christmas in june is an anakin skywalker song, and specifically an anakin and padme song, and iām going to cry now :((( i donāt even like anidala that much, but boy do i feel for themĀ
plan on this / youāre no longer going to be the plan i missĀ
haaa....you ever cry about how that stress about having a secret marriage might have also forced them to miss meetings with each other? like idk, of course we see anakin shirking off his duties from time to time to spend some more time with padme, but we see in tcw that thereās also a part of anakin that will go to council meetings, and padme will sometimes just work on a bill rather than give anakin attention. but anyways. the thought of the war ending and the two of them maybe hoping that maybe we can...make this work better? maybe?Ā
oh my god / how lucky am i to have two things i love / makes it that much easier to fuck it upĀ
listen, even though i think anakinās always been exasperated with the order, i think he still cares about the order and still loves the people within them (ie. obi-wan and ahsoka, and i think the books def. depict anakin with having solid friendships with other padawans!). but like...thereās that part of him, plus marriage with padme, and just like. being stuck in two worlds and wanting the best of both but ultimately...like. hard to maintain.Ā
and if i get to tour it / wouldnāt that be fun / but thatās one less month with you
so, i know this song is mostly about one of the band members thinking about working on music but also having to tour and missing out on time with their spouse / significant other, and i just. i think that like. anakin def. carries the weight of the galaxy on his shoulders, but heās a show-off, and i think a part of him def. enjoys playing the hero, even if it comes with its own baggage. but like. playing the hero also sometimes means. spending less time with padme and that. makes me kinda sad.Ā
holy shit / now iām sittin thinking bout / what else iāll miss / darling if weāre ever gonna / have a kid / donāt wanna miss it / can we just have him in june?
oh god here comes the tears....the tears. no not me thinking about anakin learning that heās got a kid coming, and just. no. iām going to cry right now i canāt form actual thoughts without wanting to scream into the abyss because :ā(((Ā
yāsee, the whole can we just have in june is supposed to be like. this nod to the summer months being less busy / therefore more time to enjoy domestic life, and just. donāt wanna miss it, can we just have him in june? .....june in this context being about the war ending. (oh man. oh man. no iām going to cry. iām going to cry right here! because anakin def. didnāt want to miss out on his kidsā birth, and i stand by that. and i just. the. the whole. iām going to cry.)Ā
