#aboutnico

@torbeag tagged me!!! thanks tor. it’s 2am but im awake, clearly, so, 

Nicknames: nico is a nickname. some people call me shnico (mostly bev) and tigo calls me kuya, which is sort of a nickname

Gender/pronouns: male-esque // he/him

Star sign: scorpio sun / aquarius moon / sagittarius rising

Height: 5′ 

Time:  2:15am

Birthday: 10 nov 

Favorite bands & Favorite solo artist: it’s hard to say my favorites because i like a wide variety of music but my five most recently played bands are lcd soundsystem, electric guest, the cure, yo la tengo, and scissor sisters; my five most recently played artists are st. vincent, rostam, sza, mitski, and christina rosenvinge so that’s definitely something 

Song stuck in your head: i don’t have one right now but earlier my sister kept trying to sing “yiken” by priceless da roc so that was definitely in there

Last movie you watched?: i saw i, tonya the other day and it was soooo good

Last show?: maybe when i was watching the office with my sister 

Why did you create your blog?: a guy i had reconnected with from middle school told me it was the cool thing to do

What do you post?: umm fandom art shit.. music? memes. politics 

Last thing you googled?: “the met on fifth avenue map”

Other blogs: inactive personal blog, cat blog, kin blog 

AO3: i don’t have one actually. LOL

Do you get asks?: sometimes but i think most people just dm me these days

How did you get the idea for your URL?: i needed to change my url for my twitter for some reason and nico dot jpg was taken so i went with this and changed my tumblr to the same url for brand consistency 

I follow: uhhh too many people honestly but i love it. some design/art blogs, some aesthetic blogs, couple of cat blogs, couple of jewish-related blogs, a bunch of friends both from meatspace and the internet 

Followers: i’m mostly in mutuals with my followers but there’s a couple of you who follow me for the content i’m assuming. is this asking how many i have? it’s a small number but it’s a good one 

Average hours of sleep: uhhhhh like 10+ and it’s still not enough lmao. im depressed

Lucky number: i don’t really have one but i’ll usually go with 3 or 13 if i have to pick something

Instruments: i used to play piano when i was a kid and then i didn’t want to anymore so i forgot everything. i was in choir for a really long time so i can definitely read sheet music with like, 75% accuracy. i want to learn electric bass because i think it’d be hot 

What are you wearing?: this pinkish knit sweater i took from bev and black skinny jeans because i’m a fuck  

Dream job: oh my god i have like, so many. right now i have my goals set on being an art professor and teaching maybe design history or something like that while also being an experimental artist but i also would be down to be like, a cantor if i had the time/opportunity/money. i’ve also been tossing around the idea of going into design criticism? i had wanted to be a freelance illustrator for a long time but as it turns out it’s really hard to get started so, i’m out here

Dream trip: so many.. i want to go to like japan and taiwan right now. last month i really wanted to go to the uk.. i still want to go to mexico and the philippines, and i would love to go to like, italy and poland and stuff

Favorite food: ever since i moved to new york i’ve been eating a ton of whitefish which i love. i love fish in general.. hamachi is like, amazing. 

Significant other?: tumblr user @ratsinparadise

Last book I read: homer i dont read anymore 

Top 3 fictional universes: hooergh are you for real. i guess i’ll just list three fandoms i like: twin peaks, star wars..... god i dont know!! that’s all i’ve got. i don’t engage in media the same way i used to. i’m old now 

that was exciting. i’ll uhhh tag @geisterwald, @aerinmochi, @penworthy, @ivorensis, @all-truths-wait-in-all-things, @nikevi, @pacifichagfish, @quadhonks, @threateninzeppelin, and bev. because that’s who’s on my dash right now but of course u dont have to do it. anyone else who wants to do it can say i tagged them. 

1. what’s your favorite carryout/delivery order (of any type)?

i really like... ordering japanese food. i like curry and tonkatsu and miso soup

2. do you like to swim?

i do like to swim but i am not very good at it.. i can’t tread water

3. what kind of shoes do you wear most often?

i try to rotate the shoes i wear because i have leg and back problems and i’m lucky that i have more than one pair of shoes at this point. right now i’m going back and forth between black vans and these white adidas that my sister’s old roommate gave her and then consequently gave to me :^)

4. steel beams or wood beams?

wood

5. concrete or asphalt?

concrete

6. do you accidentally bite your tongue very often?

not my tongue but i accidentally bite the inside of my lip like all the time

7. what’s your favorite flavor of potato chip (or do you not like them)?

i like salt and vinegar :9 also limon 

8. is a flower dried and pressed or a flower frozen in a block of ice more appealing to you?

dried and pressed

9. what kind of flower did you imagine when considering question #8?

like a dark purple aster or echinacea

10. do you like starfish’s tube feet or do they frighten you a little bit (or something else)?

i had to google this because i couldn’t remember what they looked like and i think i do like them. they’re cute. but i think if i look at them too closely for too long they might be a little scary

11. what’s your go-to remedy for a cold?

i usually take whatever cold medication i have on hand (usually antihistamine + decongestant during the day and then like. nyquil), shower as frequently as i can, drink a lot of tea, and then sleep for as long as possible. but i don’t know if that helps. it certainly doesn’t hurt

i think i’m supposed to come up with my own questions now? and tag people? so i’ll tag @wallowalakemonsters @quadhonks @aerinmochi @threateninzeppelin @razzledazzledaisy @nyaastro @longroadstonowhere @sciencevision @canisbeta @kitsunefreak @ratsinparadise if you want!!

1. what is your favorite artistic medium (either to work with or to consume)?

2. do you / did you like school?

3. is there any jewelry you wear all the time? 

4. what language(s) would you like to learn?

5. what is your favorite line from a poem / song / story etc.?

6. if you didn’t have to work for money, what would you do with your time instead?

7. how long do you take to bathe / shower?

8. describe your favorite place to be

9. what is your favorite thing about fall? 

10. do you like your middle name? 

tagged by @canisbeta hooty hoo 

Relationship Status: im married. just kidding im an infant but im gay for @narcissuspunk

Favorite Color: mint 

Pets: my cat’s name is callie and also i am in temporary ownership of a kitten named beans but he actually is my sister’s cat

Last Song Listened To: levitation // beach house

Favorite TV Show: i started watching terrace house a little while ago and it’s really fun and kind of beautiful 

Hobbies: singing, drawing, watching movies, drinking coffee.. i volunteer at my city’s animal shelter with the cats 

Books Currently Reading : im too depressed to read. me eyes can’t focus on it. can i list a podcast instead.. i like another round a lot 

im like not here very frequently but i figured i should update a little bit on my life. LOL 

umm i finished my first year of grad school today!! so that’s exciting

i made a lot of stuff this semester and you can see a lot of it on instagram 

i also made two short films and they’re both on vimeo! the first is called “in my language there is no word for gender” and it’s about being trans  

the second film is called “lozn an ofene tir” and it’s a little bit of a documentary i guess about my partner bev, and its relationship to jewishness, and how we carry our familial histories with us 

you can also follow me on twitter if you’re into that 

also i have a newsletter! i send it out about every two weeks or something like that but we’ll see how often i produce work over the summer hahaha 

2. What gives you the most dysphoria? (Acknowledging that not all trans people experience dysphoria)

oh my G-D hahahaha. uhhh probably consuming media w people that i want to look like but don’t.. hearing my birth name.. thinking/knowing that someone i respect or like doesn’t look at me as anything except a weird ugly girl

5. What was the first time you suspected you were transgender?

i honestly wish i could point to a specific moment but i don’t remember it that way because i remember it much more as a gradual realization. it was sometime during my freshman year of high school?? i think it might have been either while i was scrolling through tumblr or the gaia forums and someone said something about nonbinary identities hahaha. when i was in elementary school i was very adamant about being a “tomboy” though 

8. How would you explain your gender identity to others?

i usually just tell people i’m nonbinary and leave it at that but i guess if i needed to be more specific i would say that it fluctuates about every few months or so, and right now i’m very masc of center

15 is answered!! 

20. What do you wish you could have shared with your younger self about being trans?

i would probably tell my younger self that i didn’t have to force it so much bc that’s something that happened constantly, even before i even knew what being trans was. i forced myself to distance myself away from “”stereotypically girly things”” bc i couldn’t handle being labeled like that but like, i hated sports! i convinced myself i liked sports bc i didn’t want to be a girl and i’m maybe one of the most unathletic people on this earth

38. What is your sexual and romantic orientation, and what are your thoughts on it?

i’m like ace-ish and pan but i usually just say that i’m queer bc i love the enigma. i’m kidding the real answer is that i say that i’m queer bc i’m over thinking about it and i like to have fun 

ok hahaha 

3. Do you have more physical dysphoria or more social dysphoria?

umm it really fluctuates.. i would probably say more social dysphoria because i think being misgendered really aggravates whatever physical dysphoria i have

7. What is your favorite part of being transgender?

i know i often complain about the lack of a real community (or the illusion of a real community, rather than a lack) but i really am grateful that i’ve met all of the people i have and created a very strong family and support system for myself because a lot of the friendships that i have maintained over the years are strong bc of our shared struggle and our shared trans experience 

11. What are your experiences with binding or tucking?

i started binding my sophomore year of college and bound pretty consistently for about a year and a half. then i stopped because of a variety of reasons leading me to feel like i didn’t really have to anymore. i started binding on the daily again about a month ago 

15. What labels have you used before you’ve settled on your current set?

when i first came out as trans i identified very heavily as genderqueer because that was the term that was ~en vogue~ at the time. i think beyond that i’ve mostly used transmasculine and nonbinary to describe myself.. i briefly referred to myself as a demiboy but now that i’m older i don’t connect with it in the same way 

19. Would you ever go stealth, and if you are stealth, why do you choose to be stealth?

i think the concept of going stealth is really complicated, and a lot of people go “”stealth”” out of necessity, but personally i have no intention to be stealth if i can help it. obviously there are some times in my life where i have to present a certain way for my safety but i would much rather be visibly trans

23. What’s your biggest trans-related fear?

dying lol

27. What do you do to validate yourself?

ohhh i hate the concept of validating myself. i don’t think it’s very useful or helpful LOL.. i guess i can interpret this as what do i do when i don’t feel trans enough?? it sucks and i don’t have healthy coping mechanisms for it at all but i usually do something very dramatic like cut or dye my hair or get a tattoo or something

31. How are you involved with the trans community, IRL or online?

i’m really lucky in that i’ve lived in large cities my whole life so the vast majority of my friends both in meatspace and online are trans. when i was in high school and undergrad i was very open about being trans and did a lot of activism sort of stuff on campus (especially in undergrad). i don’t go to a lot of trans-specific spaces because i’m lucky enough that i don’t feel that i have to leave the comfort of my own home for that. 

35. How do you feel your gender interacts with your race, disability, class, weight, etc. from the perspective of intersectionality?

this isn’t really what intersectionality means but that’s ok. umm i think that my gender is obviously going to be influenced by these other things but i think that the largest factor is probably my racial and ethnic background. over the last year and a half i’ve thought a lot about the role of masculinity in xicanx culture and pilipinx culture, and thinking about how the men in my family, especially my pilipino family members, have been very soft and gentle and thinking about how i can emulate that  

39. Is your ideal partner also trans, or do you not have a preference?

in the past i haven’t had a preference but my partner is trans

43. Are you involved in any trans-related activism?

in undergrad i was really involved but in this past year since i’ve been out of school i haven’t been as active (largely for physical and mental health reasons). i’m hoping to get more involved again now that i’m starting grad school and have a couple of organizations i’d like to check out once i get settled 

Name: nico

Gender: nonbinary

Zodiac Sign: scorpio sun 

Chinese Zodiac Sign: dog

Height: 5′

Favorite color: mint

Time Right Now: 12:56am 

Where do you live: san francisco ca 

Choose a pet and a name: callie is my 4 year old cat 

Last thing you searched: “the adventure zone podcast” 

Favorite Character you want as your sibling: UMM since we’re talking about adventure zone i think magnus would be a fun older brother. i only have a younger sister so i think it would be potentially fun and chill to have someone to look up to 

Favorite music: it’s a real toss up but my top three genres are surf punk, hip hop, and folk. my favorite band is always vampire weekend though

Dream trip: i want to go to the philippines

How many blogs I follow: 213