#abitheartbroken

ABOUT SUICIDE: I’m trying to pretend that I accepted your passing and that I sometimes just get a bit overwhelmed by waves of grieves and sadness. But the truth is that I have no idea how to act; Should I feel angry with myself because I never noticed your loneliness? Or should I be angry with you because you never told me how lonely you were?

#Chaoszgrieves #letstalkaboutthis #youarenotalone #whereisthemanual #lostintranslation #tellmehowtohelpyou #howtodealwithtis #abitheartbroken (bij Amsterdam, Netherlands)

ABOUT SUICIDE: I’m trying to pretend that I accepted your passing and that I sometimes just get a bit overwhelmed by waves of grieves and sadness. But the truth is that I have no idea how to act; Should I feel angry with myself because I never noticed your loneliness? Or should I be angry with you because you never told me how lonely you were?

#Chaoszgrieves #letstalkaboutthis #youarenotalone #whereisthemanual #lostintranslation #tellmehowtohelpyou #howtodealwithtis #abitheartbroken (bij Amsterdam, Netherlands)

yesterday i was talking about the crush i had and how i feel like our friendship is going to shit. but today i said what the fuck why don't i just test the waters and see where she is at. so i start by saying i have a question to ask you and this question goes like this. “hypothetically” if a guy tells you he has a crush on you how would you respond? she answered me by saying well i have three options for a situation like this 1. if hes a good friend id stay friends with him and nothing more. 2. if i like i would tell him but at this time i don't like anyone. and finally 3. if she doesn't like this guy at all she would take this chance to end any type of relationship they have. so i proceeded by saying well let this person focus on studying right now and who knows maybe another option will show up. she told me if an option for does show up even if it was after a while she would tell that person but as you can i see i’m source of disappointment. i said hypothetically if it was me what would you say she answered by saying that she’ll in summary put me in the friend-zone and continued by saying i don't think ill ever have feelings for you but who knows and ill admit it it hurt a bit but that's the reality of the situation and ill have to accept it. Soo i guess i’m okay with the friend-zone...for now of course and ill hold on from moving on for a little while longer. A Russian proverb i like says that its better to be slapped by the truth than be kissed with a lie. well good bye for now and i knew i could always on tumblr to hear me out.