#aaaahh

Zanka pulled you close on the old mattress , his long body kinda tense even though he was trying real hard to hide it. The hideout was quiet , just the two of you , and his mullet with those blond streaks kept falling in his face no matter how many times he pushed it back. His navy eyes flicked away for a second before coming back to yours.

“ C’mere , darlin’… if ya still want this , ” he mumbled , that familiar drawl shaky around the edges. He kissed your forehead real soft , then your cheek , like he was stalling .

You nodded and he let out a nervous breath , sliding between your legs slow. When he finally pressed in , just the tip at first , his whole body jerked and he made this quiet , broken sound in the back of his throat.

“ Shit… yer so warm… I-I ain’t never done this before , okay ? Don’t… don’t laugh at me if I mess it up. ”

He pushed in a little more , inch by careful inch , face buried against your neck so you wouldn’t see how red he was getting. His hips stuttered once , then found a real slow , gentle rhythm , almost too careful , like he was scared of hurting you or doing it wrong.

“ Does it… does it feel alright ? ” he asked , voice all low and worried , breath hot against your skin. Every thrust was soft and hesitant , not deep or fast , just steady and tender while he kept checking your face. “ Tell me if ya want me to stop , yeah ? I don’t wanna ruin this for ya… ”

You pulled him closer and he relaxed just a fraction , letting out a shaky groan when you clenched around him. His long fingers gripped your hip a little tighter , but still gentle.

“ God… ya feel too good , ” he admitted , his voice dripping with insecurity. “ I been thinkin’ about this… about you… for way too long. Didn’t think ya’d actually let me… ”

He kept moving slow , forehead pressed to yours , his soft hair tickling your cheek. Every now and then his hips would falter and he’d whisper another nervous “ sorry ” or “ am I doin’ this right ? ” but he never sped up , just rocked into you with that sweet , careful pace , eyes half-closed and full of quiet want.

When the pleasure started building for both of you , he got even shyer , hiding

You nodded and he let go with a soft , trembling moan , burying himself as deep as he could while holding you like you might disappear. His body shook against yours for a long moment after , breath coming in little huffs.

Afterward he stayed right there , still inside you , arms wrapped around your back real tight. He nuzzled into your hair , voice barely above a whisper.

“ Didn’t mess it up too bad , did I ? … Stay with me tonight , yeah ? Don’t wanna let ya go yet. ”

He sounded so damn vulnerable , but the way he held you was warm and steady , like he was finally lettin’ himself believe this was real.