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[05:27] CA: hey rox im sorry i bailed on you so fuckin suddenly the other day

[05:32] TG: u mean

[05:32] TG: in the

[05:32] TG: hopstital?

[05:32] TG: er

[05:32] TG: infirmary

[05:32] CA: uh yeah like wwe wwere eatin an i just kinda got up an left an shit

[05:38] CA: i need to talk to ara but i havvent seen her around anywwhere but im afraid based on some a the things ivve been hearin happened in other peoples dreams

[05:39] CA: fuck i shouldnt be dumpin this on you not after wwhat happened last time

[05:40] CA: not after wwhat vvris just told me last night either

[05:41] TG: wha

[05:41] TG: im confused

[05:41] TG: slow down darlon

[05:41] TG: *i

[05:42] CA: i

[05:42] CA: didnt wwanna talk about wwhat happened cause i

[05:43] CA: accidentally killed someone again

[05:43] CA: wwhile i wwas there

[05:43] CA: i dont knoww if theyll forgivve me for it but they probably shouldnt

[05:43] CA: evveryone else keeps assurin me that its okay but its not fuckin okay

[05:45] CA: an then wwe get back here an im talkin to vvris an i havve to explain to her that i didnt say some shit to her wwhile she wwas dreamin or at least i dont remember sayin it to her but bottom line is it made her feel shitty an unimportant but i cant shake the feelin that deep dowwn that really is somethin i wwoulda done

[05:46] TG: oh

[05:47] TG: i

[05:48] CA: ara probably got told some shit too but i dont knoww yet

[05:48] CA: wwere you fed lies in your land too

[05:49] TG: dunno

[05:49] TG: i never tried talkin to anybody else

[05:49] TG: guess it just didnt occur 2 me for some rason

[05:50] CA: i didnt wwant to evveryone else wwas checkin their messages at the same damn time an it all sounded awwful so i only checked callie an ara an all i saww wwere cries for help

[05:50] CA: i just kinda assumed the ones i got from you vvris an fef wwoulda been the same an i

[05:50] CA: didnt wwanna see that

[05:54] CA: about the only good i saww from any a this is i guess dirk is more okay wwith me noww but i cant exactly tell

[05:55] TG: that is good

[05:55] CA: but as the rest of things are i cant help feelin like i should havve been left in that place

[06:03] TG: jfklsa;fldk

[06:04] CA: ...

[06:04] CA: i cant read that

[06:05] TG: i know thats cuz i was just mashin buttons on my keyboard

[06:05] CA: oh

[06:05] CA: wwhy

[06:07] TG: because

[06:07] TG: i dont know how to make you feel better :(

[06:09] CA: i havve reached the point a no return an all that awwaits me noww is the wwafty clutches a the vvasty pit a eternal solitude

[06:12] TG: no u havent

[06:12] TG: im just feelin shitty at the cheering up right now

[06:15] CA: no you dont understand i dont think anythin could make me feel better im on the vverge of losin evverythin again an im nevver gunna havve my shit together evver because im the wworst

[06:15] CA: i hate that im evven havvin doubts but i dont knoww wwhat to do about em

[06:21] TG: i think

[06:21] TG: u should talk to aradia

[06:22] CA: fuck

[06:22] CA: i dont knoww i knoww i need to but

[06:22] CA: nevvermind youre right

[06:25] CA: im gunna go i wwont bother you anymore i shouldnt be goin to you in the first place

[06:26] CA: im makin things wway too goddamned complicated an im just twwistin the net evven tighter around my throat

[06:27] TG: its ok eridan

[06:27] TG: i just dont think i can help you right now

[06:27] CA: right you probably got a lot on your mind too after evverythin

[06:27] CA: um

[06:28] CA: if you evver wwanna talk about it im all ears

[06:28] CA: but i understand if you dont wwant to straight awway

[06:29] TG: yeah

[06:29] TG: thank u

[06:30] CA: ill talk to you later wwhen my emotions are more under control an evverythin isnt crumblin beneath my feet

[06:30] CA: or i dunno

[06:30] CA: wwhenevver

[06:31] TG: ok,,

[06:32] CA: bye rox