#abbycoded

"stop! okay youre pissed, i get that but talk to me, i won't know what i did until you talk to me" you begged, pleaded even for softer, kinder but he didn't know how to do that right now.

"YOU JUST... GOD YOU CLING ONTO PEOPLE, YOU SUFFOCATE THEM UNTIL THEY FEEL LIKE THEYRE DYING AND YOU NEVER LET GO... ITS SUFFOCATING! I FEEL SUFFOCATED ALL THE TIME... YOURE JUST ALWAYS THERE AND YOU DON'T NEED TO BE" he yelled and you stared at him. you knew this was coming, it was a long time coming. you were used to the turbulence.

"im sorry" your voice was soft, guarded, scared almost. He stared at you before he ran his hand through his hair

"thats it? youre sorry? jesus christ you can't even fight for yourself, god thats pathetic" he said as he turned to the bathroom slamming the door behind him. You stared at the floor before you took a deep breath and followed after him. You knocked on the door softly and opened it to find him sitting on the edge of the bed with his head in his hands.

"think we should break up" you voiced into the silence, his head shot up and he stared at you. he knew that the two of you had problems but he never even thought about breaking up before. but he saw the look in your eyes, the tremble in your hands, the shaking of your hands and he hated that he made you feel like that. small, unworthy.

"that what you want?"

"think its what we need"

"where will you go?"

"back to my apartment, my roommate left my room open for me. said i could come back whenever i wanted to" you said and he nodded

"im sorry.. i just... i can't love you even if i want to" he spoke and you nodded before you turned closing the door behind you. you went to the living room, staring at the floor.

you stared before you sat on the couch and stared at your hands. You were stuck, you felt stuck and as you stared into the space ahead of you, you knew it was over. it had been over for a while. when it was time, you opened the door and he was asleep. you moved around the room quietly, packing your things in silence. the room was dark but you always knew how to move around in dark spaces. that was your life, living in the dark.

you looked at his figure asleep in the bed, his chest rose and fell like it was nothing. at the start of the relationship, he hated falling asleep angry, hated fighting before bed but now he didn't care. You stared as you packed while he was asleep. then you went to the living room and sat down looking around one last time.

you didn't know how long you were sitting there before the sun started to rise and you realized you needed to leave before he woke up so you did just that. you took one last look around the place that had became your home and was now your hell. you took a deep breath and removed the apartment keys from your keys before you grabbed your things and left the apartment entirely. You went downstairs and put your things in your car, you took a deep breath as you looked down at your hand. The promise ring on your finger now stung, you took it off leaving it in the mailbox before you put the rest of your things in your car and then you drove off without a second look behind you.

your long sleeves clung to your arms but you kept driving, you couldn't stop. not now, not ever.

I'm 19, I have two dogs . Im a cancer, Im from maine, and i love to read. Heres a little fandom information for you guys.

FAVORITE SHOWS

cobra kai

outer banks

degrassi: the next generation

new girl

t@gged

stranger things

arcane

FAVORITE MOVIES

corpse bride

fantastic mr fox

dead poets society

avatar

scream

brave

FAVORITE MUSICIANS

olivia rodrigo

noah kahan

hozier

greta van fleet

sleep token

FAVORITE BOOKS

the hunger games series

a dogs purpose

better than the movies

i kissed shara wheeler