serious again. âTry it anyway.â
Kickin looks at him silently for a moment. âAre you trying to get me in trouble for the fight, or what?â
Karasu tilts his head back and stares at the ceiling.
âNahâŠâ A brief shrug. âI just think we should forget about that shit.â
âJust forget it?â
âDude, weâre guys.â Karasu grins slightly. âGuys just beat the crap out of each other sometimes and then act like nothing ever happened.â
Kickin stares at him for a moment. And then he actually smiles.
After that, the two of them keep talking. About girls. About relationships. About awkward situations from high school. For the first time in a long time, the conversation almost feels normal again.
Almost like it used to be.
And at some point, they both just stand up at the same time.
Kickin stretches briefly and looks toward the door. âYou know what? Just skip it, like in the good old days?â
Karasu looks at him with a completely serious expression. âSkipping detention ordered by the university administration is something thatâs going to really screw us over in the end.â
Kickin looks briefly disappointed.
Then that typical grin suddenly spreads across Karasuâs face.
âI donât give a damn what they think.â
Kickin shakes his head slightly, laughing.
With that, the two of them set off. A few steps toward the exit, their shoes echoing through the huge, almost completely empty room.
But suddenly, they both stop at the same time.
Karasu slowly looks around.
The empty rows of seats. The vast expanse. No windows open. No other students. Not even a single professor.
âWhy the hell did they even put us in here?â he mutters.
Kickin shrugs, but then he suddenly remembers something.
âDid you happen to notice the construction work on the Playtime lab building?â
Karasu furrows his brow slightly. âWhat do you mean?â
Kickin looks at him, confused.
âBro⊠the building looks completely destroyed, for Godâs sake.â
And at that very moment, something tightens in Karasuâs chest.
He immediately thinks of you.
The lab⊠Your internshipâŠ
His body reacts faster than his mind. A light sheen of sweat forms on his skin, and suddenly all he wants is to get out of here.
âOkay, Nah.â Karasu immediately quickens his pace toward the door. âWeâre leaving right nowââ
The door opens.
Slowly.
Metal squeaks softly.
But neither Karasu nor Kickin look directly at it; both are still half in conversation and half lost in their own thoughts.
And then they hear only the voice. Mechanical. Cold. Distorted.
âIn order to improve the probability of victory⊠anything that can be exploited⊠must be exploited.â
The door is already open.
Not slowly opening. Not moving steadily.
But simply open.
And someone is standing right in front of it.
So much so that it takes Karasuâs brain a moment to even realize that there is a person standing right there in the middle of the entrance. A completely black silhouette in the light of the hallway behind it. Tall. Motionless. Almost unnaturally still.
Long black hair falls down the sides. The white face of the mask looks completely lifeless, smooth as porcelain, and in the middle of the horizontal slit, that single red eye glows.
It has been watching them the whole time.
Karasu and Kickin turn toward the door at the same time.
And immediately, the atmosphere in the entire room changes.
This thing doesnât feel like a human. Not like any student. Not like a professor.
More like something that shouldnât be here at all.
Kickinâs face instantly drains of color. âWhat the hellâŠâ
The red eye focuses on him first. Then on Karasu.
A metallic click sounds inside the mask.
âSubjects located.â
The voice sounds off. Not just robotic. But as if several voices were speaking the exact same words at the same time, with a slight delay.
Karasu instinctively takes a small step back. Not out of fear alone. But because his body immediately senses that something is going completely wrong here.
Zero slowly raises his arm.
Very calmly.
Almost casually.
The black sleeves of his body barely move as he does so, and the red eye remains fixed on the two of them.
âAnythingâŠâ
A deep hum suddenly begins to fill the room.
The air changes. The floor vibrates slightly.
Karasu's eyes widen instantly.
âKICKINâ!â
ââŠthat can be exploitedâŠâ
Zero slowly spreads the fingers of his outstretched hand. The red eye glows even brighter.
ââŠmust be exploited.â
And thenâ
Explosion.
Not just a bang. But absolute destruction.
The entire room literally explodes from the inside out. Walls tear apart, windows shatter instantly, metal bends with a screech, and a gigantic shockwave shoots through the building.
From the outside, it looks as if part of the university is simply being torn apart.
Fire.
Dust.
Debris.
The entire side of the building bursts outward explosively, while concrete, glass, and steel are hurled through the air for miles.
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You canât believe it.
For a single moment, your brain just freezes.
You and CatNap have just arrived on campus; the rain has finally let up a bit, and students are walking around everywhere, completely oblivious, talking about lectures, exams, or some trivial crapâand then suddenly an explosion shatters the entire reality.
The blast ripples through the air with such force that you donât just hear itâyou feel it in your chest.
Part of the university building literally explodes outward.
Windows shatter simultaneously. Pieces of concrete are hurled through the air. A gigantic cloud of smoke shoots into the sky, while screams immediately fill the entire campus.
People are running. Others just stand there. Some are shouting names. Others just stare at the building, completely shocked.
And you?
You canât move.
Your eyes are completely fixed on the explosion, while black smoke slowly rises from the destroyed area. For a brief moment, it all sounds muffled to you, almost as if your brain doesnât want to fully process the situation.
But then the realization hits you.
The destruction. The violence. This kind of explosionâŠ
It immediately reminds you of last night.
The monster. The lab. The fight.
Something is terribly wrong here.
You immediately feel that sickening sensation deep in your stomach again. That feeling that something much bigger has already begun and youâre right in the middle of it, whether you like it or not.
Screams echo across the campus. Sirens start wailing somewhere.
You slowly look to the left.
And you see CatNap.
The look on her face makes your blood run cold.
She doesnât just look scared.
Sheâs scared. Really scared.
Her eyes are wide open, fixed entirely on the destroyed part of the building, while she takes a small step back almost unconsciously.
âWhatâŠâ Your voice sounds hoarse. âWhat the hell was thatâŠ?â
But as you speak the words, your mind is already racing.
KarasuâŠKickin⊠BrawlâŠ
Your heart skips a beat for a moment.
What the hell is actually going on here?
You immediately turn completely toward CatNap.
âCatNap.â Your voice suddenly becomes more frantic. âDo you know what kind of room that is up there?â
She looks at you.
And you immediately see all the color drain from her face.
At first, her lips barely move.
Then she finally answers quietly:
âKickin and Hoppy⊠used to end up there sometimesâŠâ She swallows hard. And in her eyes, you already see the same realization as in yours. âThatâs the room for⊠detention.â
Your body moves immediately. Not a second's hesitation.
You start sprinting.
Straight toward the building.
âY/Nâ!â CatNap calls out to you immediately, her voice almost breaking with panic. âWaitâ!â
But you can barely hear anything anymore.
Adrenaline surges through your entire body.
People are running away from the buildingâyouâre running straight into it.
Past screaming students. Past smoke. Past shards of glass scattered all over the floor. Fire alarms are now blaring across the entire campus, but everything in your head is reduced to a single thought:
Please, not Karasu.
Please, not someone else again.
The buildingâs lobby is in complete chaos. Students are screaming in confusion, professors are trying to get people outside, somewhere someone is running bleeding into a wall, while multiple fire alarms blare simultaneously.
And yet you keep moving upward.
The stairs.
You take several steps at a time, your shoes nearly slipping on shards of glass; smoke is already drifting through the upper floors of the building and stinging your throat with every breath.
Your heart is pounding so hard against your chest that it hurts.
The images from last night wonât stop.
The monster.
The Compactor.
The blood.
Emily Carter.
The experiments.
And now this.
Of course itâs connected.
Of course it doesâŠ
Youâre way past the point of convincing yourself that this is all just a coincidence. Playtime Co. is sick. Completely sick. People are dying. Monsters exist. Something has been going on behind closed doors here for a long time, and youâve stumbled right into the middle of it.
Or maybe you were dragged into it.
You turn a corner and nearly collide with several students running down the stairs in a panic.
âRUN!â screams a boy with tears in his eyes. âTHEREâS SOMETHING UP THEREâ!â
You barely manage to dodge him and keep running.
Higher and higher. Closer and closer to the devastated area. The smoke is getting thicker.
And then suddenly you see Miss Delight.
Sheâs running frantically down the hallway, blood on her face, several other teachers behind her. Instantly, your body flinches instinctively, and you retreat behind a half-destroyed wall.
Not because you think she would harm you.
But because your brain is now reacting to everything as if it were a threat.
Youâre breathing heavily. Too heavily. Your thoughts are racing.
This is too big. Way too big.
Last night, a monster in the lab⊠Today, an explosion right in the middle of the universityâŠ
And somewhere in between, there you stand. With blood on your hands. With powers no human should possess. With memories of a being who was once a student.
Your fingers tremble slightly.
What the hell is really going on here?
You briefly squeeze your eyes shut, force yourself to keep going, and finally walk down the last hallway.
And then you reach the spot. Or at least whatâs left of it.
The entire area is completely destroyed.
The outer wall is practically gone. Smoke drifts through open steel beams, glass is scattered everywhere, and entire rows of seats have simply been ripped from the floor. The wind from outside blows through the rubble, while somewhere metal creaks slowly.
It looks like a war zone.
Your gaze darts frantically around.
Karasu.
Kickin.
Pleaseâ
Suddenly, someone grabs your arm roughly.
âY/Nâ!â
Your body reacts immediately.
Not a second of thought. Just instinct.
Your ability literally explodes out of you.
The person is hurled with full force against the nearest wall. Concrete crashes loudly, dust flies through the air, and several loose metal parts rattle immediately.
Only then do you even realize what youâve done.
Your eyes widen instantly.
Because there, amidst the dust and debris, Bubba is slumping against the shattered wall.
The impact still echoes through the destroyed room; small pieces of concrete trickle from the ceiling and disappear somewhere in the smoke. For a brief moment, Bubba coughs heavily, trying to catch his breath, but then he slowly lifts his head.
And suddenlyâ
he smiles.
Not relieved. Not friendly.
But rather that completely bewildered, almost euphoric smile of a person whose greatest theory has just been confirmed right before his eyes.
His glasses are askew, blood is trickling down his temple, and yet he looks at you as if none of that matters anymore.
âI knew itâŠâ His voice trembles slightly. Not from fear. But from excitement. âOh my God⊠I knew it.â
You donât move.
Your arm is still hanging halfway outstretched in the air, while your brain takes several seconds to even realize what just happened.
The smoke continues to drift through the destroyed floor. Outside, people are screaming. Somewhere, alarms are blaring against the broken metal. But suddenly, it all seems far away.
Because something much worse is happening right now.
Someone knows your secret. Someone other than Karasu, Boxy, and CatNap.
Not by chance. Not through guesswork. Not through some weird theories.
But for real.
He saw it. He saw me.
Right before his eyes.
You immediately feel your stomach clench. Your hands start to tremble slightly as you slowly look down at the floor. Suddenly, everything in your head is spinning at once.
The fight against the monster.
The bodies.
Emily Carter.
Vincent.
The experiments.
CatNap.
Karasu.
And now Bubba.
Bubba slowly sits up a little, briefly clutching his ribs from the impact, yet still begins to grin again. That grin grows even wider the longer he looks at you.
âYou really do have powersâŠâ he murmurs, almost reverently. âReal telekinesis⊠thatâs impossible⊠thatâs biologically impossibleâŠâ
He snorts in disbelief and looks at you as if heâs just seen God himself.
âThe chemistry examâŠâ His eyes widen slightly. âThe talent show⊠the fun fair⊠oh my God, it all suddenly makes senseâŠâ
You slowly take a step forward.
And right then, something changes in your gaze.
The shadow of your hair falls over your eyes as your breathing grows heavier. You can barely hear Bubbaâs voice anymore. Everything suddenly blurs together.
Karasu.
Boxy.
Boogie.
DogDay.
CatNap.
The Suicide.
The monsters.
The blood on your hands.
The thing that was once a human.
And in the midst of all these thoughts, a single, cold consideration suddenly enters your mind.
If I just killed him now⊠would anyone even notice?
The room is destroyed. People are dying everywhere. The university is sinking into chaos.
You could just do it. Your arm slowly rises again. Not frantically. Not emotionally. Slowly. Almost frighteningly calm.
And BubbaâŠ
notices.
His grin lingers for a second, but then he really looks into your eyes.
And for the first time since youâve known him, Bubba seems genuinely nervous.
Because standing there is no longer the insecure boy heâs been analyzing for the past few months.
Standing there is someone who is seriously considering killing a person. Killing him.
You can literally feel the tension in the air. Small metal objects around you begin to tremble slightly, as if even your powers are reacting to your thoughts.
Bubba slowly holds his breath.
And at that very momentâ
âYouâre two steps too late⊠Y/N⊠L/N.â
Youâre still looking down at Bubba, your arm outstretched, while your mind tries to make sense of whatâs actually happening here.
Then you hear that mechanical click behind you.
âInteresting.â
The red eye glows through the smoke.
"So it's true... you're the one with the ability."
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Wow... what just happened?
First, Kickin and Karasu are beating the crap out of each other because Kickin is dissing you and Karasu just canât stand it. Then you and CatNap finally get together, officially and without excuses. And as if that werenât enough, this Experiment shows up, attacks Karasu and Kickin first, and now has it in for you of all people.
So Iâd say: Definitely one of the chapters where the most has happened so far. Of course, aside from the talent show and the fight against the Experiment in the last chapter.
And to be honest? Even Iâm wondering right now how things are going to continue from here.
You and CatNap have just started a whole new chapter in your lives. Then you leave her standing outside, run in alone, and everything completely escalates within minutes.
In case anyone is dying to know: Yes, I will write the rest of your scene. Donât worry. However, not in the second person, but rather from CatNapâs perspective and through her thoughts. I just havenât gotten around to it yet.
After a long time, I guess I can say goodbye again.
Thank you so much for reading. And as always: See you in the next chapter.
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