#abesada

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Abe Sada was my first muse for this femme fatale project. I was still finding my footing and trying to figure out exactly where I was going with it, so I feel like I wasn't quite able to do her story justice. And her story is arguably one of the most interesting I've come across. Not only for the unapologetic stance and immense love for her victim she maintained, but also for the bizarre manner in which she and her murder were treated. The presiding judge admitted to being sexually aroused by details of the crime, her prison time was minimal, and she inspired numerous films and literature, both erotic and academic. In pre-war Japan, she was used as an example of the dangerous nature of female sexuality and the threat it had on society as a whole. Just ten years later, in 1946, she became a sort of folk hero, representing a positive view on sexuality and freedom, and becoming a heroine against "false morality" and an oppressive government. Sada's crime was never just a crime, and she was never just a murderess. Whether in a positive or negative light, she always spoke to society at large.

He was the great love of my life. Everyone knows that I killed him, but they often get the reasons wrong. Yes, I struggled with jealousy, but it was so much more than that. I desperately loved him, and I couldn't bear the thought of him with anyone else. By the time I met Kichizo Ishida, I had worked as a geisha, a legal prostitute, an illegal prostitute, a maid, and a waitress. Both of my parents had passed away, I had contracted syphilis, and I had never married. A good friend suggested that I could become financially independent by opening up a small restaurant, and arranged for me to become an apprentice at the Yoshidaya in Tokyo. Ishida owned the restaurant, and he was married, but he started making advances towards me almost immediately after I started working there. We made love for the first time inside the Yoshidaya, with the accompaniment of a romantic ballad sung by one of the restaurant's geishas. ... Hanako Maxi Dress by Collectif Vintage 🖤 Heirloom sake set & pearls 🍶🌺

On May 11th, I pawned some of my clothing and bought sushi and a kitchen knife. "I pulled the kitchen knife out of my bag and threatened him as had been done in the play I had seen, saying, 'Kichi, you wore that kimono just to please one of your favorite customers. You bastard, I'll kill you for that.' Ishida was startled and drew away a little, but he seemed delighted with it all..." ... Hanako Maxi Dress by Collectif Vintage 🖤 Vintage knife & silk scarf 🔪🌺 Heirloom pearls ☠️

We returned to the teahouse in Ogu, and I put the knife to the base of his penis, telling him that I would make sure he would never play around with another woman. He was very amused at this, and he laughed a great, delighted laugh before pulling me on top of him. Two nights into our love-making in Ogu, I began to choke him with my sash. He enjoyed this and told me to continue. He said that it increased the pleasure, so I had him to do it to me as well. ... Hanako Maxi Dress by Collectif Vintage 🖤 Vintage silk scarf 🌺 Momma's earrings & grandma's pearls 🥀

On May 16th, I used the sash again to prevent Ishida's breathing during orgasm, which we both enjoyed. We did this repeatedly for two hours, and once I stopped, his face had become distorted and would not return to normal. He took 30 tablets of a sedative. As he began to fall asleep, he told me "You'll put the cord around my neck and squeeze it again while I'm sleeping, won't you? If you start to strangle me, don't stop, because it is so painful afterward." I wondered if he wanted me to kill him, but I suppose he must have been joking. ... Hanako Maxi Dress by Collectif Vintage 🖤 Vintage silk scarf 🌺 Momma's earrings & grandma's pearls 🌙

I loved Ishida so much, "I wanted him all to myself. But since we were not husband and wife, as long as he lived he could be embraced by other women. I knew that if I killed him no other woman could ever touch him again", so around 2:00 in the morning on May 18th, while he was sleeping, I wrapped the sash twice around his neck and pulled like I had done before, only this time I didn't stop. "After I had killed Ishida I felt totally at ease, as though a heavy burden had been lifted from my shoulders, and I felt a sense of clarity." I laid with his body for hours, then cut his genitals off with the kitchen knife, wrapped them in a magazine cover and put them in my bag. With his blood, I wrote "Sada, Kichi together" on his thigh and a bed sheet, then carved 定 (Sada) into his left arm. ... Stockings by What Katie Did 🖤 Vintage nightgown & beaded clutch 🌚👛 DIY shoes 🥀 Heirloom trunk & pearls ⚰️📿