Every single time I take an OCD screening test it feels like a giant bucket of ice cold water was dumped on my head.
We'll think that we have it mostly managed because we don't do x or y anymore, or we're now aware of this or that and are working on resisting it. And then we'll take a screening test, answer "yes" to every single question, come across questions describing extremely prevalent experiences of ours that we didn't even REALIZE were our OCD, have to answer "12 or more hours / continuous" on the amount of time we suffer from obsessive thoughts or perform compulsions, and have to answer "little to no control over it" because the screening test reminded us that we are, in fact, always in it, despite constantly fighting it. Even constantly fighting it is probably an OCD thing! I'm fucked!
Our entire personality is OCD!
