i'm exhausted and i won't write for long but all i want to say is me and brandon are finally doing an ABGT.. TOGETHER. after meeting over 5 years ago in albania, and reuniting in prague for ABGT 350, we are finally going to an ABGT together. it means so much to me.. idk if he'll ever truly know. every single global anjuna event i would always always always hope he would be there, hope he'd be going, hope i'd be able to see him and spend even a little bit of time with him. and this year, we're going as a couple. it really feels like our story has come full circle and is also only just beginning. this is the end of our efforts of trying to meet up every time there was a big anjuna event, and now we're starting the rest of our lives of going to anjuna events together. idk it just makes me feel so many things. leading up to ABGT or what have you, i'd always text him and ask him if he was going, hoping and praying that he would be too. and when he wasn't going it would legit affect me. i'd be so sad i wouldn't see him. and when he was going, i could not fucking wait to meet up with him.
this time 2 years ago i was preparing myself for seeing brandon after not seeing him for 3 years. and when we did it was like absolutely no time had passed. and god it was so good. i think this ABGT is going to be really, really special. just thinking about it makes me wanna cry happy tears. god i love him so much. i am so crazy lucky that after all this time, he chose me too. and we get to go on these amazing adventures with my friends and my family. and we have the time of our lives.
ugh i know im romanticizing as i always do and its because its now been almost 2 months since i haven't seen him and i miss him so much. i was so preoccupied and stressed with moving and now that that's over i'm back to thinking about him and missing him and just need him to be with me now. i need anjuna. i need brandon. i need my mantis fam.
12 more days.. the countdown has begun. fucking ABGT600 y'all.
