Tw: stalking, dub-con turned non-con but the reader is still kind of into it, recording, non-consensual recording, physical assault, threats, reader's kind of a freak in this
Thinking of yanderes who are so, so desperate to be intimate with you that theyāre willing to go by your terms and adhere to the conditions you lay out for them.
You donāt want to touch him, not really ā not with everything you know heās done. You know heās stalked you incessantly, following you like your shadow for months on end with no sense of privacy or personal space, intruding on every aspect of your personal life with only a passing sense of guilt.
(Heās watched you sleep, even settling beside you on your bed and watching the rise and fall of your chest, listening to the soft inhales and exhales, even going so far as to let his mouth hover over yours, breathing in the air of your soft little snores. Heās watched you shower, setting up cameras and staring through windows to see even a peek of your nude figure, palming himself and practically drooling because fuck, he would cut off his own limb to be washing your hair for you or soaping down your back, your thighs, your titsā¦)
You know heās threatened others, blackmailed friends, family, and partners, perhaps even permanently eliminated potential rivals. You know heās gone to extreme lengths to keep you right where he Ā wants you, to keep you within his imaginary grasp so that he can finally, finally make the final move to make you officially his.
He's a creep in every sense of word, but perhaps youāre a bit of a creep, too, because thereās something about the raw, carnal desperation heās exhibiting for you that almost feels good. Itās flattering in a fucked up way, making your self-confidence skyrocket because hereās this grown man thatās absolutely whipped for you, willing to do all sorts of illegal and depraved things just for your allowance of him to breath the same air and occupy the same space as you.
You may not be a particularly egocentric person, but perhaps you can indulge his little obsession. Perhaps itās boredom, excitement at just how pathetically eager he is, or maybe itās even a genuine sort of fondness and attraction youāve developed for him ā regardless, the next time he begs for you to please, please just give him a single chance to show you that he can make you feel good, youāre biting your lip and nodding, interrupting his stuttered gasp and shocked r-really with a few conditions of your own.
And yet, no matter what conditions you lay forward, things donāt go quite as youād planned, quite as youād hoped. Somehow you lose control of the situation, and before you can stop it you realize youāve opened the floodgates, the truly breadth of his yearning and disregard for morality uncomfortably obvious. Somehow, the creep manages to bend you to his whim ā showcasing just how dangerous and strong his Loverboy, eager-to-please faƧade had been. Because now, the man hovering over you and groaning declarations of love and devotion is suddenly very strong and very impossible to push off of you.
And yet, his creep has rubbed off onto you, because youāre almost enjoying it.
And now, for the sake of imagination, letās say you give one of three possible conditionsā¦
Heās not allowed to touch you.
Itās a proposition that makes him whine, disappointment settling deep in his chest because how is he supposed to show you what youāre missing out on if he canāt kiss you or touch you or stuff you so full of his cock that youāre dazed and nonsensical?
It irritates him, but the prospect of getting to touch himself with you looking at him is enough to get him agreeing, and youāll find yourself sitting in front of him, fully clothed even while heās stripped down to nothing, red, swollen cock in hand as he furiously brings his wrist up and down. Itās loud ā squelching and making bassy, tacky thump noises with each slam of his fist against his navel, but he canāt find it in himself to care. Heās too busy staring at you, eyes seemingly unblinking even when theyāre half-closed in lust.
Itās arousing at first to watch a man so blatantly and needily masturbating to you, but the moment that your eyes stray from him and his body heās faltering, fury sprouting from his gut because how dare you not be looking at him during this. How dare you not contribute the same amount of attention and intimacy that he is. How dare you ignore him like heās just some little puny bug when heās whining and gasping about every little explicit, detailed fantasy heās had of you.
And heās moving before you know it, grabbing your clothed wrists in a single hand and pinning them above your head, keeping your thighs trapped between his own as he ruts into his fist, the smell and sound overwhelming now as he hovers over you.
Look at me look at me look at me heās chanting to you, voice strained and uneven as the pleasure mounts, the scared look in your eye only making him harder, precum oozing from his sensitive tip in copious amounts, even dripping down his knuckles and lightly staining your shirt.
Itās not long before heās coming, crying out your name and pressing his crotch against your body, cum spurting out to cover your torso, even getting a little bit against your neck and chin, the hot, slimy sensation making you squirm.
Heās panting, and as he resumes stroking himself, hissing and wincing slightly at the overstimulation, heāll only breathily laugh down at you, smile too wide and his cheeks too flushed as he reminds you that Iām not touching you, am I? Fabric separating us still, but isnāt this good? Dāyou like being covered in my spunk?
It feels like hours before he finally lets his fist slow down, cum covering your chest, but with the majority of his releases concentrated over the expanse of your cunt, seeping through the fabric of your jeans and leaving the skin below feeling wet, the sheer volume impressive and leaving you to wonder how he hasnāt passed out from exhaustion.
Heāll groan, eyes fluttering closed briefly before opening up wide, leaning down so that heās merely a breath away from your lips, murmuring next time, weāll do this again and Iāll stick to your fucking rules, but a condom counts as not touching, right? Right?
Maybe itās a safety precaution, or perhaps this is the chance to play out some long-standing fantasy of a threesome youāve had for longer than youād care to admit. Regardless, heās not pleased about the prospect of sharing you, but the months of wringing himself dry to the point of rashes and skin-rubbed-raw leave him babbling out a yes, promising to include whoever you desire.
Except, maybe you really are a sadist because of course you choose the man he hates most.
Itās a slap in the face but he manages to pull through, irritation already coursing through him the moment the three of you settle onto the bed, but things only get progressively worse. Almost immediately, the fucker is stealing your attention ā pulling you in for a messy, loud kiss, and it makes his skin crawl to see the way your eyes close, how you lean into the kiss, how you guide his hands to cup your tits and grope at your thighs.
The intruder is far too comfortable, and as your yandere grabs you and physically puts you onto the other side of the bed so that heās sitting between you two, he can only swallow. Heās immediately leaning in for a kiss of his own, lips working against yours in a fervor, hands unable to stay still as he yanks at the hem of your shift, ripping the material. Heās groaning against you, moving hurriedly as he tries to strip you, unwilling to let the intruder do anything as monumental and intimate as undressing you. But itās too late, because the man is moving to your other side, pressing his navel against your ass and biting at your ear, and youāre breaking the kiss to moan and he thinks heās going to be sick because the intruderās hand is slipping under your skirt.
He slaps the manās hand away, sending him a glare that makes even a shiver roll down your spine, before shoving his hand between your thighs instead, sucking in a breath because he knows what panties youāre wearing by feel, the pretty black ones that make your ass look so damn good, the one heās stolen and jerked himself with so many times that itās making a sort of Pavlov response hit him and oh oh oh no no no he canāt come yet oh please god no ā
The moment is ruined, though, because the intruderās kissing you again, suddenly slapping your thigh with his cock and telling you to beg for it, pretty girl, tell me you want it and something inside your yandere just sort of snaps.
Heās got the man on the ground before he can stop himself, fists raised and connecting with the manās face, blood already covering his knuckles with just a few hits. Heās growling, a sort of inhuman sound that leaves his teeth bared, audible even over the manās pained whimpers, even as the consciousness slips from his eyes and he goes limp against the ground, chest rising and falling very slowly.
And youāre still on the bed, staring with a dropped jaw and fear swimming in those pretty eyes as your yandere comes back to you, blood staining his palms and speckling his shirt, his breathing ragged as he shoves your head down to his crotch, telling you suck it clean or Iāll kill him, a smirk settling on his lips as you immediately hollow your cheeks.
And as he maneuvers you onto your knees, fingertips groping and kneading at your cheeks as he fucks into you from behind hard enough to leave your ass ricocheting and jiggling, itās difficult to not hear the way he breathily laughs, thumb coming around to pinch at your clit as he tells you didnāt break your rule, thereās still another person in the room, isnāt there? Stupid fuckerās just not able to see how well you take my cock.
Heās shoving your face too far into the mattress to respond though, so he only answers himself with a slurred groan of ām coming, fuck take it take it ā
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3. You want everything on camera.
Maybe itās a kink for being recorded or maybe you simply want hard evidence to be able to use against him when you eventually take him to court, confident that heāll let something incriminating slip out. Regardless, heās very, very eager to fulfill your request, only growing slightly camera shy when the time finally comes.
Itās not a complicated set up, really ā youāve got a tripod of sorts with your phone balanced on it, the video rolling and centered on the bed where youāre settled in his lap. Heās clutching at you, making all sorts of little whimpers and whines as you kiss him, his lips eager and insistent and his tongue immediately pushing into your mouth the moment he can. Itās sticky sounding, and youāre sure the camera can pick it up.
When you pull back for air, letting your shirt come up and over your head, youāre almost embarrassed at the way he immediately shoves his face between your breasts, violently shaking his head back and forth, not paying attention to the way your bra cups poke at his eyes. Heās mouthing at your nipples over the fabric, even going so far as to dig one out of the cup, sucking and licking at it. His free hands travel down the expanse of your back, tracing the muscles under the skin and eventually settling at your ass, moving you to grind on his already very hard cock.
He pulls back with a little pop noise, licking his lips and looking up at you almost dazed. So pretty, he mumbles to himself, squeezing his hands, and you can only shiver in both excitement and discomfort as he starts rambling.
Been dreaming of this for so long, baby, stalked you for so long that I know exactly how to touch you, how to fuck ya⦠Been touching myself too much to the thought of you, huh? Feel how fucking hard I am just from a bit of kissing and touching?
He giggles at that, nipping at your nipple and enjoying the way you squirm slightly.
Broke into your apartment almost every day the last year, stolen your stuff and licked every utensil you own. Wore your panties and sucked on your toothbrush, stole your mail and hacked into your laptop and phone cameras just to get a front row view of you.
The information makes your stomach drop and you stiffen in his hold, his his insistent, guided grinds against his crotch only pick up.
Touched you while you slept, too, but I think you already knew that. Youāre hard to wake up, yāknow? And you make this cute little whine when I finger you, but this is much better right now. Youāre hotter when youāre awake, but Iāll take you either way.
Itās ten more minutes of dreadful, disturbing admissions from him as he grinds you against him and suckles at your chest, leaving your nipples sore and bruised, puffy and overly-sensitive. The cameraās still rolling, and itās only when he curls in on himself, a strained f-fuck spilling past his lips as something warm and wet seeps through his boxers that he slows down, stopping and cupping at your tits, squeezing harshly and burying his face in them once more for a brief moment.
He detaches himself, walking over to your phone and ending the video, before pulling his own out and replacing it with yours, walking back over to you and licking his lips.
Hey now that weāve got yours and Iāve confessed to all the shit you wanted me to, itās my turn, yeah? We make a video for you, now we make a sex tape for me. Oh, donāt make that face ā ām not going to show it to anyone. Well, except maybe you, would you like to watch it back with me?
He doesnāt give you time to respond as he flips you onto your stomach, displaying a level of strength that shocks you, keeping you flat against the bed as he pulls you towards him so that youāre dangling off the edge, ass bared to the camera. He giggles, tracing a fingers against your clothed cunt, before slapping at it harshly, enjoying the way you squirm.
Letās put on a good show, huh? Iām thinkingā¦
He lets a leg stand on either side of your hips, settling himself so that his chest is pressed flush against your back, lips brushing at your ear as he murmurs weāll start like this, the angle will be really good, I promise. Trust me, āve watched a lot of porn ā youāll look good like this.
Then heās forcing you into his lap, facing the camera and making your legs spread wide, a hand slipping into your shorts and toying with your clit. Then like this ā think I can make you squirt? Think itāll reach the camera from all the way over here?
Finally, heās forcing you onto your knees while he stands over you, the camera right at your face level as he pets at your hair, sighing dreamily and saying and weāll finish it like this ā be loud, okay? Wanna see you gagging and choking. And if you donāt swallow, Iāll just have to do it again ā thoughts on throatfucking?
And as he settles you onto your stomach, mounting you and letting the camera roll as he fucks into you hard enough to leave you screaming his name, heāll only whisper in your ear between hearty groans and the slap of his balls against your ass remember, you wanted the video sweetheart.
Be careful what you wish for, because with your rule in place, they will bend it to work to their advantage ā but donāt be too hard on yourself for enjoying it. After all, they know you better than you know yourself ā can you really be surprised that they know exactly what will turn you on, too?
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I know I write about this kind of stuff a lot, but thereās just something about men humping inanimate objects that just really gets to me.
Itās the desperation that they can't control. It's the physical urge to move, to feel something underneath them, their body physically unable to stop itself from fucking something. It's the way their hips snap and buck and jolt all without them meaning it, their body betraying them on the most primal level because their subconscious is recognizing that they need something warm and soft and oh so pretty to sink into, to rut against until he's smearing pearls of white against soft, supple skin. It's the uncontrollable need to hump themselves against you, really.
Fucking their fist and mechanically bringing their wrist up and down again and again until cum oozes from the tip is fine and dandy, but they need more. They need the full immersion of the fantasy of fucking you, their brain needing the mental images and the physical motions of thrusting, pretending with every fiber of their being that its your warm, wet cunt sucking them in, the velvety feel of your walls leaving phantom touches against his skin.
(Some of them even go so far as to scratch at their own back, eyes rolling to the back of their head imagining that itās you leaving your mark on him, that itās your nails digging into his skin and digging into him, making him yours yours yours. They'll pinch at their own nipples, press fingertips hard against their biceps, even wrap a hand around his neck hard enough to leave the area red and irritated just to simulate the way that you'd touch him.)
Pillows, cushions, blankets, anything soft that could be a poor stand-in for your body is fine. Anything that he can clutch onto, that he can press his hips against tightly enough to be suffocating, something that can mold to the shape of him just as you would - all just to really feel like heās got every single inch stuffed inside of you, giving everything he possibly can to you.
Even hard things will do in a pinch - perhaps the cover of a book you love and cherish, the texture of the binding leaving a slightly painful sting behind that blends into the pleasure and makes his eyes roll back. (Will you still smell the pages and sigh at that old-book smell, or will you perhaps notice the new presence of something slightly musky, slightly heavy, unexplainably male?) Your hairbrush - rutting against the handle he knows youāve fucked your self with, alternating between rutting against it and bringing it up to his mouth to suck on, eyes squeezed shut as he tried to taste any traces of you.
The only rule is that it has to be something of yours, or something that connects to you in some way. Your pillow, a few wayward strands of your hair sitting against the plush, feeling like heaven and making him blush when he sees the way his sticky cum has left the hairs smeared again his skin, tacky and stuck to him. (The sight makes him suck in his breath, gulping harshly as he comes down from his high, a thumb coming out to carefully, nervously brush at the hair, unable to stop himself from feeling like the sight is somehow so very right.)
Itās better when things are stained - your underwear with discharge discoloration bleaching the fabric, your favorite skirt that you accidentally stained during your period, even a particular pair of socks that you once got dirt on. Itās been used and loved by you, and now heāll use and love it, too, even leaving his very own stain behind.
Thereās just something about it that makes everything feel better, more complete, more real. Of course nothing will ever compare to actually fucking you, but desperate times call for desperate measures.
And of course, the pinnacle, when he really gets desperate, is when he whips out one of the many, many photographs he's taken of you. (Or, photos he'd printed out from your social media accounts because he's too shy to actually photograph you - and this is less creepy, right? Right?) He's touching it with delicate fingers, barely pinching onto the corners, laying the image down on his bed and positioning himself to be right over it. He'll take his time to trace the outline of your face with the tip, sighing and biting his lip, before the urge takes over and soon he's groaning, hips rutting against the smooth surface of the photograph - your face, really.
(The cool feeling and the twinge of pain he gets when he angles wrong and catches the edge of the photograph only makes him grit his teeth, eyes squeezing shut harder because he has to do this - he has to keep fucking, to keep pushing himself because he needs to come for you, you deserve and he wants to give it to you so badly and oh oh oh - The photograph of you smiling is almost prettier with globs of his cum staining your pearly teeth and the apples of your cheeks.)
It's just so depraved, but they can't help it - they just want you so badly that they can't help it.
(In particular I'm thinking of the chronic humpers - Kageyama, who gets so, so whiny, his voice going high and pitchy and his face turning a bright pink color as his abs clench and flex, each drag of his hips making his arms shake even more, sweat beading at his temple leaving his dark hair matted to his forehead.
Or Sugawara, who tends to lay onto his back, humping at the pillow from underneath, pressing the cotton so hard against his pelvis that his biceps are taut, back arching and Adam's Apple bobbing as he chants yes yes yes under his breath, one hand even coming up to blindly grope and squeeze at the air where he imagines your bouncing tits to be.
Or Giyuu, who's thrusts start out slow, hesitant, embarrassed, as if he can't believe he's been reduced to his, worried to sully your good name. But then his hips get faster and he's burying his face into the crook of his elbow, whispering out a stuttered, broken p-please accompanied by your name as he cum seeps into the pillow material.
Or Tomura, who has all the fancy sex toys in the world that he's found on the deepest, most questionable parts of the internet, but finds that nothing is a good stand in aside from your pillow. He starts off animalistic, mounting the pillow and smacking at it, imagining the way your pretty ass would bounce back and ripple at the motion. But then his orgasm draws closer and the thrusts get deeper, more meaningful, like he's trying to reach as deeply inside of you as possible, and his grip is almost unbearably tight as his orgasm washes over him, hips quivering and twitching as he imagines the way you'd clutch onto him and thank him.
Or Feitan, who's biting into the pillow as he cock drags against it, teeth bared and practically snarling into the (stained) cotton, dark eyes squeezed shut as he tries so very hard to not whine your name.
Or even, on very, very specific occasions, Chrollo, whose sense of dignity flies out the window when you deny his romantic advances once again. You're just playing so very hard to get, and while he's invested into the game for the long run, he's still just a man - and the image of you spread out underneath him, wearing lacy, angelic lingerie and spreading those creamy, supple thighs of yours is enough to drive him mad.
It's just pathetic enough to be sweet, really, and although you aren't exactly flattered when you walk in on him heatedly grunting your name with the pillow tightly clutched between his thighs, just know he's doing it for you. Everything he does is for you.
Just a quick passing thought, but I think it's so interesting to know what different yanderes do right in the moment of their orgasm - do they freeze up? Do their hips keep plunging against yours, the movements strained and uneven? Or maybe they reach out and squeeze, needing something to ground themselves with while they whimper and gasp out your name over and over again?
Thinking about yanderes who freeze up and just stare as their orgasm washes over them. The ones who let out this choked gasp as they see white blurs in the edges of their vision, every muscle in their body going taut and freezing up and their jaw dropping wide open because fuck. You just feel too good and they can't help but stare down at your pretty body - naked and sweating and trembling all for them them them, your eyes glassy and wide and spit smeared across your lips from where they'd been kissing you. (More like eating you, really, with the vigor and amount of tongue, but it was passionate and sweet and only a little bit one-sided, so that's still kissing, right?) They're scared to move as their cock throbs and pulses inside of you, the feeling of your tight, warm walls making their head spin and honest to god tears well up in the corner of their eyes from the sensation of you.
You're just too much - if they were to move and feel friction against their oversensitive cock they'd let out this pathetic little whine, a sound that makes them flush bright red and avoid eye contact with you because it's just all so embarrassing and needy. So instead, they hover over you, abs clenching and balls noticeably pulsing against the curve of your ass as they feel each and every spurt of cum push into you, the sensation leaving them breathless and burying their face into your neck, little mantras and chants of your name filling your ears. Please come for me, please please please please - they tell you as the last few drops ooze out of them and directly into you.
Thinking of men who lose control of their hips as their orgasm hits them. As soon as the rushed, husky groan of 'm coming, take it, fuck take it slips out of them, the rest of it is a blur. They aren't in control of themselves - their hips move on their own, following some carnal, natural instinct to fuck into you deeper, harder, longer until he's absolutely spent. He's physically crushing you, his hips pounding into you so hard that you're moved further and further up the bed (or the floor, if they couldn't quite make it there), your body merely dead weight. It stems from this urge to fuck their cum into you as deeply as they can, an instinct to claim and mark and breed you overclouding their mind.
There's no moment of rest with them, even after they've given you everything they have - their hips still twitch, pushing forward ever so slightly and making them hiss in pain-twinged pleasure, the oversensitivity and the gooey, warm feeling of their cum coating your walls making them bare their teeth and practically glare at you. You just feel too good - they're an animal around you, truly, and it's only after they're spent that they'll swallow heavily, licking their lips and letting themselves really look at you. To see the way you're panting, how your eyes are all wide, to feel the stinging against their back where you've clawed at them. The afterglow makes them giddy, and even if they don't show it, you'll feel it - the way they slowly grow hard inside of you again is difficult to ignore, after all.
Thinking of men who have to reach out and grab something to ground themselves with as their high approaches. It feels like a tidal wave, like there's something warm and big and hot building up in their navel, the sensation making their toes curl and their eyes cross and their muscles spasm and a hand reach out blindly, feeling, squeezing, groping - It's their tether to Earth as the wave crashes and breaks, ropes of cum shooting from their swollen, sensitive tip, something vaguely resembling your name falling from their lips as they pant into your mouth. It's the only thing keeping them aware of their surroundings, of you, as the pleasure overwhelms them.
And they're not especially picky about where they're grabbing onto for support, either - anything that's fatty and nearby will do. Your thigh, your hips, your stomach, your breast, your arm, hell, even your neck will do. Thick fingers wrap around the flesh, squeezing hard enough to leave light, finger-shaped bruises on your skin, their muscles still twitching against you as they groan and grunt, hips occasionally bucking into yours but losing momentum. You can actually feel how their orgasm and your cunt are affecting them this way - the way they grasp onto you even tighter when you accidentally clench down on them, the hiss they let out through clenched teeth seeming to make that spurt shoot into you even harder. And their hand doesn't always stay idle, either - they're actively moving it around as their orgasm continues on, switching from your chest to your hip to your cheek and back against to settle heavily against your nipple, burying their face between your tits as they groan and pathetically hump at you. And while they'll feel a bit guilty for the marks the next day, they can't hide the tent forming in their pants or the way they have to clear their throat to avoid telling you that they needs to leave more.
I donāt know if this appeals to anyone but me, but Iāve been watching a lot of period pieces about Regency Era England (specifically the 1995 Pride and Prejudice and Bridgerton) and I canāt stop thinking about the way women were actually treated like property, their only purpose to wed and produce children. Imagine the yandere possibilities, and the absolute lack of control youād have over your fate.
Specifically, I canāt stop thinking about the lack of care and the disregard for social customs and norms yanderes could exhibit in that era. The rules are so very strict, and so very numerous ā really, can he be blamed for not adhering to each and every one? Sure, he doesnāt treat any other woman this way, but is it such a crazy notion that he breaks a rule here or there? Surely not ā not when itās so very obvious that the proposal is coming, that heās absolutely hell bent on keeping you pristine and pretty and pregnant in his own abode, not the pathetic pile of wood and roofing you call your home.
Maybe heās always been one for attending the local and regional balls ā for appearances, yes, but also because thereās nothing more that he loves than being in a room with all sorts of beautiful women and alcohol. Maybe he likes to play the politics game, stringing along every girl he can find so that he gets his pick of wives, so that he can bed any woman he so pleases without as much as a goodbye. Except that once his feelings for you form, his composure crumbles a bit.
Heās standing much, much too close to you throughout the entirety of your dance with him. His hips are tightly pressed against your ass as he follows the 1, 2, 3 of the waltz, the shuddering breath you hear at your ear making your skin crawl.
Maybe heās insisted on keeping his hand much too low as he guides you through the dance, almost able to feel the hem of your underclothes under the layers of your dress, his fingers eager as he presses them tighter and tighter against you.
Heāll speak to you during the dance, his voice low and whispered and his mouth much too close to your ear, the audible wet sound of him licking his lips seeming louder than the quartet in the corner of the dancefloor.
Heās even asking you to remove your gloves, wonāt you? I wouldnāt want to ruin the delicate silk ā what would your dear mother think of me? And once theyāre off (because really, his tone left very little room for rebuttal), his bare skin is pressing against yours, his palms clammy and sweating and absolutely engulfing yours with the way he keeps grabbing at more more more, wanting to feel every inch of you possible.
And then of course thereās those who arenāt as bold with physicality ā no, the mere thought of being any closer to you than society permits is enough to get them hot under the collar, so nervous and flustered that theyāre sure theyāll trip over themselves, that theyāll make an absolute fool in front of you. Instead, they resort to more classy measures ā that is, itās a bit jarring when they quickly approach you the moment youāve entered the ballroom, swallowing harshly and asking in a voice thatās just a hair too high-pitched if they could perhaps have the honor of claiming your first dance this evening?
You canāt exactly say no ā and even as you watch him eagerly scribble his name down on the first dance slot, then the second, then the third and fifth and tenth, what can you really say? Heās wealthier than your family, and your mother watches from the corner with a glint in her eye because oh, isnāt this just such an advantageous match?
Even the grouches who only attended the ball in which they met you upon a friendās request act out in unexpected ways. They seem distracted, clutching onto their lemonade glass with a grip tight enough to turn their knuckles white, their shoulders visibly tense as their eyes scan the room over and over. Theyāre looking for you, of course. Mentally guessing at what colors youād be donning this evening, how your hair is styled, what sorts of jewels and precious jewelry sits so prettily in the hollow of your throat or dangles against the sensitive skin of the juncture of your neck and jaw.
And once they've found you, they may not have the courage to speak with you or dance with you. But suddenly you've gained a permanent shadow for the evening. Where you go, he goes. Heās following you a good five feet behind, snaking around fellow attendees and keeping his eyes locked on your figure, biting his lip as he mentally notes whoās eye youāre catching, whoās speaking with you, whoās approaching you with a request to dance.
Heās standing directly behind you as you dance with some low-level baron, some insignificant man who canāt hold a candle to the riches, comfort and adoration that he can give you. And he's just staring, too ā eyes like daggers as he watches the interaction, letting the anger simmer and fester until he finally, finally approaches you, his voice gruff and choppy as he compliments your dress (something like this dress is much more handsome than the last one you wore) and practically demands your next dance. Yes, itās awkward, and yes, he leads far, far too much.
But really, the truly terrible thing to think about is what happens after the ball ā when they call upon you in the sanctity of your own home, all sorts of love declarations falling from their lips that are much too hyper specific and draw upon knowledge you know youāve never shared with him. But you must be kind; heās of higher rank, after all, in a position where a few bad words could ruin your family forever.
Itās just that when he drops to one knee and proposes, itās difficult to remember your delicate position because heās managed to find the ring of your dreams, and heās going on about how heās had your bedchamber already decorated to fit all your tastes, how he has a wardrobe full of new dresses heās had custom-fit to you, how heās already decided that youāre to have a son first, but then all daughters and youāll name them James, Eleanor, Kathryn, Martaā¦
And as he embraces you, the hug either much too tight or much too stiff, itāll feel like a cage locking into place around you. Because really, what can you do? If you try to fight him, he has the wealth and connections to force your family into consenting. And even if your parents refuse to hand you off to a man you clearly despise and fear, itās not so difficult to spread the rumors about your purity, to claim that heād witnessed a servant passionately embracing you, that heād seen you naked in the arms of some butcherās boyā¦
Itās your word against his, and oh, isnāt he so kind for still having you after your reputationās been destroyed? Isnāt he so dreamy and chivalrous for saving you from a life of destitution and outcast? Even if heās the one to blame for that life in the first place?
And heāll be so good to you, he promises. Heāll explain each and every aspect of the wedding night, of the consummation of a marriage, showing you exactly how deeply heās been desiring you, how long heās been craving you, how many times heās fucked his fist and been thinking of you you you in those tempting dresses you wear, of those hips that you sway and move like a fucking minx at every dance you attendā¦
Heāll leave you wanting for nothing ā aside from perhaps your freedom, and perhaps your sanity. But heās sure youāll learn to love him.
You must, after all.
Specifically the image of a few characters in the traditional regency dress is making me feral - imagine Aizawa, who's known as the reclusive Duke of the area, his public appearances next to none and his temperament difficult to handle. But alas, what's this? A few snarky comments from you - also standing against the ballroom's wall - about the ridiculousness of women's fashion and the discomfort of dancing in heels has him chuckling a bit, your obvious lack of knowledge of his position making him feel oddly seen. And when you find yourself falling into his company at the next ball he's forced to attend, Aizawa decides there's something particularly agreeable about your smile - finding himself wanting to know if your lips taste as good as they look. And when he loses his composure and blurts these words out, don't expect him to cut off contact with you - instead, he'll immediately speak with your father, requesting your hand in marriage and hoping that in time you might learn to forgive his dismissal of your opinion. Perhaps a child would help distract you, yes?
Imagine Rengoku, who's introduced to you by the ball's hostess, Shinobu. Imagine Rengoku, who immediately dances with you and keeps returning to fill up your dance card, that smile blinding as he spends the evening on the dancefloor by your side. Imagine Rengoku, who calls upon you everyday after first meeting you, his visits growing in frequency - sometimes multiple a day - and duration as the weeks drag on. Imagine the way he'll end each visit by grasping your hand in his and giving it a much-too-long kiss, assuring you that it's only taking this long for him to propose to and wed you because he's having an entirely new manor built - one he thinks you'll like a bit more. Nevermind that you don't wish him to continue his visits or leave you alone - do you like floral or patterned wallpapers more?
Imagine Akaashi, who's every woman's dream for both his looks and status. Imagine the way he holds you so delicately as he twirls you, those steel eyes of his practically cutting into you, his mid-dance questions starting off simple and innocent and slowly morphing into something that feels like an interrogation, something that feels too intimate and demanding and strange. Imagine the way he grasps onto your wrist - still gently but firm enough to eliminate your escape - as he guides you towards the refreshments table, insisting that you absolutely must drink something because he's noticed you haven't drunk anything since you arrived nearly an hour ago. But don't mention the fact that you didn't meet until roughly twenty minutes ago - long after you'd walked through the front doors.
Imagine Chrollo, who manages to charm his way into getting you alone with him on the balcony, those dark eyes smoldering as he compliments you. There's something stiff and rehearsed about it, and as you snort and ask him how many women he seduces in a night's work, something clicks in his brain. Imagine the way he doesn't leave your side for an instant after that, glued to your hip and seamlessly managing to evade each and every potential suitor from approaching you. Imagine the way he begins inviting you for long stays at his rather luxurious home, conveniently placing your bedchambers beside his own, spending night after night with his ear pressed against your shared wall and biting his lip as he fists his cock to the sound of you humming to yourself and washing your face with the pale of lukewarm water he'd used first then had the servants bring to you.
Tw: mentions of non-con, masturbation, non-consensual aiding of masturbation (? not sure what to tag this but you'll see what I mean), excessive cum-play, snowballing, facials, stalking, kidnapping, mentions of degradation, exhibitionism, implied that Nobunaga jerked it to you I'm so sorry for your loss, kind of allusions to breeding but nothing explicit, fem reader, MDNI
I do not condone any of the actions described in this post - this is fiction and should be treated as such. If you or a loved one is in a similar situation to anything contained in this post or my blog in general, please seek help. You're in charge of your internet consumption; please make responsible choices. With that, enjoy!
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HABITS:
In general, Uvogin is no stranger to sex. Heās had his fair share of hookups over the years, and while heās never really had a long term partner (being a criminal and always on the run makes it a bit difficult), heās got a good, solid amount of experience under his belt.
And so, while he may be intimidating and a bit scary, thereās always plenty of drunk women at the local bars or clubs who are more than willing to take their chance at managing to take him.
And for the most part, Uvogin is completely satisfied with this ā hookups and flings are fun, and heās able to get his rocks off whenever he pleases.
However, once you step into his life, his frequent sex with strangers take an abrupt and very strict hiatus. Not only does it feel wrong to sleep with any woman besides you, he simply doesnāt find the allure anymore ā if he were to sleep with anyone aside from you, heād spend the entire time focused on all the things that are different from you rather than actually enjoying the experience.
Maybe their hair is different ā yours is prettier, he thinks.
Maybe your voice is different ā itās not as annoying and shrill and whiny as the other womanās, and Uvogin can very confidently say that he likes yours much, much more.
Maybe their body is different ā your curves are different, better for him, and youāre softer and warmer and just better.
Hookups are out of the question once he really decides that he wants you ā but unfortunately, the same canāt be said of his hormones. He still craves sexual contact and release, perhaps even more so now that he has you to actively imagine and think of and desire, but his tried and true method of finding someone random to relieve some pent up stress isnāt an option anymore.
And so, once his obsession develops, he finds himself masturbating much, much more often.
Itās not as nice as having a living, breathing person there to help him out, but itās his only option ā youāre not an option yet, as much as he desperately wishes you were, because while heād give anything to sink into what heās sure is your tight, warm, soaking wet cunt, he doesnāt want to reserve the progress heās made in worming his way into your life all for one night of pleasure.
And so, he falls back on pleasuring himself with a bit of an aid ā itās not enough to simply fist himself and imagine your body or your sounds.
No, itās not nearly enough ā so instead, Uvogin finds a way to seamlessly involve you in his self-pleasure, all with the wonderful caveat of you having absolutely no idea of your role.
Uvoginās already reaching for the hem of his shorts as he plops down onto the ratty couch in the living room of his current hideout. Heās quick to shimmey them down, all the way down to his ankles, only to unceremoniously kick them off to some corner of the room.
His cock is already semi-hard, the knowledge of whatās coming next unconsciously exciting him. He sighs and lets his head roll back slightly, resting on the frame of the couch, his hand sneaking down the plane of his abdomen and settling lightly over his cock.
Idly groping at his balls (just soft, teasing squeezes ā nothing too serious yet, not when the action hasnāt begun), his free hand reaches to the next cushion and picks up the cheap burner phone Shalnark had provided him with last week. Thereās only three numbers saved in it ā Chrolloās, Shalnarkās, and yours.
With a sharp swallow, Uvogin presses on your contact listing, listening as the familiar dial tone rings through the speakers. Your voice is surprised as you pick up, a delighted little oh, I wasnāt expecting a call from you!
It makes him bite his lip, squeezing at his balls just a bit harder.
Ā Yeah, sorry, but I was bored and wanted to hear your voice. He smirks at the soft little sound of surprise you make at that.
Oh! Oh, sure, yeah! Okay, well, uh, how has your day been?
And although youāve said absolutely nothing even remotely suggestive, Uvoginās cock twitches against his forearm, making his thighs tense slightly.
Good, drank some beer and watched the hockey game, the usual. I want to hear about you, though. Tell me everything about this week, yeah?
And with that, he settles back further against the couch, truly getting comfortable as you start telling him about how this week youāve done this and that, then this, then thatā¦
Heās not really listening, and some part of him ā the part not currently imagining the way youād look with his cock down your throat ā feels guilty about not giving you one hundred percent of his attention, but as you suddenly gasp and say oh then this happened he finds himself not caring.
Soon heās transitioning from groping his balls to wrapping his fingers around his length, careful not to hiss into the phone receiver as he slowly, almost painfully slowly brings his fist up to his tip, squeezing a bit, then bringing it back down.
Your voice is a constant through the phone, the familiar lilt and pace of your words only slightly distorted through the device, and as he slowly works himself, he closes his eyes to listen more carefully. He likes the way you pronounce things ā occasionally you say his name, and his hips jerk up a bit to fuck up into his fist each time you do, making him hold in a grunt each time.
Slowly he picks up the pace, moving his wrist a bit faster with every sentence you say, letting his eyes flutter closed again while his head lolls back slightly, his teeth sinking into his bottom lip.
He can practically imagine you here with him ā the way youād be straddling him on this couch, your soft thighs pressing against his hips, your pussy rubbing and grinding against him because you want to tease him, your hands splayed across his chest as you tell him that you want him, that you need him, that you need him to touch you and taste you and feel you and fuck you ā
Uvogin? Uvogin? Are you okay? You sound like youāve just run a marathonā¦
Your voice brings him back to reality, and immediately his eyes are snapping open and his hand freezes, his heavy breaths ringing through the receiver. After a beat, he swallows and reassures that heās fine! Sorry sorry, that stupid neighbor of mine just stood outside my front door ā you know how loud he breaths. Donāt worry about it, keep going. I like listening.
You seem a bit hesitant, but you keep going, and Uvogin makes sure to mute himself this time. Now he can listen to you talk and not worry about being too loud. Immediately heās picking up where he left off, hips coming up to help fuck up into his fist, grunts and groans of your name slipping past his lips all the while you chatter on about last Wednesday.
Uvoginās feet plant flat against the floor as he uses them for leverage to thrust up, pretending youāre perched in his lap with his cock buried between your legs, your pretty tits squished up against his chest while you gasp and moan and cry out his name, his thrusts only getting deeper and harder and stronger, the desire to truly fuck you and mold your cunt to the shape of his cock getting the better of him.
Soon heās fully groaning out phrases into the phone, going on about how youāre so damn tight, fuck baby just like that, shit clench just like that, oh fuuuck! His hips are making an audible sound as they smack back into the couch cushions with every thrust, and with wild eyes he stares down at his lap, imagining the sight of his cock sinking into your cunt over and over, your slick spilling down your thighs and getting everything wet and sticky, the sound of his balls clapping against your ass over and over.
He's close, feeling the trace edges of his orgasm approaching, his toes beginning to curl and his abs starting to tighten and his balls starting to clench and oh ā
I missed you that day, Uvogin, I wish youād been there.
He comes with a near shout of your name, his hips pistoling into his fist as ropes of cum spurt onto his chest, his breathing heavy and uneven as he shakes, his hand trembling slightly as it grips onto the phone so tightly it nearly breaks.
Youāre still speaking, but Uvoginās not listening as he replays your words over and over in his head ā you wanted him there, wanted to see him, wanted to be with him. Heās still saying your name over and over, his breathing slowly calming down as his cum slowly dribbles down his chest, and he lets a smile sit on his lips. Running a hand through his hair (still slightly stained with cum, but the euphoria swimming through his veins makes it hard to care), he swallows, saying your name one last time with a small chuckle.
Fuck, only you can make me like this, huh? Youāre making me into a real loser, you know that? Fucking himself and pretending youāre here with me. God.
Soon, once heās gotten enough of a grip on his breathing, he unmutes himself, just in time for you to finish up your report.
Thatās about it, sorry for rambling! But anyways, what are you up to?
He smiles at that, giving his cock one final squeeze and licking a bit of cum off his finger.
Just wondering if you wanna get dinner tonight, how about that Italian place you were talking about the other day?
And when you agree, eventually hanging up, Uvogin can only sigh and slap his thigh.
Soon, very soon, heās sure he wonāt have to imagine anymore ā soon itāll be your hand instead of his.
Just the thought makes him groan, blood already rushing south again.
FAVORITE BODY PARTS:
Your Ass
Uvogin likes every part of you, but heād be lying if he said he doesnāt have a special spot for your ass.
It doesnāt matter the shape or size ā itās yours, and by extension, Uvogin wants to touch It and squeeze it and grope it.
Constantly.
Heās generally a touchy person, both in and out of sexual contexts, and while his handsiness is often innocent regarding you, his hand finds its way to your backside much too often to be considered truly accidental.
Heās a bit fan of idly groping you, letting a hand wander down and give a playful squeeze, only to feel you jump a bit out of surprise.
(Heāll always send you this toothy grin afterwards, telling you that he canāt help it baby, itās just right there and itās so damn cute and fuck, if you could see it youād understand.)
He likes to come up behind you and hug you, pressing himself directly against your backside ā your heights likely mean that his cock doesnāt directly sit against your ass, but even feeling his legs against the soft area makes him lick his lips, already imagining the way the soft skin would feel under the rough pads of his fingers.
He likes to smack your ass when you walk by him ā itās always, always light, of course, just enough to startle you but not enough to actually hurt.
He likes the way you get irritated and swat at him, telling you with a cheeky wink and grin that you can always return the favor, babe.
And when youāre actually intimate with one another, this habit of his certainly doesnāt change ā heās always slapping your ass when heās fucking you in doggy style, going on about how you look so pretty from this angle, all the while groping and squeezing at your poor cheeks until theyāre nearly purple.
Heās always cupping your ass when youāre riding him, helping move you up and down with a palm on each cheek, squeezing and holding you so tightly you nearly have no control over your own movements.
Heāll fuck you in a prone bone position, all the while staring at how your ass jiggles with each smack of his hips against it, his fingers (that heād intertwined with yours above your head) clutching onto yours even harder at the sight.
Heās just genuinely in love with the way your ass looks and feels, and although he wouldnāt bring it up unless you wanted to, Uvogin would love to have you sit on his face, letting your pretty ass be the only thing he sees as you grind and scoop and use him, letting his tongue brush across your clit over and over again all while he gets to admire.
(He wouldnāt even mind if you wanted to scoot forward a bit, letting your pussy rub against his chin while his tongue works diligently at the tight, taboo little hole you donāt normally let him touch. Heās sure it'll feel good, that youāll enjoy it, that heāll enjoy it, because itās just another way to be close to you, another way to claim something of yours as his his his.)
Expect your ass to fondled and groped and smacked at least twice a day, if not more ā he just canāt control himself, and surely you understand?
If you were as deeply obsessed and attracted to yourself as he is, youād have to understand that he physically canāt help himself ā not when youāre so goddamn tempting.
His mouth
Because Uvogin is such a pleaser in bed, heās very quickly exploring the variety of ways he can utilize to get you off.
Of course, he likes the tried and true fucking, making you melt on his cock, but something about it feels a bit barbarian, a little bit too rough sometimes, even if heās addicted to the feeling of your pussy.
Even his fingers are sometimes a little too much, just because you always tense up so much, your walls clamping down on him and making it difficult to move, the stretch from them alone feeling like the size of any of your previous partners.
Ā Of course, he still likes fucking you and fingering you, but thereās something about using his mouth on you that he simply canāt get enough of.
Maybe itās because itās so much more intimate, like something special the two of you are sharing. Heās tasting the most private part of you, a place only a handful of people have ever gotten to see (much less taste), and something about that knowledge makes him swell with pride, a smirk settling across his lips.
Regardless, Uvogin takes every opportunity to use his mouth on you that he possibly can ā the two of you are sitting on the couch while you read one of the few books he picked up for you and he watches TV, and suddenly heās between your legs and pulling down your lounging shorts, looking up at you and licking his lips with a positively feral expression, murmuring that heās feeling a little hungry, yeah?
Every sexual encounter between the two of almost always including Uvoginās lips against your cunt in some capacity ā heās a very firm believer in the necessity of foreplay (particularly due to his size), and he spares no expense in making sure that youāre properly wet for him, that youāve come at least once his tongue, that youāre as prepared and ready as possible in order to take him with minimal pain.
And Uvogin is good with his mouth, too ā heās got amazing stamina, and is able to stick with a consistent speed and tempo.
His fallback is to lick small, tight circles with medium pressure, but heās always stealing glances up at you to check your facial expressions, adjusting anything and everything he think she needs to in order to get your eyes rolling to the back of his head.
Heāll start with light kisses spanning along your inner thighs and all around your core, pressing butterfly licks against your folds that are barely there and leave you wanting more more more.
Heāll press kisses against your clit, coming down to kitten lick and stare at you the whole time, a smirk sitting on his lips each time you bite your lip or keen.
He'll slowly add more pressure, building up the pace a bit too, until heās licking shapes against your bud and occasionally sucking it into his mouth lightly, feeling the way your thighs tense up a bit around his head, loving the way your eyes flutter closed and you grasp onto the pillow underneath you.
Heāll occasionally dip down to lick long stripes along your folds, dipping his tongue in to tease your entrance, making lewd, obnoxious slurping noises just to hear you get embarrassed.
He loves it, and as soon as he gets to a pace he thinks youāre liking, heāll stay down there for as long as it takes to get you coming, whether that be five minutes or an hour ā itās worth it, because when you get all doe eyed and shake and writhe and cream on his face, you look so fucking pretty, so perfect he canāt help but grind against the bed, anything to relieve some of the ache.
DRIVE:
In general, his sex drive is high. Itās always been that way, really, even before you stepped into his life ā the thrill of combat and sex are two of his guiltiest pleasures, and heās absolutely no stranger to hook ups.
Heās not unbearably horny, but he toes the line quite well, needing to get off at least two times a week in order to stay functional and sane.
So really, once his obsession with you forms, sexual thoughts revolving around you are very, very quick to follow.
Frankly, when he first realizes that heās drawn to you, that thereās just something about you that he canāt seem to leave alone, he genuinely believes itās simply a sexual attraction to you thatās messing with him. He rationalizes these infant stages of his infatuation with you as simply wanting to fuck you, rather than wanting to have you.
And Uvogin is a man of opportunity ā he canāt not imagine stripping you bare and cupping at your tits, smacking your ass, perching you on his lap and bouncing you up and down like youāre just some glorified sex toy.
The images come quickly and startingly easily ā too easily, really, because imagining all the different ways he wants to get you screaming his name and gushing for him really shouldāve clued him in to the fact that his feelings for you go way beyond physical.
And eventually, once he decides that youāre more than just a hot piece of ass, he canāt just forget about the multitudes of nights heās fantasized about spending hours with his face between your legs, or the number of times heās soaked his fist with cum from merely thinking about how youād look with your pretty face pressed into the mattress, his form caging you into a prone bone position while he absolutely destroys your tight little pussy.
He canāt ā wonāt ā forget, and so as his obsession becomes richer, deeper, more hopeless, Uvoginās sexual fantasies revolving around you become harder and harder to control and fight. Because really, how can he not imagine even more once heās realized heās in love with you?
Sure, he still wants to shove his cock down your throat and hear you choke and struggle with his girth, but now he also wants to trace his tip along the shape of your lips, to see your pretty eyes sparkling up at him with a few tears dotting the lashes, to feel you moan around him at his taste.
Sure, he still wants to bend you over and feel that perfect, tight little pussy of yours, but now he also wants to thrust softly and sweetly, to get deeper and brush against the spot he knows you like, to make you cry out his name rather than just scream and gasp.
The sexual fantasies are still explicit, but theyāre more loving, more like making love rather than just animalistic fucking ā and of course, once these thoughts develop in their entirety, Uvogin has to exercise an extreme amount of self-control to not act them out.
Heās painfully aware of the fact that you likely arenāt clamoring to sleep with him, partially because youāre infuriated at him for kidnapping you, and terrified of him because of his physical stature and criminal status.
Heās sure you donāt particularly want to be with him in a sexual way (though he hopes, desperately, that one day you will), and the last thing he wants is for you to be even more afraid of him, or to hate him even more.
And so, Uvogin wonāt force himself onto you.
He wonāt force you onto your knees or strip your clothing off of you or anything of the sort. He wants to, of course, so badly that it nearly drives him insane, but he wonāt do it out of respect for you and a selfish desire to get you falling in love with him.
What he will do, however, is make it perfectly, abundantly clear that if youāre ever in the mood, heās more than willing to oblige.
Heāll tell you, pretty much from the beginning of your captivity with him, that if you ever desire absolutely anything physical at all, heāll be naked and eagerly waiting for you within seconds.
And that includes everything: simply using those massive palms of his to grope and squeeze at your breasts, calloused fingers gently rolling a nipple between them and listening to the way you sigh out.
(Heāll approach you with this particular offer when he knows your menstrual cycle is nearing, when youāre bloated and soar and desperate for any kind of reprieve ā you need someone to hold those for ya, babe? Theyāre looking awfully heavy, and youād be surprised how gentle these fingers can be.)
Heāll offer to finger you when you seem stressed, that grin of his wolfish and eager but also strangely genuine, as if the prospect of pleasuring you isnāt just some sexual urge and rather something he wants to do, as if it pleasures him, too.
(This offer is always accompanied with a rather showy wiggle of his fingers, making sure the veins and tendons in his hand are visibly flexing, just to try and entice you even more ā and it works, because although you shake your head and tell him that you strongly pass, he can see the way your eyes are glued to his fingers, how your thighs press together ever so slightly, how you canāt hide the desire swimming in your eyes.)
Heāll offer to let you sit on his cock when youāre feeling lonely, telling you that heāll be there the whole time, how you canāt possibly feel lonely when thereās literally someone inside of you, patting his groin ā with pants barely holding back his straining erection ā and telling you that he wonāt try anything funny he promises.
(And heāll stay true to that promise ā itās actual torture to not fuck up into you, to not bounce you up and down in his lap and feel the way your walls desperately clench down on him, but he holds himself back. Besides, feeling you slowly, slowly work your way down his length is a treat enough, each inch stretching you further than you though possible, your little hisses and whines and whimpers making him physically throb inside of you.)
Heāll even offer to fuck you when the mood feels right, telling you that heās never left a partner unsatisfied, that he knows how to treat you, that heāll be slow and gentle and soft and sweet, something that he means with every fiber of his being.
(At least, heāll be all those things the first time he gets you naked in his arms ā after that, anything goes. He canāt always be expected to control himself, after all.)
Itās mildly intrusive and will make you uncomfortable in the beginning, but as time passes and he doesnāt actually force anything onto you, merely offering, slowly your walls will start crumbling.
If youāre stuck with him, maybe it isnāt the end of the world if you get something out of the ordeal ā youāre trapped with him, but does that mean you arenāt allowed an orgasm?
Sure heās kidnapped you and keeps you locked away in a modestly furnished home, but is it really so wrong of you to accept the pleasure he seems more than happy to give you? Does that make you a bad person, or a selfish person?
With time youāll start thinking no, that perhaps letting Uvogin eat you out for hours and bring you high after high wouldnāt be the worst thing in the world ā and heāll be very, very happy to oblige.
(And you can tell, too ā the way he groans and growls against you makes it hard to ignore, as does the way something warm and wet and thick splatters against your thighs when heās got you hovering over his chin.)
MAIN THREE KINKS:
Size Kink
Uvogin is more than aware of the size difference between the two of you.
It doesnāt matter how tall you are, or how large you are ā he is bigger than you, both in stature and presence and every other measurable way. Heās a hulking figure that takes up the entire side of the dining table you share meals at, needing to wear shirts that literally fall off your frame, dominating and bigger than you in every sense of the word.
And he knows this - heās completely aware of how youāre so small compared to him, so tiny and adorable and breakable, and when it comes to really anything between the two of you, he has a tendency to take this fact to heart, to be beyond careful in making sure that he does absolutely nothing that could ever put you in harmās way.
Though he wonāt admit it, having you hurt or afraid of him in any way is genuinely one of his worst fears, and although he knows he can do nothing to change his physical appearance, he takes care to come across as least threatening and as welcoming as possible.
And when it comes to the bedroom, Uvo is even more hyper aware, because when heās buried inside that tight, cute little cunt of yours, his orgasm rapidly approaching, itās almost disturbingly easy to lose control, to just pin you down and fuck the absolute shit out of you, until youāre nothing more than a quivering, split open mess below him.
He has to keep an incredible amount of focus when his orgasm looms near to make sure that he doesnāt dig his fingers into your skin too hard lest he leave bruises, or that he doesnāt fuck into you at the pace he truly wants to lest he push a little too far and tear something.
He doesnāt want to hurt you, so he tries his absolute best to keep you on top, to keep you controlling the pace and everything else in order to keep you safe and feeling good.
(Besides, heās got a great view when youāre on top ā he can see, all in the same glance, your pussy sucking in his length over and over, your breasts bouncing and jiggling, even your face all twisted up in ecstasy as you ride him as hard as you can. Heās not particularly hands-off during sex, but often heās tempted to simply lay back with his arms crossed behind his head, content to watch your show and let your cunt bring him steadily closer to orgasm. His desire to see you gasp and stare wildly at him in shock and pleasure often outweighs this urge, however, because he almost always settles his hands on your hips and helps guide you, suddenly thrusting just a hair deeper into you and hearing your cry of a-ah Uvo too deep!)
However, that isnāt to say that Uvogin doesnāt enjoy the size difference between the two of you ā on the contrary, he thinks itās beyond cute, that itās adorable just how tiny you are in comparison to him.
And while the fear that he could hurt you is very much omnipresent, he canāt deny how it makes his heart race and blood pump to his cock when he sees how just one of his hands engulfs your entire thigh, how you struggle to straddle him because his waist is just so muscular and wide, how your breast is completely engulfed by his palm when he roughly fondles and kneads at it.
Itās endearing in a way, how cute and small you are beside him, and even more obvious when you have your hands wrapped around his cock, your fingers not able to close completely around his girth.
Seeing you struggle so much to simply jerk him off makes Uvo smug, a smirk falling across his face while he groans, little murmurs of your name tumbling past his lips while you work at him, trying desperately to get him to come, to get him to tell you how youāre a good girl, fuck look at your hands, ngh wanna ā gonna stretch out that tiny little cunt with this fat cock, you want that?
Itās most definitely a guilty pleasure, something that makes him feel big and strong and important, and in the context of your sexual relationship, thereās just simply no way to get around the fact that Uvogin quite literally towers over you.
(Especially when youāre on your knees, staring up at his imposing stature and the large, swollen, veiny cock sitting at eye level, his voice teasing as he tells you to go on, it wonāt bite, I promise. Only I do that.)
Praise
Generally Uvogin isnāt particularly derogatory in bed. Heās not a big fan of degradation in general, both in and out of the bedroom, partially because heās not a naturally mean person (aside from the criminal activity and murder, of course), and partly because he really does cherish and love you. He thinks youāre beautiful and perfect and everything he could want in a woman, and his honesty bars him from ever saying anything to the contrary.
He doesnāt want to tell you that youāre just a slut, that youāre a hole for him to fuck, that you should stay quiet and let him get what he wants ā he wants you, in more ways than one. He loves you, in his own twisted, fucked up way, and he wants your time in bed together to reflect that sentiment.
And so, Uvogin falls on the opposite side of the spectrum from degradation ā that is, thereās a nearly overwhelming amount of praise in the bedroom.
Comments about how pretty you are or how good at something you are constantly slip past his lips, his voice gruff and low as he tells that you look so damn pretty on your knees baby.
Heās got a compliment or praise ready for every possible situation in bed ā youāre undressing, struggling to get the giant shirt Uvogin had forced you into this morning up over your head? Heās chuckling, grinning, slapping your ass and telling you that youāre so damn cute, princess, makes me go crazy when you wear my shit.
Youāre kissing him, pinned below him with your wrists over your head? Heās licking his lips as he pulls back, planting kisses against your neck and telling you that you taste so good, youāre so fucking pretty.
Youāre biting your lip and carding your fingers through your hair as he sucks and playfully bites at your nipples? Heās burying his face between your breasts and vigorously shaking it, laughing and telling you that these tits are so perfect babe, god I always wanna touch āem and kiss āem, how about no more bras around the house? Or maybe no more shirts at all ā donāt expect me to control myself, yeah?
Youāre sinking to your knees while he sighs and grabs the base of his cock, running his tip over your lips while he stares down at you? Heās telling you that you look so pretty babe, canāt wait to see these lips with my cum on them instead.
Youāre perched on his lap, his tip barely nestled inside you while you wince and bite your lip? Heās running soothing hands up your sides, cooing at you that youāre doing so good baby, ām so proud of you, fuck youāre tight, feels so damn good.
Youāre on your hands and knees, chest and face pressed in the mattress while he mounts you from behind, hips flush with yours and pummeling into you with no mercy? Heās leaning all the way over you and growling into your ear that youāre mine, babe, fuck donāt you ever forget, god this pussy is so good, yāso damn tight and wet, gonna make me come baby, you want that? Yeah? You want my cum?
Youāre underneath him, tits bouncing every which way and body physically thrusting back and forth as he fucks into you with a sturdy hand pressing right over your naval? Heās laughing breathlessly, using his free hand to push back his hair and telling you to take it baby, fuck yeah just like that, you look so damn hot like this.
Even when heās in the middle of coming, thick spurts of white shooting from his swollen, red tip, heās praising you ā telling you that you take him so well, that you always take ā fuck, take it all, look so damn pretty with my cum in you.
He just genuinely believes that youāre beautiful, and because heās naturally quite talkative, this shows in the bedroom ā he canāt not comment on how you look, how you feel, how smell, how you taste.
It would be wrong to not let you know how much heās enjoying being with you, how badly heās dreamed of fucking you, or how long heās dreamed of touching you ā so really, even if his constant praise embarrasses you, youād best get used to it. He wonāt stop, and if you were to return the favor?
Well, his ego isnāt particularly fragile, but he canāt deny how it affects him any time you moan out about how good he feels or how big he is or how youāre close ā oh god, ām gonna come, oh god Uvo Uvo Uvo-!
He canāt deny the way his cock jumps, how it twitches and pulses and oozes out precum at just hearing your voice and words, hearing his name and feeling the way your body seizes up all because of him him him.
Ā Heās a sucker for it, so expect sex with him to be loud and full of compliments ā even if theyāre a little vulgar sometimes (fuck babe, these tits ā I wanna fuck āem, get them all messy and covered in my cum fuuuck-) or oddly specific (god you taste good, those panties of yours donāt even come closeā¦).
He just canāt help himself, so get used to it ā he wonāt stop, even if you beg him to.
Cum play
Heās possessive, and it shows in the bedroom.
Heās always got a hand on your body, hickeys bruising your throat, collarbone or inner thighs, handprints decorating your ass, or even a light bite mark here and there along your thighs and stomach.
He likes the concept of claiming you and physically showing that youāre his, and while this presents itself in normal ways like previously mentioned, Uvoginās favorite form of showcasing that you belong to him is by getting his cum absolutely everywhere on your body.
He produces an insane amount of it with every orgasm ā it just keeps coming, spurt after spurt shooting from his swollen tip and landing on your body or the sheets underneath you, all the while heās groaning and his hips are involuntarily thrusting, making everything even more messy.
His orgasms last easily twenty seconds, with a constant stream of white, and Uvogin loves nothing more than to absolutely paint you with it.
When your hands ā so small and cute and soft compared to his calloused skin ā are wrapped around him, pulling and tugging, the slick sound of spit and lube clicking in his ears, heāll give a warning of here it comes, shit baby take it ā and immediately your hands are covered in it, pools of cum dribbling down onto your fingers, slipping down your wrist and leaving everything sticky and wet and warm, Uvoginās chest rising and falling with both the force of his orgasm and the sight of his cum against your skin.
(Heāll always grab your hands afterwards, slipping your fingers into his mouth one by one and licking away his cum, only to kiss you afterwards and push it all into your mouth, entertained by your surprised sound and the way you squirm against him.)
When youāre struggling to fit him into your mouth, only able to take the first few inches and leaving your hands to deal with the rest, heāll dig his fingers into your hair and hold you there, biting his lip and telling you to swallow every last fucking drop, donāt wanna see any wasted babe before letting go, listening to the way you gag and eagerly swallow everything heās giving you.
Heāll pull away with harsh breaths, watching the way you eagerly suck in air, your lips wet and glistening with spit and cum, your tongue still painted a white color.
(Sometimes, when heās feeling particularly possessive, heāll instead pull back right before letting go, telling you to stay sitting on your knees while he stands, fisting his cock at a near inhuman speed before pointing it right at your face, letting go and watching as ropes land across your cheeks, nose, lips and forehead, your entire face streaked with him in a way that makes his knees weak. Often, heāll shake his cock a bit right at the end, eager to get every little bit out and onto you, groaning in satisfaction when the last, weakest little spurt lands right on your outstretched tongue. Heāll lean in closer and smear the cum across your skin even more, his voice sounding genuinely awed as he tells you that youāre so damn beautiful baby, fuck, get on the bed, I need to fuck you. Now.)
He loves to have you take his cock between your breasts, regardless of their size ā he wants you suckle on his tip and rub your skin against him, feeling your pebbled nipples and the soft plush.
When he gets close, heāll pull back and finish himself off, having you lay on your back while he straddles your waist, painting your breasts white and paying special attention to smear it across your nipples, pinching and twisting and pulling at them.
And even when heās actually inside you, his penchant for being picky about where his cum goes doesnāt change ā nine times out of ten he will come inside you, pushing his hips all the way the hilt so that he can finish as deeply as possible, the groan he lets out sending pleasure racing up your spine.
You can often literally feel it inside of you ā something warm and wet filling you up, his cock spasming with every spurt, his balls clenching and tightening against your ass as he whispers your name under his breath.
(Most of the time, thereās simply too much to keep inside of you ā it just never seems to end, and eventually thereās some dribbling out of you, smearing against your folds and dripping down the curve of your ass, sometimes even leaving a small pool against the bedsheets. Uvogin is equal parts proud and irritated when this happens, though ā proud because god, you look perfect with his cum leaking out of you, but irritated because all of that really should be inside of you, not wasted and sitting on the bed. So, he'll scoop it up with his fingers, pushing it back inside you and fucking it up into you until heās satisfied, the wet shmucking noise making him grin.)
Sometimes, though, heāll pull out right at the last minute and instead come onto your cunt, letting the white settle against your inner thighs and coat your folds, leaving everything in a layer of opaque cream as he growls out your name.
Heāll often have you keep your legs spread even after heās finished, moving closer to peer at his handiwork, getting so close and staring so hard that you inevitably get embarrassed, especially when he uses both thumbs to spread your folds and watch the cum dip down inside, even a few drops dribbling down inside you, the sight making him inexplicably satisfied.
Really, Uvogin just likes seeing you with his cum ā whether itās on you or inside you, he will find a way to incorporate it ā it helps quell his possessiveness, and he canāt deny that the sight just looks so right, like something carnal and primal and natural.
(Unfortunately, though, he is a bit sensitive about you trying to clean it up ā he often wonāt let you shower after sex, telling you that it's better if you keep it on you or in you, and if you were to complain about it, heāll just grab a pair of your panties and force them up your legs, the mess heād left between them soaking into the fabric and making them damp every time you sit down or move. Again, donāt try to fight it ā you wonāt win, and Uvogin will often reach down between your legs just to ensure that you havenāt cleaned up ā itās a waste, heād say, and he knows his girl isnāt wasteful.)
OTHER NOTABLE KINKS INCLUDE:
Overstimulation
In general, Uvogin loves to please you.
Heās by no means submissive, but thereās something about bringing you pleasure and watching you fall apart for him that gets him harder than heās ever been, all the blood rushing to his cock so quickly it nearly makes him dizzy.
He just loves the way you look on the brink of an orgasm, how you look at him with such wide eyes and need, how you clutch onto him and chant his name over and over. He likes how your hips twitch and jerk in his grasp, how he has to physically hold you still so that he can keep his tongue working over your clit or his fingers thrusting into you.
Itās addicting, honestly, in some ways even better than his own orgasms ā and so, Uvogin finds himself making it a priority every time he gets you naked that you find your high, unwilling to stop until you come at least once.
And thatās really the key ā at least, because any given sexual encounter with Uvogin generally results in you having at least three orgasms. He absolutely loves to overstimulate you ā watching you come is one of his favorite sights, those dark eyes of his always hyperfixated on your pretty face as you fall apart, and the face you make when he doesnāt stop?
When he keeps his fingers on that cute clit of yours, still rubbing and pressing and making you feel good even as you gasp and whine about how itās too much?
Well, it makes Uvogin grin, pearly teeth on display as he tells you to take it baby, be a good girl for me, yeah?
He likes the way you squirm and beg for him, your legs shaking like crazy and your abdomen visibly clenching and unclenching.
He likes the way you get so sensitive and grasp onto him like heās your lifeline, pushing him to get you off twice, three times, four times, sometimes even five in a single session.
Of course, he likes seeing you pleasured, but thereās a bit of selfishness at play too ā because when youāre holding him so tightly and moaning out in that perfect voice of yours please ā please Uvogin (heās not sure whether youāre begging for him to stop or for more ā and he suspects youāre not sure either), how can he not feel utterly self-satisfied?
How can he not feel like a good lover, not feel like your dependence on him is growing more and more with each orgasm?
He views it as a good way to simultaneously get you a trembling mess for him and to also solidify your growing feelings for him - plus, he gets to lick his fingers clean of your wonderful taste while also getting to sink himself inside your soaking wet, twitching, hypersensitive cunt already practically milking him for everything heās gotā¦
It doesnāt take him long to come after that, and the sight of you exhausted, twitching, and leaking thick, white globs of cum is positively droolworthy.
Femdom
But in a very specific way ā youāll never be truly in charge in bed with him, if only because thereās not a single submissive bone in Uvoginās body.
Sex with him is under his terms and conditions, but heās generous enough to care about your pleasure and your desires, too.
That said, Uvo is incredibly entertained by your attempts at dominating him ā itās not necessarily hot or attractive, but itās incredibly endearing and sweet, and serves to make his heart melt and his cock swell with the knowledge that eventually he will be shattering this fragile illusion of control youāre creating.
He likes when you get on top of him, your poor hips struggle to straggle the expanse of his own, his cock pressing harshly and insistently against your ass while you bite your lip and steel yourself.
He likes the way you try to move his arms over his head forcefully (you arenāt actually moving them, even if you think you are ā heās letting you, manually moving them for you, letting you believe that youāre doing it when it reality itās all him), seeing the way your eyes light up and your thighs squeeze around his hips tighter.
He likes the way you lean down to kiss him, your tongue rushing into his mouth, your kisses noticeably more aggressive than usual but still nothing particularly dominant.
And yet, Uvogin lets you take the lead, letting you control the pacing, the angle, everything just to maintain this illusion of dominance.
Heāll let you tie the blindfold around his head, limiting his vision but not hindering any of his other senses, conveniently forgetting to mention to you that he can still feel your every breath, hear your every movement, practically taste what youāre going to do next.
Heāll let you slowly sink down onto his length, pulling back every few moments to tease his length and leave him wanting more.
Uvogin will take it all in stride, entertained at the way you try to be dominant and in control, only to shatter it once he decides youāve had your fun, once you pull off of him one too many times and leave his cock wet, throbbing and needing your pussy so badly it hurts ā
Itās not hard to rip his wrists out of the dingey bindings youād placed them in earlier, fingers immediately digging into the plush of your hips to force you back down onto him, setting a brutal pace combined with his own thrusting hips and moving your body up and down so that every brush of his cock into you leaves you gasping, panting for air because itās all so unexpected and heās just so deep and big and godā¦
You can try being dominant all you want, because he finds it entertaining and endearing, but know that at the end of the day you will be the one at his mercy, your body simply his to toy with and tease as he sees fit.
BIGGEST FANTASY:
It's no secret that Uvogin is possessive ā youāll learn this from the very moment you become aware of his feelings for you. He firmly, whole-heartedly views you as his, just as he is yours.
And in the context of your sexual relationship, this mindset of his is only more apparent, more blatantly obvious with the way he clutches onto you and tells you how much he loves his little pussy between your legs, the way he leaves bruises on your hips and ass from smacking you or holding on just a bit too tight while heās fucking you, or even sinking his teeth lightly into the flesh of your shoulder so that youāre marked as his.
It satisfies the intense desire he feels to keep you by his side and away from everyone else, all with the added benefit of getting you writhing and moaning his name.
And so, most of Uvoās fantasies in the bedroom tend to branch off from his possessiveness ā specifically, while it would be unlikely to happen, he desperately, desperately, wants to fuck you in a semi-public space so that his fellow Troupe members can hear.
He wants them to hear you screaming his name, your pleas and cries sounding like music to his ears and showing them exactly who gets to touch you, who makes you feel good, whoās allowed to dump fresh, potent cum in your cute little hole.
It makes him giddy, genuinely, excitement brewing in his chest because he loves the idea of publicly claiming you, about making sure that everyone knows that youāre his, that every part of you belongs to him.
He likes everyone knowing that only he gets to touch you and make you moan and scream, that itās only ever his name thatāll be leaving those pretty lips of yours.
Plus, this fantasy fulfills that possessive urge without actually letting other people see you ā he canāt stomach the thought of any of his fellow Troupe members actually seeing your naked body or the way you look at the height of your pleasure ā Shizuku canāt ogle like she does, Shalnark canāt fist his cock to the sight of your tits bouncing, and even Franklin canāt swallow and ghost a hand over his crotch at the sight of your body taking his too-big cock.
Itās perfect, a fantasy that heās harbored since the early days of his infatuation with you ā and while itāll take a while for him to actually act out, he wants nothing more than to utterly claim you all while his friends can hear. Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āYou gonna scream for me baby?ā Uvogin grunts, his hips snapping into yours just a bit harder.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Everything feels like too much ā heās holding you up against the wall, the cold brick digging into your back just mixing with the onslaught of pleasure his cock is giving you, bullying its way inside you and leaving you clenching down on him with every thrust. Heās so big ā stretching you out nearly past your limits, making you drool and moan and shake, thoroughly destroying you long before heās even bothering to reach for your clit.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Youāre a mess already, and Uvogin knows it. It makes him smirk, staving off his own orgasm in favor of making sure he fucks you just right, just to make sure the rest of the Troupe can hear you on the other side of the wall.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āI canāt hear you.ā He growls, burying his face in your neck and biting his lip to hold his release at bay. Itās hard to ā youāre so damn tight and warm around him, and each time he pushes just the tiniest bit deeper inside you, you squeeze up like a vice, massaging and pulsing around him so well that it makes his knees weak.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āFuck, Uvo Uvo Uvo Uvo -!ā Youāre chanting his name, the words slurred together and sounding strained, and it only makes him thrust into you harder, enough force landing on each push of his hips that it physically gets you bouncing, even mid-air.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He can hear faint, muffled talking from the other side of the wall, and it only makes him bare his teeth, lightly biting the shell of your ear. His fingers dig into your thighs, his grip on them firm and tight.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āShit baby, tell them whoās fucking you like this,ā He starts, only to cut himself off with a groan when you clench down on him particularly hard. His hips stutter for just a moment, and you claw at his back at the sensation.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āIt ā itās you, Uvogin!ā Your voice is strained and slurred, and it makes Uvogin grin.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āWhoās cock is this perfect little pussy taking? Whoās it belong to, huh?ā His voice is gravely and deep, husky and making your toes curl as your eyes roll to the back of your head.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āUvogin Uvogin Uvogin!ā Youāre practically screaming at this point, and he hears a dull thud from the next room over.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He barks out a laugh and buries his face into your neck, forcing his hips to go faster, harder, deeper, anything to get you louder.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā And itās working ā youāre physically trembling, hips twitching and jerking wildly in his grasp, a non-sensical slurry of words spilling from your lips that make his heart and cock ache, each sound you make sending him closer and closer to his end.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āTell me what you want baby, fuck fuck fuck, tell me where you want it.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āInside! Please Uvo, inside, need it inside me āā Youāre blabbering, but he doesnāt mind. A finger comes down to roughly press circles against your sensitive clit, and your reaction is immediate ā you tense up, every muscle in your body seizing up as the pleasure mounts and mounts, his hips never stilling and drilling into that spot inside you over and over and over again ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā You come with a scream of his name, your cunt fluttering wildly around him, squeezing and pulsing and massaging him in a way that gets his knees scarily close to buckling, his own orgasm right on the brink as he presses you even tighter against the wall, leaving no space to breath as he literally fucks you into the brick.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āDonāt you dare stop,ā He warns you, each word punctuated by a sharp thrust.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Another loud bang comes from the other side of the wall, and Uvogin freezes for just a moment as he hears the faintest sound of panting, of someone cursing under their breath, of something muttering out an oh fuckā¦
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā He comes with a loud groan of your name, spurts of warm, thick cum settling inside you and making you cry out again, the sound music to his ears. A muffled groan sounds from the other side of the wall, and pride swims in Uvoās gut as he watches you try to recover, your body shaking and your lips all swollen from biting them. He kisses you, hard, his tongue slipping into your mouth immediately, before helping you stand on your own and paddle to the bathroom to clean up.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Once the shower starts running, Uvogin sighs and slips out the door, walking into the other room with a smirk spread across his lips. Feitan, Phinks and Nobunaga all look at him, the first with a disgusted look, the second with a noticeable blush, and the third with dazed eyes, clearly in the aftershocks of his own pleasure.
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Uvogin laughs, settling a hand on his hip. āLike what you heard, huh?ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Uvoginās smile drops at that, his nen flaring up. āToo bad youāll never even touch her.ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā His cock twitches at the mere thought, and soon heās sliding open the glass door of the bathroom, pressing your chest against the tile wall, determined to see if his friends can still hear you over the sound of the rushing water.
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DARLING PROFILE:
Gentle
It takes Illumi a long time to develop feelings for his darling for a multitude of reasons.
Emotional unavailability, high expectations, and disinterest, just to name a few, and while he isnāt actively searching for a partner, there are a few base requirements he knows his future partner must meet.
Strong, intelligent, hard working, everything desirable that he knows both he and his family would approve of.
But once he meets his darling, his interest slightly peaked in them, that list begins changing slightly.
Because while the feelings are slow to solidify, Illumi notices quickly that his darling is so, so painfully averse to being harsh.
Theyāre not confrontational, treat others with a level of attentiveness and care that initially makes him scoff, and he doesnāt think heās once seem them ever lose control of themselves and explode.
Itās uncanny, unnatural, as far as Illumi is concerned, and yet itās fascinating. He slowly grows to admire this trait in his darling, how they can be so unconditionally soft with everything and everyone around them, eventually finding himself more and more attracted to them with every kind deed they do. It makes them weak, easy to manipulate, easy to kill, but Illumi finds it oddly endearing.
Heās always firmly believed that mothers should be nurturing to their children, to help them grow and shape them into the best versions of themselves possible, and while theyāre opposite to his mother in many ways, maybe that gentility they possess is a the perfect thing needed.
Once heās decided that his darling is his future wife, heās immediately moving to experience this kindness for himself.
He comes back from missions with a little more blood and bruising than was necessary, but the way his darling gasps and quickly grabs the medical kit makes Illumi blink in wide fascination, unsure what drives them to eagerly spring into action but more than ready to feel their soft touch.
(They donāt need to know that Illumi allowed the target to get a few more hits in than necessary, just to keep them fawning over him as long as possible, or that he had to refuse ten different medical personnel in the mansion before making it to their shared ābedroomā.)
He likes the juxtaposition between his darling and him, and while it occasionally irritates him that theyāre so soft and weak, itās more endearing than anything else ā just donāt be soft with anyone else but him, yes?
Smart
Illumi may be morally misguided, but the man is intelligent. He knows more about the human body than many doctors, and is skilled beyond belief in the art of combat and stealth.
He understands the best ways to go about gathering intel on a target without being traced or caught, and is able to apply that knowledge to set up traps correlating to his employersā requests.
And this is a trait heās simply unwilling to compromise when it comes to a partner ā they must be able to keep up with him mentally.
They donāt need to have the same kind of intelligence as him, but the ability to critically think and quickly understand is a necessity. Illumi has very little patience for stupidity, and the thought of spending time with someone who doesnāt understand most of what he says is irritating.
And so, once his feelings for his darling begin appearing, Illumi is putting them through a small series of tests to make sure they live up to his expectations. Itās nothing too intense, nothing he wouldnāt be able to do himself.
Heās leaving extra clues that heās been in his darlingās apartment ā clumsy signs that heād never normally leave, in the hopes that theyāll realize theyāve had an unwanted guest.
Cabinets are left ajar, their bed slightly unmade, though the thing that really clues them in is the presence of long, dark locks of hair around their apartment that they know arenāt theirs.
Theyād never leave hair on the kitchen table; theyād see it and remove it, mildly disgusted. And yet, here three locks lay, making them a bit paranoid as they call the police.
Illumi intercepts the call, making sure it never rings through, but heās still proud of his darling, satisfaction pooling in his chest because he just knew theyād pick up on it.
He likes knowing his darling is competent, and that their future children will be so too ā the next Zoldyck heirs canāt be clueless, after all.
Generous
In general, Illumi isnāt particularly selfish with those he holds dear.
With the exception of Killua, Illumi has always willingly done as heās been told.
Heās never demanded much from his parents, never insisting on material goods. Heās never felt cheated out of anything, either ā his parents have molded him into the perfect assassin, and he couldnāt be more grateful for the rigor and training he received as a child.
And yet, once his darling enters his life, Illumi finds himself feeling strangely overwhelmed. They always seem to be giving things away ā their time, bits of food theyāve cooked, their love, other things material and not alike.
It confuses Illumi; it makes him wonder why theyāre wasting their resources on people they donāt know well, on those who likely wouldnāt reciprocate.
Itās a mystery, and frankly he finds his darling to be foolish for it ā until one day itās focused at him.
Illumi canāt comprehend why his darling is willingly giving away a bit of their time when they encounters him ā in another body ā disguised as a homeless man begging for change.
Thereās a pitied look in their eye as they hand him the bills ā two dollars, just what they had in change and could afford to give away ā and tells him thereās a gas station nearby with cheap snacks he can eat.
Illumi just stares at them, not understanding why theyāre helping, and soon heās asking just that.
They startle and awkwardly laugh, telling him itās because they donāt like seeing others in need, and they were only planning on spending that money to buy junk foods for themselves, anyways.
Illumi blinks, but his darling is soon speed walking away, the interaction feeling strange and uncomfortable.
Illumi still doesnāt understand, but it becomes another one of the facets of his darling that he simply learns to enjoy.
He yearns to understand what compels them to put others before themselves (something that yet again irritates him a bit), but he finds that the more he interacts with them, the more he enjoys being the recipient of it.
Heās finally receiving a bit of love and support that isnāt forced from his parents, and he quickly grows addicted.
Enjoys childrenĀ
The reality of the situation is that as Illumiās darling, they will be forced to interact with children whether they want to or not.
Namely, their own.
Having a family with him is not optional, and Illumi will never present it as such ā once he decides his darling is to be his partner, they automatically become his future wife, the future mother of his children.
He cannot be swayed, regardless of what his darling wants.
However, while itās still possible for him to grow obsessed with a darling who isnāt especially fond of kids, itās much more likely that he grows attracted to the ease with which theyāre able to communicate with them.
He likes the way they get so happy when a child walks up to them, how theyāre immediately squatting down and smiling, playing hide and seek with their own face as the child giggles and beams.
He never knew that sort of innocent and sweet interaction when he himself was a child, but he doesnāt view it as a bad thing if his darling is able to make a child happy.
Itāll only benefit them as parents ā itāll help strengthen the bond, and make their children more malleable and receptive to their guidance.
Besides, thereās something about seeing his darling next to a baby that makes his skin feel hot, eyes blowing wide and his trousers tightening.
The image just looks so right, so natural and perfect that Illumi has to hold himself back from bending them over and fucking them right then and there.
Talent with children is an incredibly attractive trait for Illumi, and likely it's the final nail in the coffin that seals his obsession with his darling ā one giggling toddler is all thatās needed to seal their fate.
GENERAL YANDERE TRAITS:
Stalker
More than anything, stalking you is the only method of āinteractionā with you that Illumi feels truly comfortable with.
He knows how to stay invisible; tracking others is easy, as is staying in the shadows and keeping that wide, unnaturally glassy stare on them. Heās used to watching but not being seen, and itās only natural to extend this towards you. It feels right to be watching you, like heās where heās meant to be, and for the beginning of his obsession he spends every free moment stalking you, hiding in corners or shadows and just staring.
Ā (And really, this behavior lasts all throughout his infatuation, even when heās got you trapped in the Zoldyck manor, even when youāre nursing his baby, even when youāve both grown old and death approaches ā itās just that in the beginning, youāre not aware of the black eyes that follow your every move. And thatās a luxury that gets taken all too soon, as you find yourself longing for ignorance of Illumi in every possible way.)
Not to mention, there is no part of him that feels any guilt for it ā heās a cold-blooded assassin, of course, but at no point does it occur to him that it may be strange to be following you, or that you wouldnāt appreciate him watching over you (and watching you, generally).
He doesnāt understand that he shouldnāt approach you like he approaches a target ā of course, you wonāt be on the receiving end of his needles (at least, not with death his ultimate goal ā perhaps something less lethal, like love or submission or lust), but otherwise his intentions are the same.
(Well, mostly ā not really, actually, because Illumi doesnāt feel this strange, pleasant warmth in his chest when heās watching his targets, nor does he feel particularly intrigued when heās staring at them as they sleep, watching their chest rise and fall and the relaxed, utterly content expression on their face.)
The process of stalking you is remarkably similar to his jobs ā first, heāll choose a place within your home that gives him a good, solid vantage point with minimal risk that heāll be noticed.
(Though, itās not exactly hard to hide when youāre so damn oblivious ā Illumi swears you have little to no awareness of your surroundings, if the way you sometimes knock into tables or trip over shoes in your doorway is anything to go by.)
His stand-by places are usually in a rarely used storage closet with the door cracked open, just wide enough for his dark eyes to peer through, or perhaps behind a chair you rarely use, crouched and peeking behind the cloth, and when you sit down in said chair, it gives Illumi the opportunity to stand up slightly, towering over you and getting a perfect view of your pretty body and smelling your hair.
But if itās nighttime and youāre already snuggled up in your bed, eyes glued to your phone screen as you scroll and scroll and neglect your sleep, he'll stand silently and deathly still in the corner.
Heās able to stay perfectly still and maintain the same position for hours at a time, hardly blinking, hardly moving, hardly even breathing, it seems.
And heās utilizing this skill set to its full potential when it comes to you ā Illumi is greedy, and while this doesnāt initially get channeled into being overly possessive of you (though that certainly comes later), it instead translates into this insatiable need to constantly have his eyes on you and to be in your presence every moment he isnāt needed on a job.
There are no boundaries with him, because Illumi genuinely doesnāt see the need to have them. Youāre already destined to spend your lives together, so why shouldnāt he start the process of learning more about you?
Autonomy doesnāt really exist with him ā he could be considered clingy if his view of your lives being so irreversibly intertwined wasnāt as clinical and matter of fact.
And so Illumi doesnāt operate barred by any sort of moral guidelines ā so when heās using his needles to morph into another face so that he can practice the lines and compliments heās been told by his mother that will make you swoon, it doesnāt register to him that it might be creepy that heās practicing wooing you in another body.
(The man is disturbing, and youāre uncomfortable with the way this stranger doesnāt seem to be getting the hint that you want him to leave you alone; why is he standing so close to you? Why is he staring at you like that? Why is he following you?)
It doesnāt register to him that itās a breach of trust to be pretending to be someone you love and trust, just to extract more information about you.
(Your cousin is acting strangely when they speak to you ā their words are clipped and sound just slightly off, and youāre sure they already know what your dreams for the future are. Youāve talked about this with them before, so why are they questioning you on what your ideal house looks like, your ideal partner, your favorite baby names?)
He spends a lot of time observing you, collecting information on you in every way he can, and this doesnāt stop once youāre trapped by his side and with the rest of his crazy, horrible family ā itās a habit, more than anything, but itās so much worse when youāre aware, when you can see and feel his dark eyes boring into you, making you squirm under the intensity of his gaze.
Of course, talking to him about it wonāt do a single thing ā only earning you a slight head tilt and a question of does it bother you when I watch you? I apologize, I only meant to keep an eye on you, my dear.
He genuinely doesnāt understand that stalking you and keeping a tab on you at all times is something that you very much donāt appreciate, but youāll quickly come to learn that with Illumi, thereās only so much you can change ā so much being quite literally nothing.
Controlling
This particular manifestation of his obsession with you is a culmination of many different things.
Firstly, itās simply his personality ā when he loves, he possesses, this ugly, carnal feeling stirring in his gut that pushes him to be in control, to guide and oversee every little thing the target of his love does. Heās always felt this way with Killua ā he loves his brother immensely, but that love translates as being controlling and always keeping a finger on what Killua does, says, and feels.
Secondly, itās the intense pressure coming from his family. Kikyo expects your total obedience both to her and her son, and while Illumi can sometimes stand up to his mother on matters where your safety and wellbeing are concerned, he canāt deny her expectations of you being absolutely subservient to him, bending to his every whim and allowing him to dictate every aspect of your life.
And finally, itās his own paranoia that pushes him to micromanage you in every way possible. Heās never had someone to call his before ā heās unselfish in nature, dedicating himself to his family in every possible way, and now that heās been given a woman to call his own, to spoil and love and keep by his side, heās not entirely sure how to react.
Your presence soothes him in a way heās never experienced before; youāre so soft and caring and warm, all things heās never had. His life has been hardships and tough love, training and never being good enough, and now that youāre in the picture, Illumi isnāt entirely sure how to handle himself.
He doesnāt doubt himself, per se, but heās unsure how to successfully navigate a marriage. Would you like it if he was more physical with you? Perhaps youād like more hugs or for him to hold your hand or kiss you more often ā thatās what all the popular media resources heās looked into have told him.
Or maybe youād prefer a more quiet, subtle kind of love, where you both support one another with meaningful looks and the occasional touch, whispered words that carry more weight than they seem.
Heās not sure, despite all the stalking and information retrieving heās preformed in your name, and that makes him nervous. He doesnāt like that he canāt anticipate what youāll want or how to make you happy ā it makes him feel less-than, as if heās not quite the perfect match that his mother and father have always said his wife will be.
He doesnāt like not being sure of himself, and so this worry manifests itself as becoming firmer in his treatment of you, locking down on the few things heās absolutely sure of.
It comes off as controlling, sure, but Illumi doesnāt mean to be when heās telling you what to wear, rifling through the closet he procured for you and pulling out a dress he thinks suits your complexion ā you may hate it, but he likes it, so youāll wear it.
Heās not trying to be controlling when heās clicking his tongue lightly and telling you to keep your posture straight, dear every time you sit down, even if your shoulders are only barely, slightly slumped.
Heās not trying to be controlling when heās standing over the bathtub and watching you wash yourself, telling you to use more soap, darling, donāt you want to be clean?
(Nevermind his dark eyes blinking slowly and getting stuck on the soapy outline of your breasts under the warm water ā surely youāre just imagining that, along with the tent forming in his trousers.)
Heās not trying to be controlling when heās roughly grabbing your hand and forcing you behind him when youāre walking through the hallways of the manor, his gaze narrowing at the butler standing at attention, paranoia eating away at him because he could have sworn the man was staring at you as you entered the room, and he canāt have that. Even as an employee of the family, no one but Illumi can look at you with any degree of desire ā you are his, and if it means cleaning up a body and finding a new butler to replace him, Illumi will do what is needed to keep you his.
IIlumi is quite frankly totally unaware of his controlling behavior ā he doesnāt realize anything is wrong because in his eyes nothing is wrong. This is love ā itās how his father always treated his mother when he was young, his eyes cold and his heart even colder, his words cutting her down and remolding her into a woman more fitting of being the matriarch of the Zoldycks.
And while he doesnāt want to break you down or remake you, heās following his fatherās example in making sure that youāre entirely accounted for. Youāre his responsibility, and while he doesnāt view you as merely a pet, youāll often feel like a glorified dog with the way he controls your life down to every second, always telling you that itās time to go eat, or time to sleep, or time to shower, or time to kiss him and let him undress you.
He's pushy without even meaning to be, but if you bring this behavior up to him, heāll be surprised. Genuinely ā his brows will quirk up ever so slightly, his already wide eyes getting a hair wider because really? I had no idea, my dear. Thank you for bringing this to my attention; I will reduce the frequency on my instructions towards you.
But he doesnāt, even if he promises he will.
And itās not entirely his fault ā he thinks he is, even going so far as to be expectant of your praise when he holds himself back from telling you to use the other fork when heās dining with you privately. Surely you must be proud of him ā heās doing as you asked, being a good husband and fulfilling your desires and wishes.
So why arenāt you praising him?
Why arenāt you mentioning anything about how generous heās being, how considerate he is?
Youāve blatantly disregarded his attempts at trying to be less ācontrollingā, as you claim, and Illumi takes this as a sign to only double down and become more omnipresent, because obviously you havenāt quite learned how to be a kind, grateful, adoring wife.
You havenāt quite yet learned the lessons heās been trying to teach you ā so you need more guidance. You need more advice, a firmer hand to push you towards becoming the best, most noble version of yourself, and lucky, lucky you has a loving, oh so eager husband right there willing to step into that role.
Heās domineering and in control of every aspect of your life, but thereās almost a small sense of relief that youāll eventually feel. Because really, while it makes you feel weak and pathetic and pitiful to have him controlling how long you brush your teeth every morning and night, isnāt there something kind of nice about relinquishing your responsibilities? Isnāt there something oddly nice about not having to make your own decisions, to let Illumi take care of everything, to not have to worry about anything ever again?
It's the Stockholm Syndrome talking, and you may even know it ā but it doesnāt matter, because the longer you spend under Illumiās thumb, the less youāll find yourself caring about things like choice and autonomy and preference. All that matter is what he wants, what he thinks is best ā because really, doesnāt he know best?
Isnāt he superior to you in every possible way?
Protective
Illumi has a very, very good understanding of the human body.
He has to ā his job depends on it, after all, and Illumi is nothing if not dedicated to his work. He knows every muscle, vein, and bone, their purpose and exactly what it would mean if it was removed.
He knows what organs must stay in tact for survival, how much blood a person can lose and stay conscious, how cold temperature can drop before hypothermia begins, even how long a person can survive without sleeping.
And itās this wide breadth of knowledge that leads Illumi to know just how pathetically weak you are.
There are so many possible ways to hurt you ā everything from a gunshot to a paper cut could potentially end your tragically fragile life, and the longer Illumi watches you, the more uncomfortable this knowledge becomes.
Itās not that youāre objectively incapable of defending yourself ā perhaps you know some basic self-defense, or perhaps your survival instincts are sharp enough to keep you away from dangerous situations. No ā itās more that Illumi knows what other people are capable of, what nen is capable of, and he knows that youād simply be no match if someone were to attack you.
And so, this puts him into a rather uncomfortable spot; at the beginning of his obsession with you, when his feels were still freshly formed and underdeveloped, he felt no sense of protectiveness over you. Youāre an adult, you can care for yourself ā youāve survived this long, havenāt you?
But then he starts noticing how wide your smile can get, or how soft your hand is when youāre sleeping, or how pretty your voice sounds when youāre singing in your kitchen and making yourself dinner.
He starts noticing that youāve been biting your lip, the skin a little puffy and swollen and stinging a bit. Did you know that your lip could get infected, and if you donāt get to a doctor fast enough, that infection could cost you your life?
He starts noticing that the skin of your hands is a little dry, and you keep getting hangnails. Did you know that dry skin can be a sign of serious nutrition deficiencies, and if you donāt enough potassium you could end up in the hospital and slowly waste away until you eventually can no longer hold on?
He starts noticing that sometimes your voice gets a little hoarse after you try to sing a particularly high note, your voice cracking and a series of coughs racking your body. Did you know that if you cough too hard, you can actually strain your lungs and affect their ability to take in oxygen, potentially suffocating you?
Time passing brings him to the realization that the idea of you dying makes him frown, something unpleasant brewing in his chest that he guesses is sadness. He doesnāt like the idea of you passing away ā he wants you alive, and if you were to die, he wouldnāt be able to watch you anymore, to feel that warm, addicting feeling in his heart you give him. If you were to suddenly keel over and die, heād be left all alone ā like normal, yes, but now that he knows what it's like to have someone, to want someone, Illumi doesnāt think he could return to his old existence.
And so, the solution is simple: keep you alive.
Except, itās much harder to keep someone living and breathing than it is to simply kill them, and quickly Illumi is realizing just how tall an order this is. Because really, thereās just so much that could potentially injure you, that could potentially lead to your life being in danger.
Youāre just so damn clumsy ā heās watched you trip over air, and if youāre that naturally unaware of your surroundings, whoās to say you wouldnāt be susceptible to even the most minor injuries? How can he be sure that youāll manage to evade even the most innocent of accidents?
You wonāt. Heās sure of it.
And so, heās growing slightly paranoid because every new object you encounter is immediately a threat to him, five different ways that object could endanger you immediately flashing through his mind.
A pair of car keys? Theyāre dull and blunt, sure, but if they were thrust into your chest just right they could rupture something, cause you to bleed out, give you tetanus or metal poisoning.
A book youāre obsessing over? You could get a papercut, a slice across your pretty skin, and Kalluto has proven that paper can be incredibly deadly.
Your damn cell phone? Well, the screen is horrible for your eyes, your information could be sold and land in the hands of someone nefarious, and he knows you look at it while youāre walking on busy streets.
Thereās just so many avenues for you to get hurt, and Illumi works himself to the bone to prevent any of them from successfully causing you harm. And heās effective, too ā youāll find your knives have suddenly disappeared, your razors too, even any sort of pill you have thatās stronger than Ibuprofen.
All your outlets have suddenly stopped working, your ovens too, even your dishwasher.
Your shower doesnāt seem to be able to get as hot as it used to, and you donāt remember your pillows being as fluffy or numerous as they currently are.
Youāll know something is wrong, your anxiety shooting through the roof because someone must be robbing you, setting foot into your home and stealing all your things.
The reality is much more sinister, much more terrifying, and as soon as you wake up in Illumiās hold, youāll realize that your situation is much, much worse than youād imagined.
Heās going to every length to keep you safe and sound from potential harm, even if it leaves you feeling pitiful and beyond ashamed, the babyproofed bathroom he lets you use making you ill when you see the way thereās locks on the cabinets to prevent you from rooting around for anything that could cause irreparable damage.
Itāll make you feel incompetent, embarrassed even when Illumi tries to comfort you by saying that he doesnāt think youāre incapable, just not entirely trustworthy, my dear. Thereās a difference.
(His voice is always just slightly condescending when he talks to you, and this is surely no exception ā itāll make you feel worse, but he doesnāt seem to notice or care.)
Because really, all that matters to Illumi is making sure that you stay alive ā heās selfish, wanting to keep you solely to himself, and even if that means making sure you go nowhere unaccompanied, to nothing without his help, make no decisions by yourself, he doesnāt mind.
Heās doing it for you, for your shared love, for the good of your relationship.
And if you donāt seem to understand that for now, heās sure someday you will. Someday youāll realize the extent to which Illumi cares for you ā why else would he do so very much for you, his devotion to you spanning long before he finally got to sink his claws (and cock) into you?
So really, shouldnāt you be grateful?
DEALING WITH RIVALS:
Jealousy is very much not something Illumi has ever really had to deal with.
His whole life has been training, killing, devotion to his family and the Zoldyck name, and as an assassin heās never really been envious of anyone, or really had strong enough feelings about anything to want something.
Itās a concept he understands in theory but begins questioning it when it comes to the way it makes people crazy, the way people act so strangely in circumstances where envy and jealousy are concerned. It seems entirely stupid, something that only serves to derail situations.
And yet, once a strange nagging feeling begins at the edges of his mind, Illumi finds himself wondering if this is the famous jealousy heās always heard of.
It doesnāt feel good ā itās like thereās something pulling at his heart, a hand wrapped around it and squeezing every so often, the feeling almost painful and certainly irritating.
But the more heās around you, the more it persists ā almost seeming to grow by the day, even if youāre fully alone, in your apartment reading a book or scrolling through your phone. Illumi very suddenly understands why jealousy is known as something so horrible, something that eats you up inside and wonāt leave you alone ā that is, Illumi quickly begins noticing that he isnāt the only man vying for your attention and love.
Because heās constantly watching you, following you and making sure that he knows everything there is to know about your life and relationships with others, he doesnāt miss the situations where you interact with another man, where you smile and laugh and even compliment other men, all right in front of him.
(Illumi tends to conveniently disregard the fact that you arenāt able to sense him, that you arenāt aware that you have a dangerous, murderous stalker trailing your every move.)
Itās irritating, frustrating, distracting enough to be seriously affecting his work ā heāll have a fleeting thought of the way youād smiled at that other man a week ago as he goes for the final stab into the targetās chest, but the slight snarl he lets out has him missing just slightly, instead nicking the target in the shoulder and giving them an opportunity to scramble away.
Illumiās irritation only increases at that, and soon thereās blood splattered along the floor as he breaths deeply, the red staining his clothing standing out bright.
He really tried to ignore it at first, but once it began affecting him even when heās not in your presence, Illumi knew he had to solve the problem. And after a quick, rather detached conversation with his father about it, Illumi was quickly enlightened that he was in fact jealous, his father having laughed lightly and patting him on the arm, telling him that itās natural to feel that way about your wife, Illumi. Your duty is as an assassin, but as a member of this family. If the woman youāve chosen to bear your heir is giving you such feelings, I see no harm in acting upon them. It will serve you well to focus more on your work, as well.
And so Illumi embraces this newfound permission to foster this emotion - itās odd, the way what heās fairly confident is anger coils around his heart, making his fists clench slightly, his nails digging into his palms as he watches you talk and laugh with that man. That man, who probably doesnāt even know how to use nen, who probably doesnāt even understand how perfect of a wife you could be, how good of a mother and perfect addition to his family youād be.
Itās strange, and while Illumi doesnāt particularly enjoy it, he canāt deny the odd sense of finality that comes with killing without being paid to, the strange sensation of enjoying ending a life. He finds himself smiling after plunging his nails into a manās jugular, but Illumi isnāt too horribly bothered.
Itās new and strange, but so is everything else you make Illumi experience, after all. Why should this be any different?
As he trails behind you in the shadows, his dark eyes train in on your figure as you bite your lip and look over the selection of fruit displayed out on the cart of the farmerās market.
Illumi stays perfectly still, completely focused on watching you. Youāre wearing a pair of jeans today, pants that hug your figure a little too tightly for his tastes, along with a sweatshirt that does quite the opposite ā hiding your upper body, which Illumi only finds slightly more agreeable.
(In the back of his mind, he makes a mental note to have a talk with you about proper dress for a woman such as yourself ā a woman whoās to become part of a powerful, wealthy family, and as such must represent them - and her husband - with her head held high and confidence oozing from her. Heās sure a nice skirt and blouse will do the trick ā silky or satin, shimmery and soft like you. Or, perhaps, a dress ā maybe a floral pattern or a deep magenta. Of course, youāll eventually be wearing purple, the Zoldyck family color, but he knows women enjoy fashion, and he's interested to see what youād pick.)
As he thinks through what heāll say to you, already planning out how the conversation will go, he notices a man with shaggy brown hair and honey brown eyes take a deep breath and walk beside you, standing next to you and looking over the selection of apples, pears, oranges and various other fruits.
Illumiās expression makes no change as the brunette says something about how thereās always too many options at markets like these, types of fruit that heās never heard of making it difficult to choose, to which you laugh and full heartedly agree.
The assassin makes no move, but as he watches and listens with distaste lodged in the back of his throat, you continue on the conversation, asking the manās advice on which type of apple you should get.
Itās a short interaction, in all honesty - maybe a minute maximum, but Illumi is still watching with a heavy, piercing gaze, feeling the same odd, sickly feeling rise up from his chest.
Heās already decided that if the man moves to lay even a finger on you heāll emerge from the shadows, swiftly and triumphantly piercing his chest with his entire hand.
Maybe thatāll get him to stop talking.
But the man doesnāt, and so Illumi begrudgingly lets the conversation run its course. You eventually say goodbye to the man and ask him if heād like to meet up at the same booth in a week to compare the types of fruit.
Immediately Illumiās fist clenches, his nails sharpening and digging into his palms, drops of blood littering the pavement below him as his eyes never stray, keeping trained on you as you walk in the opposite direction of the man, who is now blushing and smiling like a fool.
Disgusting, Illumi thinks as he follows the man.
The world wonāt miss him, is all heās thinking as he pulls a pin and flicks his wrist, the needle sinking into his neck. He watches with a dull gaze as the fast acting poison renders the man immobile, falling to his knees as his chest slows its breaths, eventually no longer moving.
You most certainly wonāt, he thinks as he picks up the body, unsheathing the needle after life has left the body, finding a nearby trash bin to stuff the man into.
It isnāt the most efficient method of dealing with a body, but Illumi canāt be bothered ā after all, in the some thirty seconds itās taken him to deal with the man who thought he had a chance with what Illumi has already claimed as his, youāve managed to make it a bit further from him, wandering through the maze of stalls with the bag full of produce in your hands.
Heās immediately falling into step behind you, the flexing of his fingers doing nothing to distract him as he brings back his stare, internally sighing as he sees another man ā this time blond ā look over at you and not so subtly rake his eyes up and down your body.
Illumiās brow twitches ā he only brought twenty needles this morning, and youāve only been at the market for some fifteen minutes. Already he only has three left, and with a small sigh he reminds himself to bring more tomorrow, as heāll surely use them.
And really, while Illumi doesnāt enjoy that other men are looking at you, being deluded enough to believe that they have a chance with you, he needs to make sure that there are no complications with your union, that there will be no problems to take care of when he eventually whirls you away to his home, where youāll be his lovely wife that provides him with children and a warmth he canāt explain.
Thereās a certain thrill that comes with letting himself feel, with not pushing down the emotion as his father said ā a certain thrill that he can only feel where youāre concerned.
After all, youāre just that special.
TAKING HIS DARLING AWAY:
From the moment Illumi decides that youāre a good match for him, it becomes a known fact (at least, among his family) that you would eventually be living alongside him in the Zoldyck manor.
You donāt have a choice, really ā all of his family lives together on the mountain, and you will be no exception, despite your temporary status as an honorary member.
(This status is temporary if only because now you arenāt an official Zoldyck, but the moment you become pregnant with his child, this status changes ā youāre a real Zoldyck then, because inside you grows the familyās next assassin, a product of Illumiās devotion to you and proof of your resolve to commit yourself to the Zoldycks. Itās all terribly romantic to Illumi, even if it makes you want to hurl, and heāll have no qualms telling you this information ā heāll even frame it as if itās some sort of incentive to get you eagerly spreading your legs for him. He treats it like you want to be accepted into the family ā like itās your deepest desire, and no amount of arguing or pleading with him will convince him otherwise.)
You will be sharing a bed with him, living under the same roof and spending all your time beside him when heās not away for a job, whether you like it or not, and Illumi has known this from the very beginning. Youāll be curled up in his arms, his skin cold and slightly clammy as he holds you, his grip much too tight and stiff even as he sleeps ā you can hardly move, every breath you take feeling constricted and controlled, as if Illumi is doing you a favor by allowing you just a bit of space to breathe.
It takes him a while to fully develop and understand what his feelings mean, but once he does he isnāt holding back in any form - his family was, for lack of a better word, floored the night that their eldest son casually mentioned having selected his future wife. Kikyo was immediately pressing him for details, wanting to know every fact and scrap of information about her future daughter in law, which Illumi was happy to provide.
He immediately spouted off your name, age, basic personality, physical features, hobbies, interests, important life events, past and current jobs, relationships with your parents, friends, partners, anything and everything he can think of, Kikyo listening all the while with a scowl on her face. Sheās confused on why her precious son has chosen you, considering you werenāt a skilled nen user, a fighter or even someone of great importance.
Sheās not completely convinced of her sonās choice, but thereās a strange determination to Illumiās normally lifeless eyes that she can see that makes her back off a bit, leaving her with an odd sense of finality in his words, confidence in his decision that makes it hard to argue.
(Besides, everyone knows Killua is the true heir of the family ā as long as Illumi produces members to join the Zoldyck ranks, itās not so important who chooses to wed. As long as theyāre suitable for conception, sheāll begrudgingly accept ā perhaps not with enthusiasm, but sheāll relent nonetheless.)
Silva is listening as well, though not as intensely as his wife, and after Illumi finishes his some twenty minute recall of your information, he merely takes a sip of his drink and nods, telling his son to treat her with care, she sounds weak in comparison to you.
Milluki is rolling his eyes, wondering why his brother decided on someone so normal, though he doesnāt dare say anything. Internally, though, heās already imagining what you look like, his mental picture of you built upon Illumiās descriptions, but with just a bit more detail ā things his brother hadnāt mentioned, like the size of your chest or if youāre clumsy or if your voice is high and feminine and whiny.
Kalluto only nods, wondering what youāll be like in person if youāve managed to catch his older brotherās eye.
His mother is still disappointed in his choice, but wastes no time helping Illumi prepare for your eventual arrival, helping him create a regiment for how to integrate you into the family, how to work with your needs, considering your status as a mere commoner.
And while Illumi lets his mother plan and schedule and bustle about, heās merely thinking of how he should take you away, tuning out his motherās shrill words as she yells and commands butlers, telling them to prepare and clean and do everything so that Illumiās new wife will be received well.
In all reality, Illumi ā while very much concerned with his familyās acceptance of you, considering the tightness and loyalty instilled into him ā isnāt especially concerned about the plans his mother is running wild preparing. He knows that with enough time and training, youāll eventually fit right into the mold his mother wants you to, or at least as far into it as Illumi is allowing.
Because really, while he agrees that you need to be toughened up at least a little bit in order to survive in the mansion and be strong enough to bear his children, he doesnāt want your core personality to change ā he fell in love with you for a reason, and while you must be trained a bit to survive as a Zoldyck, he doesnāt want you to become a stranger.
And so instead of listening to his motherās plans, heās slipping out under the cover of nightfall and climbing through the familiar window of your bedroom, your sleeping form laying so still and peaceful, like youāre just waiting for him to come steal you away.
A pin (as much as he hates piercing your skin with the needle, it must be done) is applied to your shoulder and your sleep is suddenly much heavier, your body visibly going limp, your breaths getting longer and deeper, and for a moment he worries that heās infused too much nen into the needle, that your breathing will just keep slowing until it eventually stops.
His grip against his spare needles tightens at the thought, the force so strong that it snaps the metal in half, the sound knocking him from his thoughts as he blinks down at you, a small sense of relief filling him because your chest is still steadily rising and falling.
Illumi carries you in his arms back to the manor, not minding the weight of your body holding him down.
And just as he passes through the gates, he feels what he thinks might be excitement brewing in his chest.
Life with Illumi will be, in all honesty, hell.
Itās not so much that he enjoys making you miserable or seeing you uncomfortable, but rather that heās grown up with such intense expectations, such strict regimes and schedules that he upholds you to similar standards.
Of course, you wonāt be going through training to become an assassin while youāre with him ā no practice with combat or anything so violent, if only because Illumiās worry over your safety prohibits him from allowing you anywhere near a knife or a fist cocked and ready to be swung.
(Not to mention the fact that he plans on you going absolutely nowhere without him, and as such thereās no reason for you to learn how to defend yourself. You donāt need to build up immunity to poison, how to most effectively snap a neck, or to learn any number of the cruel things that he thinks are much too unwomanly for someone like you.)
No, the schedule and timetables he puts you on are much more general, humiliating, dehumanizing ā being told when you can and canāt use the restroom is something youāll quickly come to realize takes away even the barest scrap of dignity and independence you have left under Illumiās control.
He dictates what time you wake up, what you eat for each meal of the day, and your activities between meals - comprised mostly of more feminine things, as his mother advised you learn, like sewing and mending, floral arrangement, proper dining etiquette, and of course, lessons on how to properly raise children, taught by Kikyo herself.
(From the get go, it will be extremely apparent to you that the entirety of the Zoldyck family ā Illumi included ā expect offspring, assuming with little thought that youāll be bearing the eldest sonās children in what Silva has expressed as sooner than you think with a small nod and poignant stare. Shivers had run down your spine at the way Illumiās gaze on you seemed to only grow in intensity at his fatherās comment, his cold fingers pressing against the small of your back in a way that made your skin crawl. Besides, the built in conception time, as Illumi so lovingly puts it, makes it more than obvious that heās fucking you with the intent of getting you pregnant.)
Itās demeaning, the way youāre treated like some toddler, some incompetent idiot with the way Kikyo flutters around you, her shrill voice echoing through the corridors as you cower and obey.
It isnāt that you want to be obedient to a family youāve come to realize is beyond fucked up, but youāve also seen Illumi at work. Heās come home to you covered in blood, giving you a small smile as he awkwardly leans down to press a chaste kiss against your lips, his dark eyes staying open the whole time.
You donāt particularly want to be the submissive, obedient future mother of Illumiās children like everyone in the manor is expecting you to be (with the exception of Killua, whom Illumi desperately wants you to get along with, and he may honestly be the only ray of light within this dark, musty home ā at least he somewhat understands how fucked up the situation is, though heās told you many times that thereās nothing he can do to help you).
But the constant threat of the fact that anyone in the house could kill you with a simple flick of the wrist is not lost on you, and while Illumi genuinely terrifies you for much of the first few months of your captivity, you quickly learn to obey his every word, to live to please him.
Heās really the only ally you have ā heās more forgiving, easier to try and wiggle your way out of a less severe punishment with, especially as you learn to predict his wishes.
He wants you to wear a certain kimono that he thinks looks beautiful on you? You hate the pattern on it and the way the style makes your figure look, but you scramble to slide into the fabric, trying to ignore his ever present stare boring into your naked body.
He wants you to come play with his hair, because heās been told by his father that it feels nice and heās seen couples do it? immediately youāre clambering to sit on the chair behind his seated position on the floor, running your fingers through his dark locks while he sits stick straight, silence enveloping the two of you.
He wants you to lay beside him while he rests, recovering his energy from a recent mission? Youāre already slipping underneath the sheets, clearing a space for him and letting him wrap his arms around your waist and pull you against him.
(Heās so stiff even when he ācuddlesā you ā his skin is so cold, his back straight, his grip on you tight enough to make you squirm, and the hot breath against your neck when he tells you that heās missed you, my dear, my day is less bright without your presence will make you wince.)
Some of his wishes are, admittedly, much more difficult to obey than others, however ā when he tells you to lay back and spread your legs while heās shimmying off his pants, itās difficult to not fight, to not cry and scream as he pushes into you, his eyebrows twitching together and his pale fists clenching by your head as he slowly begins humping into you.
He isnāt necessarily bad to you per se, though quickly his family picks up on his cluelessness on how to truly treat a spouse, and so after a few comments from Silva about how to properly woo you (maybe she will be less unruly, and you may have more luck producing children this way as well) he actually does take his advice and try to make at least some attempt at romancing you.
Heās telling you robotically delivered compliments, buying you bouquets of roses, even rewarding your good behavior with small knick knacks from your old apartment and life ā but itās not enough; the fear of him is still far greater than the almost charming awkwardness he exudes in moments of intimacy and tenderness will ever be.
Youāll essentially become a submissive, sweet little housewife under Illumiās care, and even if you hate it, even if you try with everything you have to not be subjected to the future of bearing his children, holding the famous last name of Zoldyck, and being completely subservient to the man who kidnapped you and forcefully began a ārelationshipā with you, Illumi and the rest of his family have ways of making sure you stay in line.
And before long, youāll grow to accept your place, to realize that there is absolutely nothing you can do.
PUNISHMENTS:
In all honesty, Illumi rarely gets actually mad at you ā heās much more frequently disappointed when you donāt behave correctly, when you fight him or make some weak attempt at escaping.
He doesnāt get mad, but there is this small sense of pity that he feels when he watches you cry and beg him to not come any closer, to please let me go, I promise I wonāt tell anyone what happened! Please, I donāt want to be with you or your sick family!
It hurts, if heās being honest, but he knows that in order to train you, to mold you into the perfect spouse and future mother of his children, he needs to be patient.
Dogs canāt be expected to follow commands from the very beginning, right?
And so, when he kneels down to where youāre curled up in the corner of your shared room, his dark hair hanging around you like a curtain while his wide eyes never blink and stay situated on you, heās merely tilting his head and asking in a voice much too serious to be natural, oh but darling, canāt you see youāre already part of this family? Now, dinner is to be ready in thirty minutes. I need to properly prepare you.
He actually has a surprising amount of patience with you ā you make him soft (or at least as soft as he can be, though anyone that knows him well can spot the differences in his treatment and air around you), and he doesnāt really want to harm you or scare you.
Itās a necessary evil in his eyes, though if he had his way, heād train you to the point where youāre willingly looking at him with love.
Heād train you until youāre welcoming him home with a sweet kiss to his cheek after a long job with a toddler clutching at your legs, a baby suckling at your breast and a swollen belly telling him and the rest of the world exactly who you belong to, your lovesick cry of his name when you see him making the smile plastered onto his lips that much more genuine.
You make him feel, something so foreign and strange, and to Illumi this new, small amount of emotion feels downright overwhelming, something so strong and powerful and wonderful. Itās addicting, truly, something that he finds himself actively wanting, a concept heās never felt before towards anything except bringing back Killua.
And so while he doesnāt particularly enjoy punishing you, itās worth it to keep those feelings alive, to build up to the point where his fantasies of your domestic future with one another come to fruition.
So really, while he doesnāt get mad at you very often, he wonāt hesitate to dole out punishments where he sees fit ā itās all for a greater purpose, he tells you, though you have your doubts.
Besides, thereās something even more disturbing about him punishing you when he isnāt even angry ā itās worse because it all just seems so pointless; maybe if he was yelling you would understand why heās doing what heās doing. Heād seem human, maybe, capable of emotion ā instead, you get those familiar, dead eyes staring at you, his expression carefully neutral as he tells you that this is for your own sake, my dear, and one day youāll see that.
When it comes to actually punishing you, Illumiās aversion to causing you any sort of physical harm prevents him from inflicting a whole varietyof punishments onto you ā he doesnāt want to taint your delicate skin, to break a bone, to do any number of things that heās been told over and over by his family would help.
(Milluki insists that breaking both of your legs would be a good way to prevent any kind of behavior targeted around trying to escape, and while Illumi understands the logic and even agrees with it, the look of your teary eyes staring up at him and your desperate pleads to not hurt you are simply too much.)
(Milluki also suggests, with a crude grin and a gulp, that perhaps letting him try a hand at getting you to cooperate would be helpful ā besides, heāll add with a smarmy smile and his tongue flicking out over his lips, a Zoldyck heir is a Zoldyck heir, doesnāt matter who knocked her up, right? That night, Milluki ended up with the broken bone rather than you.)
He isnāt sure why heās so incapable of hurting you considering his profession, but he just canāt ā and so, he finds other methods.
Namely, your mental state is completely fair game; heās training you after all, and when the basement of the Zoldyck mansion is just so expansive, so cold and wet and so very dark, how can he not use that to his advantage?
Your eyes are casted downwards, your voice soft and unsure as you ask if you can see my family again? Kikyo mentioned that itās December, and thereās an important birthday in the family this month that Iād like to celebrate with themā¦
Illumi had been cuddling you (or, at least holding you in his arms while he lay on his side, completely frozen and inhaling the scent of your hair again and again while you uncomfortably squirmed around), but the moment those words tumble from your lips, heās blinking pensively, pondering your statement.
I donāt know of any birthdays in the family this month.
When you try again, telling him that itās your family youāre talking about, the one you were raised in and that you love, immediately heās cutting you off.
My dear, you must be mistaken. The nearest birthday is Grandfatherās, and that isnāt for another month.
His voice is firmer this time, as if heās trying to tell you something, but some part of you refuses to silently accept his blatant dismissal of your request.
Illumi you donāt understand, itās ā
his grip is tightening even more, practically suffocating you as his nails dig into your exposed arms, his voice somewhere between a hiss and a scold.
No, my love, you donāt understand. Donāt speak of them. They are no longer your family ā you are a Zoldyck now, and youāll forget all of those past imposters. You will not, under any circumstances, be allowed to see them again. Now, come with me.
And itās not like you have much of a choice ā as he picks you up and brings you down the stairs, endless winding hallways that steadily grow colder and colder the deeper you head, youāre flailing, apologizing profusely, anything to not have to spend another few nights in the basement.
And while Illumi doesnāt enjoy the tears that stream down your cheeks, he stays strong and ties you to the chains connected to the walls ā loose enough that you can be seated on the ground, but tight enough to restrict any movement.
Once youāre stationary, he stands before you and stares, the light from the door behind him illuminating his figure.
I expect you to tell me who your real family is when I return.
And with that, heās walking out the room and slamming the door shut behind him, leaving you shrouded in darkness, with nothing but the sound of your own breathing and heartbeat to entertain you.
He generally leaves you down there for three days, give or take ā enough to have you dehydrated, your stomach growling and rumbling painfully at the lack of food, cold seeping into your bones and leaving you shivering and shaking, all the while fear envelopes you because thereās something here with you, you just know it.
The sounds coming from the corner of the room are too difficult to ignore, though you have no idea what it could be. You presume itās some sort of creature, designed to kill you if Illumi so desires, the scuttling noise making fear creep up your spine every time you hear it. The sounds are ryhtmic, predictable, always going off in roughly thirty minute intervals, leading you to believe the creature is smart, or at least trained to be so.
Itās terrifying and your mind will conjure up images of terrifying, grotesque beasts in its bored and fearful state, but in reality the monster in question is Illumi himself ā he grows so dependent on you that he canāt be away from you for more than about a day, so he treats himself to hiding in the shadows and simply watching you.
Youāre very pretty, even when youāre crying and covered in dirt and covered in your own piss, and itās in those moments that Illumi truly realizes how deeply his feelings for you run, how badly he wants you to be his everything. He just canāt stop looking at you, those dark eyes raking over your figure over and over and over, moving his position roughly every thirty minutes to get a new angle of you.
(Though, itās not like he needs to see you to remember what you look like from this angle, heās stalked you so thoroughly and so heavily that he could draw your face in his sleep with pinpoint accuracy, your features metaphorically carved behind his eyelids so that heāll always see you you you when he blinks.)
And when he eventually opens the door once more, light cracking into the room and making you violently blink, heās asking if youāve learned your lesson yet, if youāre finally understanding who your real family is, and immediately youāre practically yelling that yes, I understand! Iām a Zoldyck, the Zoldycks are my real family! I love them and I love you, Illumi, because Iām your wife and thatās all Iāve ever wanted to be!
(If you were in a better state of mind youād have the energy to be ashamed of yourself, but youāre so desperate to get out of this cellar and into the warmth, to drink something and eat something and be away from the thing trapped in there with you that you just donāt care.)
He nods, satisfied, and opens the locks, only to blink in surprise when you wobbly embrace him, sobbing into his chest and clutching onto his clothes because even though heās unnaturally cold, heās still warmer than the hell youāve been in for the last three days.
And while heās not the best at physical affection, heāll wrap his arms around you and pull you tighter, crushing you against his hard chest whispering in your ear that heās so glad youāve finally accepted your place.
OVERALL DANGER:
9/10
The danger that lies with being Illumiās darling is honestly just the fact that once he chooses you, there is absolutely no chance of escaping him.
Heās a trained assassin with connections everywhere; outside of death itself, thereās no way for you to get away from him, no matter how hard you try or who you manage to recruit into aiding you.
(And even if you were to somehow manage to kill yourself, Illumi will keep your dead body by his side ā holding it at night while he sleeps, propping you in a chair across from him while he eats and carries on a one sided conversation about work that day, even going so far as to fuck your cold, lifeless body just to feel you.)
Heās lived his whole life feeling nothing at all, and the second that you inspire any bit of emotion within him, his whole perspective seems to alter just slightly, something warm and strange and good blooming in his chest. Itās something completely foreign, but the longer it goes on the more he decides the likes it, growing used to the feeling and craving more of it, finding himself yearning ā yes, yearning ā to feel it once more when heās been away from you for long periods of time.
Once he realizes that the common cause of this feeling is you, Illumi is deciding that youāre the one heāll be adding to the Zoldyck family as his partner, his spouse, his lover.
Youāll be the one to bear his children and continue on the name, all while he gets to enjoy the strange warmth in his chest, the odd protectiveness that forces him to keep you locked up, safe from the outside world, the strange urge he feels to reach out and touch you, to see you smile, to feel your lips against his own.
And so while he wonāt ever directly physically harm you, your mental state will be destroyed, and youāll be in constant fear that someday heāll decide you arenāt worth the trouble, that once he impregnates you and you give him a few heirs, heāll kill you off effortlessly.
These fears will never, ever see fruition of course, but the trouble with Illumi is that you just never know.
Heās skilled in the art of killing, but his skills in lying are quite formidable as well ā you can never truly tell when heās being honest with you, and while heās never fully lied to you (only misrepresented facts and led you to believe something that may not be entirely true), youāll live in a constant state of unease because youāre so, so very aware that he could kill you with a mere flick of his wrist if he so desired, and whatās stopping him? He claims to be in love, but in what world is this love?
And you, lucky lucky you, get the lovely package deal of not only him, but his fucked up family as well ā so good luck, and really, just let him mold you into the perfect, obedient little wife he wants you to be.
Tw: mentions of non/dub-con, stalking, masturbation, kidnapping, spit, drool, lots and lots of cum, Feitan is gross and icky and comes in your conditioner I'm so sorry, seriously this one is pretty gross I apologize now, bondage, ropes, blood, period sex, consumption of period blood, Stockholm Syndrome, a few mentions of reader having pubic hair, mentions of premature ejaculation, Feitan has intimacy issues, a touch of sadomasochism, dry humping, blindfolds, begging, edging, overstimulation, there's a lot going on, fem reader, MDNI
I do not condone any of the actions described in this post - this is fiction and should be treated as such. If you or a loved one is in a similar situation to anything contained in this post or my blog in general, please seek help. You're in charge of your internet consumption; please make responsible choices. With that, enjoy!Ā
WC: 12K (oh my god)
HABITS:
Even amongst the Troupe, Feitan is particularly emotionally stunted.Ā
Of course, he knows about relationships, about the intimacy that ensues - heās never personally fucked anyone, but he knows how it goes, what itās like (at least, in theory), how itās supposed to feel. Heās just never wanted to - his libido is actually quite low, and although heās spent nights tossing and turning in bed, cock throbbing and aching for attention, heās never felt the urge to find some random woman for a fun, stress relieving night.Ā
Sure, heās jerked off more times than he can count, and heās been to more strip clubs with Phinks and Uvogin than heād care to admit. Heās been around it his whole life, even from a young age as a child in Meteor City - so yes, he knows about sex.Ā
Heās just never been able to tolerate someone long enough to consider sleeping with them, much less actively wanting to sleep with them. And yet, once you step into his life, Feitan finds himself uncomfortably aroused by the idea of letting his hands wander your body, of seeing the way your pretty face would scrunch up in pleasure, of hearing your little moans and yelps when he kisses you and sinks his teeth in just a bit too hard.Ā
Once his obsession with you forms and he begins moving past some of those initial mental barriers, Feitan finds himself beginning to crave you intimately, physically, sexually. And, just as the rest of his feelings for you, he hates it at first.Ā
He hates how just a simple thought of you has his body growing hot, the collar of his jacket uncomfortably tight as he shifts his weight, trying to ignore the way blood is steadily rushing south.Ā
He hates how just a simple look from you, with your eyes all innocent yet sultry, makes him gulp a bit, his fingers twitching at his side. He doesnāt like how he canāt control his bodyās reaction to you, but itās not like he can help it - itās instinctual, primal, carnal, as if his body is recognizing that youāre the chosen one for him to fornicate with, as if youāre the only one worthy of his sexual attention.
Feitan doesnāt like this change in developments much, but quickly he finds himself at a crossroads; he can spend nearly every night staring at the black of his ceiling, laying in bed and glancing down at the massive tent in the sheets centered around his crotch, or he can give in and get working, letting his hand run along the length of his cock all with you on his mind.
Ā He doesnāt feel guilty about masturbating to you, per se, but there is this weird sense of embarrassment that sits heavy in his chest as he exhales shakily and spreads the bead of precum along his shaft. There is this weird feeling like heās doing something bad, something naughty, as if youād be disgusted if you were to ever find out.
It makes him feel strange, but he almost likes it - itās a thrill he gets, particularly to the knowledge that youād probably be disgusted to know he wrings himself dry (often more than once at a time) nearly every night, all with the mental image of you naked, writhing and stuffing your fingers into that warm, wet, oh so fucking tight cunt of yours.Ā
Heād never admit, but heād give anything to be your fingers, to feel the sensation of being inside you, even if it was only for a few moments. (Thatād probably be enough to make come the first time he fucks you, anyways.)
Once he gives in to getting off with you in mind, Feitan finds himself fucking his fist frequently, frantically, his hips thrusting into his hand faster and rougher the longer he goes on, the longer the image of you crying his name and clenching down around his cock plays behind his eyelids.
He wraps his hand around his girth and immediately starts violently pumping his fist up and down, until heās eventually stuttering your name and coming, sending spurts of cum flying up onto his chest, the white staining his pale chest. It feels good, or at least good enough to satisfy him for the moment, up until he ends up palming himself through his pants the next night.Ā
Itās a never ending cycle, and frankly it leaves Feitan frustrated ā itās just not enough. The thought of you is more than enough, really, to functionally get him shooting ropes of cum out of his swollen, needy tip, but thereās this part of him buried deep inside that needs more, something to make him feel like itās really you heās touching and fucking.Ā
Itās not enough to be the one touching himself, when he knows it would feel different if it was your soft hand, your warm lips, your tight walls. He needs something more, something more intimate and personal and you in order to really get himself off, to really feel connected to you in the way he craves.Ā
And so, Feitan makes a discovery one evening that changes everything; he has a penchant for sneaking into your room after youāve fallen asleep, the dismal security of your apartment something heās simultaneously grateful and irritated with you for. He likes to just watch you sleeping, those dark eyes taking in every detail about your unconscious form, all exposed for his viewing pleasure without you even knowing it.Ā
He always shuffles closer the longer he watches, his feet taking just a tiny step every once in a while, just because he can smell you better when heās closer, see more detail in your skin and features, and itās only after heās crept his way right up to your side that he notices it. He should be disgusted, he thinks, when he sees the bit of drool slipping past your lips, your slumber deep enough that you havenāt noticed the wet pool of it against your pillow.Ā
He should be grimacing and scooting away, revolted by something so gross, but instead Feitan finds his eyes getting caught on the way your lips are just slightly parted, the wetness against your chin shining ever so slightly in the pale moonlight.Ā
He doesnāt really know why he does it, but soon his fingers are reaching out, lightly brushing against your lip, a sharp inhale audible as he feels the warm wetness of your saliva against his fingertips. Heāll retract his hand, staring with narrowed eyes, before slowly, carefully bringing his fingers to his own mouth, slipping them past his lips, letting his eyes flutter closed because heās tasting you.Ā
Itās euphoric, your spit sweet and leaving the perfect tang on his tongue, and suddenly Feitanās reaching into his jacket pockets, frantically searching for the vial he keeps on hand, just in case he needs a bit of blood from a victim or enemy. He gulps when he finally pulls it out, wiping at it to rid it of any remaining blood, before carefully bringing the glass up to your face, positioning it right below your chin so that the next bit of drool to drip out of your mouth lands in the vial rather than on your pillow.Ā
Itās a slow process, filling it up, but Feitanās committed, spending every night sitting beside your bed, watching you sleep and seeing the glass slowly fill with your drool, collected all for him. And when he finally has enough? Well, itās easy to transition from slowly dipping his fingers in the vial and letting his tongue glide over them to letting the spit cover other areas of his body, even if the mere idea makes him scoff while a blush settles over the bridge of his nose.Ā
Itās not until one night, though, that he finally takes the plunge, crossing a line he can never recover from. Heād been particularly pent up, his cock absolutely swollen, aching and desperate for release, and his fist was just not enough. Even as he pounded away, biting his lip and furrowing his thin brows, the pleasure just wouldnāt come.Ā
His eyes wander from his ceiling down to his dresser, zeroing in on the glass vial sitting so innocently, so provocatively, practically taunting him to come closer. Heās snatching up the glass before he can really think, sitting back down and tearing the top off, his fingers moving faster than he can process.Ā
Soon, heās dipping them in, swirling them a bit to make sure theyāre really covered, but instead of bringing them to his lips, his hands travel south - gripping onto his cock, the wet coolness making him hiss through his teeth. He brings his wrist up, your saliva slowly smearing along his shaft, leaving it wet and twitching in the cold air of his bedroom, visibly throbbing as he runs his thumb over his slit, making sure to absolutely drench himself with your spit.Ā
His eyes slide shut, head rolled back slightly as he moves his hand at a steady, painfully slow pace, trying to calm his heart rate because this is so very different from before. Itās different, if only because itās you - your saliva is letting his hand move smoother, your saliva coating his skin, you helping him to get off. It makes him feel dizzy, the familiar coil in his stomach appearing embarrassingly quickly as he speeds up his fist, images of you playing behind his eyes.Ā
He canāt help but imagine you on your knees before him, staring up at him with those pretty eyes, all wide and glassy and yearning, with your hands tied behind your back and your lips parted, pink tongue lolled out and waiting for him to fill that tight throat of yours. He grunts, squeezing at his tip, digging his fingers back through the vial to refresh the supply of your drool, and in his mind heās slowly tracing your lips with the head, smearing his precum along your skin as you clench your thighs together and hum, practically begging him to facefuck you.Ā
Feitan hunches forward slightly as his wrist moves even faster, hand flying up and down his shaft, wet noises accompanying every jerk all caused by the excessive wetness heās coated himself with, the feeling of your spit exactly what heād be feeling if he was actually stuffing your little mouth, dark hairs tickling your cheeks and nose as he pushes your head all the way down, so that his tip is nestled down your throat.Ā
He lets out a guttural groan at that, a strained noise that makes him grimace, but he canāt help it - his orgasm is approaching, and he canāt help but listen to the wet squelching noises and imagine your gags and sharp breaths accompanying them, his toes curling. It feels so good, a building warmth in his naval that only grows bigger, stronger, more insistent, and all too soon heās imagining the way youād present your face to him when he pulls out and strokes himself over your face, cum spurting from his tip and landing in rivulets all along your cheeks, lips, nose, even getting into your hair.
Youād look so good, all messy and out of breath and covered in him him him, just as he is you.Ā
He bares his teeth as he feels himself right on the edge, his fingers clutching onto the vial so tightly he nearly shatters it, his cock bobbing and throbbing, balls clenching as he curls in on himself, small chants of your name mumbled under breath and then heās coming, cum spraying everywhere as he gasps, hips bucking involuntarily into the air, chasing after his fist with every pump, aching to be releasing inside you, where it belongs.Ā
He takes a moment to come down from his high, chest heaving and eyes wide, staring down at the vial in his shaking hand, the weight of his orgasm shocking him. Heād never come so hard, like every muscle in his body was spasming, the pleasure nearly overwhelming. His eyes flick over to the clock, and he splutters, seeing the time.Ā
3:08, meaning only three minutes had passed since heād snatched up the vial, feeling your spit against his skin, feeling you against the sensitive skin of his cock.Ā
His eyes close, his breath finally evening out, before heās carefully setting the vial aside, recapping it and laying onto his back, trying to process why the hell heād come so fast with something as grotesque as your spit to help him. Heās not sure, but then the images return of you on your knees for him, face still covered in his release and telling him that you want more, please Feitan, will you give me more?Ā
He groans as he feels his softening cock suddenly begin growing once more, his hips twitching as he reaches down to lightly grope at his balls, swallowing and deciding whether to dip his fingers into the vial yet again - he only has a limited supply, after all, and heād be needing it again tomorrow night when he inevitably lets his mind wander to thoughts of you tied up and begging for him.Ā
He grumbles, a strained sort of sound, before getting to work once more, spitting into his hand and letting a small, barely there smile grace his lips, the slight flush still high on his cheeks. Heād have to get some more, he decided, because this?Ā
Well, fucking you was surely better, but Feitan would be a food to not capitalize on this new discovery - and when heās painting his chest with ribbons of cum again a few minutes later, he decides that heāll never go back to not having something of yours to aid him while he gets off.Ā
Itās just more intimate this way, better, like youāre really there - like youāre really naked and ready to fulfill every need, desire and fantasy of his.Ā
Like you want him.Ā
FAVORITE BODY PARTS:
Your face
In general, Feitan thinks youāre attractive. Heās hesitant to say beautiful or pretty or really anything of the sort, if only because the way he feels for you is a bit more complicated than that.Ā
Youāre not just pretty; youāre alluring, someone that always seems to catch his eye no matter how hard he tries to stop it.Ā
Youāre not beautiful; objectively, thereās nothing about you that he hasnāt seen in hundreds of other women, whether it be your hair, your lips, your figure, or anything else. (Except maybe your eyes, or maybe your smile - things that are just so unapologetically you, things that Feitan thinks he could recognize with his eyes closed.)Ā
Youāre nothing particularly special, physically speaking, and yet thereās something about you that he just canāt shake, some involuntarily thing that motivates him to always have his eyes on you, his body unconsciously facing you, his senses just so very aware of you. And because Feitan spends so much time simply watching you, heās become extremely well antiquated with your features, with your pretty face that always seems to pull him in, like a moth to a flame.Ā
Heās memorized the way your lips curve, the soft skin puckering and moving with every word you say, and he often finds his gaze flicking down to watch while you talk, eyes sitting there idly as he lets his mind wander to what else you can do with those lips, what other shapes they can make.Ā
Heās studied every slope of your nose, the shape seeming to fit your face perfectly, and he even finds himself turning his lip when he sees models or celebrities with the same nasal structure - it doesnāt look nearly as good on them as it does you.Ā
And of course, your eyes - heās spent more hours than he can count looking into them, unwilling to break the eye contact as he stares, fascinated with the color, how they shine in the light, how sunlight seems to make them glow, making you glow.Ā
So while thereās not any particular thing Feitan can say makes you attractive, you just are - enough so that heās found himself seeing flashing images of your face late at night, when heās unable to sleep and polishing his weapons, letting his mind wander and inevitably stumble into thoughts of you. Heāll relive the way you look when you smile - your grin is wide, teeth exposed, the pretty skin of your lips all stretched to accommodate your joy.Ā
Heās imagining the way youād lick your lips when he tells you to get on your knees, his cock mere inches from your face as he strokesĀ himself, the eagerness and hunger in your eyes making him rush forward and bury himself down your throat in one go.
Heās imagining the way youād look when heās got you creaming on his cock, face pressed against the mattress and a mixture of tears and drool slipping down your chin, the pleasure just too much, even while your hips grind back on him, wanting more more more.Ā
He just likes your face, finding it oddly pleasing, and when the two of you are intimate, he finds himself eagerly searching out your facial expressions as often as possible - itās the way he knows what you like, if youāre enjoying what heās doing to you, if heās doing a good job.Ā
So really, exaggerate the expressions, make it clear exactly what youāre feeling, and Feitan will be over the fucking moon - pounding into you with a new vigor, a sudden resolve to get you coming at least twice before heās done with you. Youāre just too attractive for him to resist, and heās only a man, after all.Ā
His handsĀ
In general, Feitan is a fan of showing his feelings rather than articulating them, and even then only to an extent.Ā
Thereās only so far heās willing to expose his vulnerability, and it just becomes easier and less scary to just show you, to let his actions speak louder. And despite it taking a very, very long time for him to grow comfortable enough to actually act on this philosophy, one of the first ways that heāll settle into touching you is with his hands.Ā
Theyāre rough, the skin calloused and scarred, pale fingers just the slightest bit off in certain spots, evidence of the multitudes of times heās broken them. His fingers are lithe, nimble, quick and dexterous, evidence of his abilities with swords and the various tools he uses for work. And so, once he turns his hands onto you, youāll notice all these things.Ā
It starts small - a fleeting feeling of his fingers pressing against the small of your back, merely a ghost of a touch that leaves you wondering if you really felt anything at all.Ā
Heāll reach out to flick at your forehead if you do something dumb (something endearing, but dumb), glaring at you and telling you to stop it, though his fingers are tingling where they made contact with your skin.Ā
Heāll lightly lay his hand on your hip, or on your thigh, keeping it there for a few moments before snatching it back to his own side, his hand flexing and the muscles tightening up because god, did you like that? Did you like it when he touched you?Ā
He gets in his head way too much about how you react to his touch, but the truth is that Feitan is incredibly touch starved, particularly when it comes to any sort of positive or romantic touch.Ā
Heās a criminal and has grown up in horrible conditions, and heās simply never cared. But now that youāre here, someone for him to live out all those cliche, stupid romantic tropes? Well, he canāt directly ask for your affection, but youāll notice the way his hands lay on your body for just a beat too long, just enough to make you wonder whether that touch was really as innocent as he seems to think it was (itās not, at least not as much as he wishes - every time his skin brushes yours, this spark of electricity dances up his spine, making him gulp and tense up, because while the feeling blooming in his chest is warm and good, itās still foreign, still something he hasnāt quite gotten used to yet).
And even once he reaches the stage where heās grown comfortable enough with the concept of being intimate with you to actually touch you, he still relies heavily on his hands. Particularly, Feitan grows an affinity for fingering you - he loves the way your cunt just seems to suck his fingers in, as if your body is begging for more and more of him, craving his touch and the pleasure only he can give you.Ā
Heāll experiment a lot with you at first, curling his fingers or scissoring them, dark eyes appraising your face and checking for any changes in expression that could hint at what rhythm or area you like.Ā
(Youāll wonder where he learned some of the motions he tries out on you - heāll never admit to watching porn to learn some ideas, nor that he practiced them before trying them out on you, his hand sandwiched between two pillows as he diligently curled them, perfecting the ācome hitherā motion or letting his thumb practice rubbing tight, firm circles against the cotton. No, heād rather die than have you learn that - you canāt know how badly he wants to please you, after all.)Ā
He likes to watch his fingers dipping inside you, the way they emerge all wet and glistening, a ring of white sitting right above his knuckles and filling him with pride.Ā
(Often, he finds himself idly staring at his fingers after youāve fallen asleep, your body sore and exhausted after the fucking heād put you through. Heāll spread them, staring from all angles, remembering the feeling of your wet heat around them, how your walls clamped down on him, even how your lips and tongue flicked across them when heād shoved them into your mouth earlier. Heāll bring them to his lips, idly sucking on them, trying in vain to get every last drop of you off of them, so that he can taste you for just a moment longer, just to satisfy himself for as long as he can.)Ā
Heās a late bloomer and it will take him a long while to reach the point of being willing to touch you sexually (though he wants to from pretty much the get-go, much to his embarrassment), but once he does, youād better get used to the feeling of his hands against your skin - after all, heās insistent, and you do not want to reject his touch.Ā If you know whatās good for you, youāll just moan and sigh and tell him it feels good, because Feitan is just so much more agreeable when heās happy - youāll get to come that way, too.
DRIVE:
Generally speaking, Feitanās libido has never been especially high. Sex has never been a priority for him, and even once his days as a Troupe member begin, this doesnāt change. He doesnāt see the attraction to sleeping around, to fucking random women just for a few minutes of fleeting pleasure.Ā
Itās just so much work to be around others, to have to communicate and hear their complaining when he doesnāt put effort into making them feel good ā itās just not fun, not something he wants to spend his time with. And so, while Feitan is certainly no saint, he doesnāt actively seek out sexual partners. And he especially doesnāt seek out touching another person, letting himself be touched, becoming vulnerable in any possible way.
So, once you step into his life, this self-inflicted celibacy doesnāt really change all that much. Of course, the idea of touching you is significantly more attractive than it would be to touch a random stranger, but Feitan is still not especially eager to fuck you once his obsession develops.Ā
Heās a bit of a late bloomer, taking a while to let his emotions warm up to you. In doing so, it takes a long, long time for his sexual urges towards you to appear, because Feitan prides himself on having good self control. But once he fully gives in to the fact that he wants you, in a way thatās entirely new and scary and foreign to him, the urges begin appearing.Ā
The idly thoughts wondering what youāre wearing, what youāre thinking about, if youāre in the mood⦠Heās still not as horny as some of his fellow Troupe members, but Feitan begins regularly imagining fucking you, the thoughts seemingly popping out of nowhere and completely unannounced.Ā
Frankly, itās irritating; why is he imagining you without a shirt on when Phinks is telling him about the latest job Chrollo had paired them up for? (Itās a pain in the ass to hide the slowly growing tent in his trousers from the blond - he always just seems to know, and Feitan would rather die than be subjected to the never ended teasing.)Ā
Why is he imagining the way your lips would feel wrapped around his cock when heās slicing off that manās head, the cut clean and clear yet the only thing he can think of being how your cheeks would hollow as you suck?Ā
Itās annoying, and although he tries to fight it at first, he eventually gives up. Thereās only so much he can stop himself from imagining, and as his obsession grows deeper, the perverse fantasies he holds towards you only grow more numerous, more pronounced, more longed for. He finds himself actively wanting to be intimate with you, and while he wonāt act on that desire for a very long time, itās left to quality sit, festering and brewing inside him until one day itās all just too much, a dam bursting that forces him to finally take that last step, to let himself rest a hand on you or brush his lips against your cheek or graze his finger along your nipple.Ā
He doesnāt move very fast, but Feitanās in no rush - after all, youāre stuck with him for the rest of your life, and heāll be the only other human youāll ever interact with. By the time heās ready to progress your relationship forward, youāll likely have come around, desperate enough for human contact that youāll want him to touch you, that youāll want to touch him back.Ā
Just the thought makes him gulp and flex his fingers, excitement and anxiety settling into his stomach, his cock growing half hard even as his mind winces.Ā
However, because he has so many issues surrounding intimacy and vulnerability, Feitan will likely never actually force you into anything.Ā
Because youāre likely to come around and develop Stockholm Syndrome by the time heās ready to touch you, youāll be more than eager to let his hand rest on your waist, or to let him stand behind you so that your ass is pressed against his crotch, the tent in his pants more than apparent. Youāll be ready, but until heās ready, he has to find alternatives.Ā
Because heās still frequently experiencing sexual urges towards you way before heās willing to act on them, Feitan finds himself quite sexually frustrated. He has all these dirty thoughts, all these possessive, insistent feelings urging him to just take you, to stake his claim on you by stuffing you full of his cock and cum, and he has to release them somehow.Ā
And so, he falls back on a method that he isnāt necessarily proud of, but does find some sick, twisted sense of pride and amusement from. That is, because heās the one supplying literally everything to you once youāre trapped under his roof, itās not so hard to tamper with some of the ingredients of your essentials.Ā
Your conditioner, for instance; he buys you the brand you love (something he tells you is coincidence but most certainly isnāt), and as he opens the cap and smells it one day while youāre asleep in the next room over, he canāt help but notice how creamy it is, how thick and how white it is.
It make shim gulp, and after quickly making sure to lock the bedroom door youāre trapped behind, Feitan shakily returns to the bathroom, exhaling deeply. Itās just a coincidence that the conditioner resembles something that he produces, right?Ā
Itās an amusing twist of fate that your favorite conditioner (with the scent he can only describe as you) looks almost exactly like his cum, right?Ā
Feitan thinks so, and as his mind wanders back to the little stunt youād pulled earlier in the day, he finds himself settling onto the closed toilet lid, reaching into his pants and pulling out his cock, already drooling precum and sensitive to the touch.Ā
Youād been laying on your bed, blanket barely covering your body as you slept, the skimpy pajamas youād fallen asleep in in disarray on your figure. Your shirt had bunched up, letting one pert, supple breast slip out, your nipple on display, not even the blanket managing to cover it up.Ā
(Heād froze when he noticed, slowly creeping closer, licking his lips and unable to stop staring.)Ā
And those damn sleeping shorts, always getting moved around and never quite sitting right on your hips when you wake up, were twisted a bit, the holes for your legs angled just right so that if he looked the right way, he could see the very edge of your cunt, one lip covered with pretty pubic hairs, looking soft and warm and so fuckable.Ā
You were asleep, and somewhere in Feitanās mind he knows you werenāt doing it on purpose, but itās hard not to blame you for being so indecent, for hoping to tempt Feitan into giving in. Youāre such a fucking minx, all teasing and daring to show off your assets, and how was Feitan supposed to react to this? How was he not supposed to immediately grow aroused and flustered, unable to tare his gaze from your vulnerable body?Ā Ā
Eventually heād managed to, shutting the door behind him and taking a few uneven breaths, trying desperately to not replay the image of your breast over and over in his mind. Itās no use, however, and as he splashes his face with cold water in the bathroom, thatās when his eyes land on the conditioner bottle.Ā
His hand moves fast as he fucks his fist, hissing under his breath over and over as he steadily gets closer, driven forward by the idea of lewd it will be to have his cum in something as personal as you conditioner.Ā
He canāt stop thinking about how youād have no idea, waltzing around with his cum soaked into your pretty hair, maybe even making you smell like him - Heās groaning, the thoughts pushing him closer and closer to the edge, his orgasm hurtling forward as he imagines the way youād lather it in your hands, humming and making sure every square inch of your hair is covered in it, covered in him.Ā
He imagines the way youād bring it up to your nose and deeply inhale, sighing because itās your favorite scent, wondering why it smells a bit more musky than you remember, but not minding. Maybe youād even like the new scent, and just the thought of that is enough to push him over the edge, a sharp growl slipping past his lips as he aims his cock right into the bottle, cum spraying all over the conditioner, the white colors matching perfectly.Ā
Heās breathing hard, a seemingly never ending series of spurts coming from his swollen tip, and once he thinks heās done, he grasping his length and lightly shaking it, lodging any loose bits of cum out, coaxing them to join the pile. Once done, heāll gulp, letting a small smirk slip onto his lips as he closes the bottle, shutting the lid tight and shake the bottle, making sure to thoroughly mix it.Ā
He wonāt tell you about his little āgiftā, of course not - but youāll know something is up when heās standing stiff as you exit the bathroom, towel wrapped around your body and wet hair having been marinating in the special mixture he made for you, and when heās eagerly sniffing your head every chance he gets after that, youāll have to realize something is amiss.Ā
When heās asking you if your hair feels particularly soft, youāll have to know heās trying to get at something, some layer underneath the surface that heās really speaking about.Ā
Itās enough to satisfy him for the time being, his possessiveness over you quelling ever so slightly because even though itās not in your cunt, where it belongs, at least heās got his cum somewhere on you - and until heās ready to fuck you properly, thatāll have to do. Itāll become habit, and one day you may even stumble upon him midway through the process, your conditioner bottle an inch or so from his tip as he frantically tugs and pulls.Ā
(Heāll freeze, unable to process that he got caught, and frankly, heāll just try to ignore that you ever saw it, not willing to broach the topic - and you wonāt be either, because what the fuck?)He just really, really desires you, and Feitan is a resourceful man - so I hope you like the smell of musk and a bit of iron, because youāll be smelling like it for weeks.
MAIN THREE KINKS:
Orgasm Control
In general, Feitan has to be in control in the bedroom. Itās not that heās particularly onto any dominant or submissive roles between the sheets, but more because he doesnāt like the feeling of vulnerability that accompanies letting other people pleasure him. Something about being at the mercy of someone elseās touch or whims makes him nervous, an unpleasant feeling blooming in his stomach that leaves him fidgety and jumpy.Ā
And so, every sexual interaction with you will see him starring as the dominant role, always calling the shots, and nothing exemplifies this sentiment quite like the way he treats your orgasms. Despite not having a huge amount of sexual experience prior to his infatuation with you, heās very obviously aware that both partners are capable of orgasming in any given sexual interaction, that it should be expected and achieved regardless of methodology.Ā
With other women, Feitan wouldnāt care in the least ā heās selfish by nature, and if he were to ever have sex with anyone other than you, in no way, shape or form would he pay any mind to their pleasure, only chasing after his own release.Ā
But with you, this sentiment is a bit different; he wants to get you off, if only because seeing the way your body responds to him, shaking and shivering and moaning and clenching, gets him harder, his breath more ragged, his palms sweatier. Thereās something incredibly pleasing about seeing the way your body is sensitive to his every touch that makes him giddy, an odd mixture of power, arousal and eagerness filling him.Ā
He wants to make you a mess, to get you gushing and creaming and whimpering as he fingers you, as he shoves his cock inside you, even as he tongues at your clit (eating you out isnāt something that happens often, but when it does, Feitan expects you to come from it). He likes the sight of you falling apart for him, and consequently, that desperation for power and control comes hurtling back ā so that he is the one in control of your orgasms.Ā
He wants to be the one choosing when, how, and why youāre coming, every one of your movements a result of him.Ā
He tends to rely heavily on edging you, enjoying the way you squirm and beg for him to keep going. Heāll have two slender, nimble fingers buried inside of you, curling and scissoring, the stretch a bit painful but in a pleasure-tinged way, making your toes curl and your bottom lip catch between your teeth.Ā
His thumb will rub consistent, steady circles at your clit, the little nub sore and swollen, and heāll keep his ministrations up until youāre breathing heavier, your stomach and thighs clenching, the telltale signs that youāre nearing your high.Ā
(Heās very, very good at reading your body when it comes to your sexual pleasure ā heās spent so long stalking you that heās seen you touching yourself more times than he can count, and while watching the way your cunt takes the toy is very, very difficult to tear his eyes away from, heād made sure to study every other part of your body, too. Heās watched the way your face morphs as you get closer, your brows shooting up and your lips parting a bit, your eyes fluttering and threatening to close as the pleasurable knot in your gut grows tighter and tighter and tighter. Heās watched the way your legs shake, the muscles in your thighs visibly twitching and clenching, trying desperately to close and clench together, prompting him to imagine how theyād feel around his head, around his waist, around his cock. Heās even noticed your breathing, how you sound, the way your voice gets higher and more breathy, your moans increasing in intensity until you let out this sudden, strained gasp that gets him swallowing harshly, a thick pearl of precum dripping from his tip from the mere sound.)
Heās constantly observing you even while he's intimate with you, those dark eyes never wavering from your form, and heāll bring you right to the edge, noticing with a tightness in his throat that your legs are starting to tremble, that your voice is climbing up, that youāre starting to get all gaspy and your abdominal muscles are clenching, and god, youāre squeezing around his fingers so damn tight āĀ
The confused, desperate whine you let out when he suddenly pulls his fingers out of you makes him smirk a bit, the way your watery eyes blearily blink up at him, half clouded in lust and disappointment making him reach out to pinch at your pebbled nipple. Not yet, one more time. Heāll tell you, laughing a bit as you whine and gulp, chest heaving and your fingers twitching. Heāll make you wait, maybe even reaching down and jerking himself off a bit, making a show of hissing under his breath and making sure that you can see him, hearing the wet noises as he flicks his wrist and imagines itās your sweet little pussy wrapped around him rather than his own fingers.
Heās embarrassingly sensitive when he does this, his own touch making him buck his hips as he stares down at you, spread before him, underneath him, where you belong. Heāll make sure to give enough time that you come down from your sensitivity, before resuming his ministrations, making you gasp and bite your lip.Ā
Heāll work you through it, not stopping his motions, which brings up another aspect of how Feitan likes to tease you and assert his control over you ā he doesnāt like overstimulation quite as much as denial, but heās not shy about going faster, harder, his motions seeming almost frantic as you start whining and shaking, going on about how itās too much, Feitan itās too much I canāt!Ā
Heāll just growl and shut you down, slapping (not too hard) your clit and seeing you way you jerk, telling you to shut up and take it, youāve done it before. He likes seeing your eyes get all teary, your body spasming and shaking even harder, the overstimulation making you cry out his name with a renewed fervor.Ā
(Heād never admit it, but thatās one of his favorite parts ā he never pegged himself to be a fan of loud moans, but thereās something about the way that you do it, when itās his name youāre moaning, that makes him throb, his cock twitching without any stimulation. You sound so destroyed, so wrecked and utterly desperate for him that it makes his head spin, his chest filling with pride and lust and satisfaction because you do need him, and your body is just proving that.)Ā
Heās cruel, often pulling three or four orgasms from you every time he touches you, those dark eyes staring unblinking down at you, almost studying you as you fall apart on his cock, on his fingers, on anything he chooses. It makes him feel good to know that heās in full control, that he can choose when you come ā it shows his place above you, helping him to justify the fact that heās pleasuring you, that heās taking the time and effort to make you feel good when he really doesnāt need to.Ā
Heās just being generous ā you should be grateful he even cares about your pleasure at all.Ā
(Say thank you to him as you orgasm and heās gone ā cum is dripping down your skin or out of your pretty hole before you can process whatās even happening, the man above you gasping and heaving, trying desperately to make sure you donāt see the slight red staining his cheeks.)Ā
He wants you to follow his commands, so just let him do as he pleases ā youāll come eventually, most of the time.
Bondage
Tying into his preferences for holding control in the bedroom, Feitan has a certain affinity for seeing you restrained.Ā
Thereās something about the way your body is presented to him when youāre all tied up that gets him feeling hot, his hands twitching and yearning to reach out and touch you. Heās not picky about what he uses to bind you ā the tried and true rope is never displeasing, and the variety of pretty knots and positions he can force you into this way leave him nearly drooling at all the different sexual fantasies he can carry out with you.Ā
Heās particularly fond of tying you up in ways that are just the slightest bit humiliating, positions that make your neck and cheeks feel hot, embarrassment eating away at you because god, everything is exposed.Ā
He likes when your legs are spread, a bit of rope keeping your calves firmly pressed to your thighs while your pussy is exposed to open air, the perfect amount of space between your legs for him to slip into. He likes when your breasts are free, jiggling and bouncing with every thrust, the rope digging into your sternum or ribcage as you moan and writhe.Ā
(He also likes when the rope crisscrosses over your chest, digging into your nipple and making you whine in pain and pleasure, and when he undoes the ropes, he loves the way your nipples are so sore and swollen, a much darker color than they normally are and practically begging to be pinched at, to be twisted and pulled on until youāre a sniffly, moaning mess.)Ā
Heāll often tie your wrists together behind your back, rope connecting from your waist to the back of your knees, keeping your legs bent while he forces your ass into the air, mounting you from behind and absolutely destroying you.Ā
Rope is his favorite, if only because thereās something so familiar, so comforting in using it ā of course, he never desires to fuck any of his victims, but he knows how to manipulate the material in order to get you bent the way he wants you to be.Ā
And while he has no desire to do anything to you that he would to those he tortures, thereās something oddly sexy and taboo about the fact that heās using the same kind of rope on you as he did to the man the other day. Itās dirty, sinful, if only because this is as close as he can come to mixing two of the things he loves most ā you, and his job.Ā
Youāre safe this way, not liable to be cut or maimed or anything of the sort, but youāre still utterly at his hands, vulnerable to every whim or desire he wishes to enact on you. He likes how helpless you are when youāre tied up, unable to reach out or take control of your own pleasure, entirely reliant on him to do everything for you ā something as big as stretching you out on his cock, or as small as pushing away a stray piece of hair in your face as he fucks your throat.Ā
The power trip is insane, and while he wonāt hurt you, just the knowledge that he could makes him harder than heās ever been. Heās a fan of other alternatives to rope, too ā handcuffs are fine, a bit too mainstream for him to use regularly, but in a bind itāll do.Ā
(Especially if heās grown more comfortable with you, willing to show a more vulnerable side, because handcuffs give him less control and allow you to actively participate in your pleasure, letting you grind back against him or wrap your legs around his waist or any number of other things that can signal that you want him too.)Ā
Silk ties are fine, and on days where heās feeling a bit more sentimental or emotional, heāll prefer to use these because thereās less chance of you bruising or getting any burns or rashes. (Plus, thereās something so fitting about you being shrouded in silk ā you, whoās so weak and soft and dainty, matching perfectly with the fabric. It makes him snort a bit, because you always look like such an angel when youāre all tied up for him in this way ā like a beautiful, naĆÆve little angel just begging to be destroyed and tainted by his hands, a feat heās more eager and impatient to accomplish than heād care to admit.)Ā
Heās even willing to use clothing to get you restricted ā maybe the shirt youād been wearing (his shirt, one he let you borrow, the one he finds adorable on you even if heād never tell you) will get tied around your wrists, keeping them firmly above your chest as he sinks into you and squeezes his eyes shut, biting back the moan that threatens to tumble at his lips because youāre just so damn tight.Ā
Heāll use your panties as a gag, though he doesnāt do this often because he really does like hearing your sounds ā especially when theyāre any sort of praise or his name.Ā
(Often, after heās stuffed the panties youād been wearing past your lips, heāll steal them back afterwards, sneakily storing them somewhere for later, for late at night when heās standing over your sleeping form and breathing shakily, staring at you and rubbing the material ā wet with both your spit and your slick ā all over his cock.)Ā
His preference is always to have you restrained in some manner, and itāll only be once he feels as comfortable as possible with you that he wonāt tie you up. To have you free means letting himself be vulnerable to your touches, and even your rejection of his touch, and just the thought is enough to get him nervous, having to wipe his slightly sweaty hands onto his jacket.Ā
Heās had fantasies about fucking you without any restraints separating you before, but the moment it happens, youāll notice that heās oddly sensitive, his breath coming out harsher and more labored at touches that would normally leave him largely unaffected. Itās just so emotional for him, so scary and frightening, and heāll stay inside you much longer than normal after heās come, relishing in the warmth and wetness of you while your fingers maybe brush over his shoulders, maybe even running through his hair.Ā Itās the sort of fantasy heāll never, ever tell you about, though ā and for now, heāll stick with tying you up so that youāre easily accessible, provoking and arousing to stare at, and in no position to argue when he manhandles you into doing exactly what he wants.
Dry humping
While he has sexual, lewd thoughts about you from pretty much the moment he truly accepts his feelings for you, Feitan takes a very long time to begin acting on those feelings.Ā
Even more, it takes him a long time to get comfortable enough to be naked in front of you, much less actually fuck you. And so, while this hesitancy persists, he finds himself using other routes to sate his growing desire to be intimate with you ā routes that are less invasive, less opportune for embarrassing accidents (like coming too fast, or facing your rejection).Ā
And while it still feels awfully pathetic, Feitan finds that the simple act of grinding on you is enough to satisfy his desires, at least for the time being ā thereās just something oddly enticing about it, something arousing and the pleasure just dull enough to thwart him from coming within three or four minutes of touching you.Ā
He doesnāt like initiating it, though, finding it a bit too pathetic, even for him, even for the way he feels for you. Instead, he holds his breath, hoping that every time you brush against him (normally by accident, your whole body freezing up the moment you realize what youāve done) that youāll do it again, because even just a single bit of friction between your (fully clothed) bodies is enough to get his neck feeling warm, the ghost of an erection springing to life in his pants.Ā
Heās just so, so touch starved, and so as time goes on, heāll start subtly trying to get into positions where you might accidentally grind on him, sometimes without you even realizing. Heāll make you pick something up off the ground, then choose the exact moment that youāre bent over and your ass is in the air to walk behind you, letting his hips just barely graze against you.
Heāll manage to hold back the little strained noise he makes, but at some point youāll notice that itās happening much too often to be a coincidence, and youāll eventually realize that the strange hardness you feel when he does this is actually him.Ā
He wonāt ever just grab you and rut into you, but god does he want to, especially when he sees your hips swaying, or when youāre sitting down, the fat of your thighs splayed out and your hips looking wide and full and perfect to grab onto.Ā
Heās embarrassed by his own thoughts, but eventually youāll probably realize what it is that he wants ā youāve felt the way he tries to subtly make it happen, and while you were at first confused and shocked (youād had no idea Feitan wanted anything sexual with you, as heād never made a mention of it or acted in a way that would suggest it), you eventually start getting a bit brave, too.Ā
You donāt love Feitan, far from it, but youāve been trapped with him for enough months to start craving any form of human contact, and so youāll pounce ā Feitan canāt help but sharply inhale when you grind back against him one day while youāre bent over, the feeling of your ass moving against his cock making him struggle to breath.Ā
Heās not sure what youāre trying to do, too pessimistic to let himself believe that youāre the one grinding on him, but one day youāll find yourself sitting next to him on the raggedy old couch, the TV playing some mindless horror movie that Feitan had thrown on, and your hand will just sort of move on its own, slowly, carefully placing itself very lightly over his thigh. Heāll tense up at the sensation, dark eyes flicking between your hand and your face, your own gaze nervously set on the TV in front of you.Ā
Itās silent for a moment, but when he doesnāt move your hand, youāll get braver, turning to look at him and asking in a soft, unsure voice if you can sit in his lap. Feitan doesnāt know how to respond, simply staring at you with narrowed eyes, wondering if this is some sort of trick ā but eventually heāll nod, telling you to be careful, donāt try anything.Ā
Youāll position yourself so that your ass is pressed against his crotch, his thighs on either side of your hips, but you donāt lean back, even when you hear Feitan inhale slightly, having leaned forward to smell your hair. Itās a good twenty or so minutes later when you begin moving your hips slowly, nervously, listening to hear for any displeased noises or harsh commands for you to stop your movements.Ā
Feitan is frozen behind you, staring at your hips and trying to understand what youāre doing ā he likes it, but he doesnāt like the way his body is reacting, blood slowly starting to head south at the slight friction, at the way youāre so damn close to him, at the way he can smell you and can feel the heat radiating off your body.Ā
Itās all too much, and suddenly heās telling you to get off me, before quickly storming out of the room and locking himself in his bedroom.Ā
His cock is in his hand within minutes, memories of how youād felt against him, even with layers of clothes separating you still fresh in his mind. Youāll be left to believe he didnāt like it, that youād totally misinterpreted his actions, ashamed and a bit afraid for how heād respond moving forward.Ā
Except, thereās no grand punishment, no mocking you for your actions ā instead, the next night he turns on a new movie (still horror, gory and full of screaming and killing) and looks over at you expectantly.Ā
His legs are spread this time, leaving a space between them, and for a moment youāre confused, unsure of what he wants. He just raises a brow at you, unwilling to articulate what heās wanting, hoping youāll understand it without him needing to say it.Ā
Youāll shuffle closer, still staring at him, but soon heāll just grumble, a hand reaching out and pulling you down to sit between his legs before you can even realize whatās happening. Youāre stiff and unsure, unwilling to relax, and Feitan doesnāt like this. He wants you to move like you did last night, and after a few minutes of you sitting stone still, heāll hiss into your ear do it again.Ā
Youāll start slow, testing the waters, and you nearly jump when you feel Feitanās hand ghost over your waist, setting his fingers against your shirt as if wanting to fully touch you, but not quite letting himself. Heāll occasionally tell you to go faster, the movie still playing in the background, the feeling of his cock digging into your tailbone making you a confusing mix of scared and aroused.Ā
Eventually, heāll let out this strange, unusual little sound, something like a grunt but much higher and strained, and youāll feel something warm and wet pressing against you. Donāt mention anything, because Feitan doesnāt want you to say a damn word, not wanting to admit that the feeling of you grinding on him for roughly seven minutes has him coming in his pants, cum covering his cock and getting him all sticky.Ā
Heās embarrassed, but it will become something of a ritual between the two of you ā every time he turns on a movie, itās your place to sit in his lap (eventually you actually will sit in his lap, fully on his lap, not just pressed against him, though this takes some time) and to gyrate your hips at that certain rhythm he likes, all up until you feel him tense up beneath you, seeing his fingers clutching at the couch cushions at your sides.Ā
Itās a slow buildup into any sort of sexual activity between the two of you, but Feitan likes this, something about the intimacy making him extra sensitive, the feeling of you actually touching him (even peripherally, with clothes separating the two of you) making him feel lightheaded and airy. He likes it, and this will be the jumping off point for him to begin getting bolder, to begin letting himself actually fuck you, to finally do what heās been craving for months.Ā
And once you become aware that he likes it, please start imitating it ā give him look and ask if you can um, sit in your lap?Ā
Heāll almost always say yes, even if heās in the middle of doing something, even if thereās not even a chair or couch nearby ā he'll rush (not running, but very, very nearly) to the nearest surface, swallowing hard and staring at you, growing impatient when you donāt move fast enough for him.Ā
Often, heāll already be half hard, and while he prefers when your back is facing him, if you were to climb into his lap so that you were straddling him? Well, Feitan finds it much harder to look you in the eye, because now itās your cunt grinding down on him rather than just your ass, and thatās much different, isnāt it?Ā
Even once heās progressed to stage of actually being willing to touch you, of being willing to let you touch him, Feitan still enjoys when you hump at him. And he particularly enjoys humping you, though heās only willing to do this in the dead of night, when youāre fast asleep, your body ripe and vulnerable for him to touch, to explore, to use.Ā
He doesnāt want you to be awake and see the way he crumbles when he drags his cock along the curve of your ass, if only because he doesnāt want you to see how pink his cheeks get, how he starts mumbling under his breath, how his every muscle is flexing and straining because he wants to go faster, needs to go faster, but he canāt risk waking you up.Ā
Itās his dirty little secret, so youād better start working on your stamina for grinding onto him ā sure, he doesnāt last long, but he expects it often, and you canāt exactly refuse him.Ā
Or else.
OTHER NOTABLE KINKS INCLUDE:
Begging
Feitan likes knowing that you want him. He feels so inferior and weak for having developed such strong, scarily dependent feelings for you, and it makes him feel good, satisfied, justified when you beg for him, all whiny and desperate for his touch, for his body, for his cock.Ā
While heās not particularly vocal between the sheets, he likes when you are - your voice is sultry when it gets all airy and gaspy, your little praises and pleas for him to go faster or please donāt stop making him double down and go harder, his desperation to please you driving him forward.Ā
He wonāt ever explicitly ask you to beg for anything, but youāll be able to tell that he likes it.Ā
Youāll see the way his eyes widen just a hair, the way his dark bangs settle over his forehead as he dips his head down, the exertion of moving his hips or wrist faster making him squeeze his eyes shut.Ā
Youāll feel the way his thrusts get more insistent, hips slapping against yours while his balls clap against your ass, the sound lewd and only getting faster the more you beg.Ā
Youāll be able to hear it in the way his breathing starts getting ragged, no amount of stamina adequate for hearing you beg for him, for him to touch you and pleasure you.Ā
He wants to feel needed in the context of your sexual pleasure, as if you canāt get off without his help, as if youāre incapable of bringing yourself to orgasm when he so easily manages it. Itās unrealistic and he knows it, but heās able to immerse himself in the fantasy of you wanting him when youāre begging him, able to delude himself into believing, if only for a bit, that youāre just as frantic for his love and affection as he is yours.Ā
If you really want to get him going, a surefire way to have his cock springing to life and his heart lurching into his throat is to praise him a bit, then following it up with a plea for him to keep going. Tell him that itās sāgood, you feel so good Feitan, please donāt stop, just like that, fuck!Ā
Tell him that you belong to him, that youāre his, that your cunt is his cunt, that you want him to come inside, that you need more more more. He might tell you that youāre greedy, grunting out something about you being a greedy slut, but the twitching of his cock inside you and the way his fingers tighten their hold on you will show you that he isnāt as unaffected by your words as heād like to pretend.Ā
He really just likes knowing that sex affects you just as much as it affects him, so please, please beg him - heāll almost always do exactly what you want, almost like itās a reward.
(After all, just getting to touch you is reward enough for him.)
Sensory deprivation
Because it takes Feitan so long to grow comfortable with letting himself be truly vulnerable with you (especially in the context of sex), he finds ways to get around this mental roadblock, so that he can experience everything he wants to without giving up any of his control.Ā
And one of his favorite ways to do that is to limit your senses - specifically, Feitan loves to blindfold you. He doesnāt really want you to be looking at him during sex, too nervous and awkward and embarrassed, because once he gets inside you, his control over his facial expressions, his bodily responses, his everything is severely limited.Ā
It takes all his will power to stop himself from coming prematurely, especially towards the beginning of his sexual relationship with you, and heāll be damned if he lets you see the way his face crumples when he slips inside your wet heat, his dark brows drawing together and lips parting, eyes squeezing shut while he wills himself to calm down, to take deep breaths and not let himself get carried away.Ā
He doesnāt want you to be able to look at him, but he wants to be able to see you - he wants full viewing pleasure of your body, and while this method does block seeing your eyes get all glassy and pleasured, itās better this way.Ā
This way, he gets to stare at the way your tits bounce as he fucks you, the soft fat jiggling and practically begging to be groped and squeezed at.Ā
This way, he can stare at your ass he pounds into it, grabbing a handful of cheek in each hand and kneading the fat, spreading them apart and taking a peek at your pert, cute little asshole, seeing the curve and arch of your back.Ā
He can let himself relax more this way, allowing his face to present every emotions and sensation heās feeling, and he can let himself indulge in some of his more embarrassing urges - like reaching out to cup your hips when your bodies are facing each other, his fingers never quite brushing your skin but awfully close.Ā
Heāll lean in close as if to kiss you, letting his breath fan over your lips but never actually closing the distance, just indulging in the smell of you and the idea of kissing you. Heās still very reserved, but this way he can do all the things he fantasizes about when heās alone at night, his mind wandering to you and his body growing cold and lonely.Ā
Plus, Feitan gains a certain amount of control this way - he gets to choose what happens to you, and because you canāt see anything, youāll have no idea whatās coming next.Ā
Will it be his hands, a vibrator, his cock?Ā
You wonāt know, and Feitan likes it that way - he wants to keep you guessing, to leave you unsure and awaiting his next move with baited breath.Ā
He just likes how dependent you are when heās got the black blindfold tied around your eyes, so youād better get used to it - heās not good at compromising, after all.Ā
BIGGEST FANTASY:
While Feitan doesnāt harbor any desire to hurt you, thereās a certain allure that blood holds for him.Ā
Of course, he doesnāt want to actually draw blood from you (the thought of you being in pain because of him makes any boner of his die immediately), but he discovers - by accident - that thereās a solution to mixing the two.Ā
Thereās a way to combine the two things that turn him on most - you, of course, and the slightest bit of blood - in a way that is safe for you yet still arousing, still enough to get him panting and his trousers feeling uncomfortably tight.Ā
That is, Feitan discovers that he absolutely loves getting intimate with you while youāre on your period. It doesnāt matter if you get horrible cramps, mood swings, or are even totally unaffected - youāre sensitive, body needy and practically begging to be mounted and fucked, and who is Feitan to deny you?
Once he grows comfortable with intimacy, youāll never be able to pull him away from you once the blood shows up in your panties. Heās obsessive, tracking your period for you, making sure that he knows the exact days that youāll be starting and stopping.Ā
He likes the way you respond to his touch so easily, your pretty pussy all messy and red and puffy, even the slightest touch making you buck your hips and gasp his name.Ā
Itās euphoric, and when he slips inside you it becomes incredibly difficult to not immediately orgasm - youāre just so wet, so warm and wonderfully lubricated, and the sight of blood staining his cock when he pulls back to thrust back in makes his head spin.Ā
Youāre perfect when youāre menstruating, and youāll notice heāll be in a much better mood once you shyly report that it started, could you pick up some more pads for me? (He toys with the idea of actually collecting your blood, investing in one of those menstrual cups that you can remove once itās full, just because the concept of drinking it is enough to make him fidget, the thought taboo and dirty and so very enticing.)Ā
You canāt really say no to him normally, but you especially canāt deny him when itās your time of the month - you will be getting fingered, fucked, even facefucked, if only because Feitan needs you, your pretty blood and pretty body making him go crazy in a way he didnāt think possible.Ā
You make him go crazy in ways he didnāt think possible.
āFeitan, I - we canāt, not tonight.ā You tell him, averting your gaze away from his as his hands grab at the old t-shirt and short youāre wearing. Unconsciously, your hand travels to your stomach, laying idly and making Feitanās eyes narrow.Ā
āWhy not?ā He asks, his voice clipped and suspicious. You didnāt often tell him no, and although thereās a bit of doubt swimming in his chest, he wants to know why youāre suddenly not welcoming his touch. Youāve reached the point of leaning into his cold, harsh hands, so whyāre you suddenly being so standoffish? He doesnāt like it, and his hands stay idly resting on your shirt hem.Ā
Youāre embarrassed, he can tell, but he doesnāt drop the issue. Instead, he lets the silence sit heavily over the two of you, waiting for you to fill in the space.Ā
āWell, um, you seeā¦ā You start, before squeezing your eyes shut and squeaking out, āMy period started yesterday and itās too messy.ā
Feitan blinks at you, unsure what to say. Your period? You were bleeding?
āOkay, and?āĀ
Your eyes peel open, daring to sneak a glance at your captor, who only stares at you, unimpressed. āWell, I mean, itās going to be messy and gross and it probably smells bad and -ā
āShut up, weāre doing it.ā He cuts you off, hand yanking at your shirt to bring it over your head. You grimace, already nervous for him to take off your shorts, because although youāre sure he knows what a period is, youāre sure heās never actually been around a woman menstruating. Or at least, not sexually.Ā
Actually, youāre pretty sure heās never been with a woman sexually in any capacity.Ā
Heās yanking at your shorts next, pulling down the material even as you voice your protests, but one scowl from him has you shutting up, embarrassment pricking up your spine as he grabs your thighs and manually spreads them, the scratchy blanket covering the bed biting into your ass.Ā
Heās staring, dark eyes a bit wider than normal, and you feel yourself shrinking in on yourself, the embarrassment eating you alive. Why was he staring? Why wasnāt he doing anything? Why wasnāt he saying anything?
āFeitan..?ā You mumble, biting your lip and letting your arms cover your bloated stomach. He doesnāt respond, but you feel his grip on your thighs tighten, to the point where you think you might see bruises tomorrow.Ā
His eyes slowly, painstakingly, drag up from your exposed cunt to meet your face, and to your surprise you see the slightest dusting of a blush on his cheeks, as if he too was embarrassed. But before you can say anything, heās rushing forward, lips pressing against yours in a messy, clumsy kiss, full of teeth knocking against teeth and too much spit. Youāre not sure whatās gotten into him, but just as soon as he rushed in heās pulling back, instead moving to bring his face level with your leaking hole.Ā
Feitan canāt stop staring - thereās blood everywhere, and while heād normally be thrown into a state of panic at seeing so much of your own blood staining your skin, somehow this is different. Somehow the sight of it staining your pussy, the red color all along your inner thighs and part of your asscheek making his mouth water, his cock already painfully hard. Itās so pretty - red against your skin, your lips visibly swollen, your little clit engorged and peaking out. You look good, like something he wants to taste, and before he knows whatās happening heās diving forward, tongue licking a long stripe up your slit.Ā
You taste like iron and musk and something oddly sweet, and immediately heās diving in to taste more, tongue lapping at you like some dog in heat as he keeps his fingers firmly digging into your thighs. He can barely hear your sound of shock at his actions, too overwhelmed by your taste and your scent.Ā
āF-feitan, stop!ā You manage to force out, eyes squeezed shut as your hips shake and stutter. āItās too much, Iām too sensitive, I canāt!ā
Feitan stops at that, pulling away from your body with blood smeared all over his lips, chin and nose, staring at you with a look in those wide, dark eyes that makes you shiver. He looks like an animal like this, something primal and carnal - and when your eyes peek down to see his cock - throbbing, bright red and stiff against his stomach - you canāt help but feel as if youāre some sort of prey caught in his jaws.Ā
āNot too much, you will survive.ā Is all he says, before heās resuming his actions, bringing a finger up to prod inside your walls while his tongue gets to work on your clit. His fingers curl and rub, but youāre so damn tight, your walls impossibly clenched, and it makes Feitan grunt against you. Youāre even wetter inside than normal, the blood practically running down his hands in copious amounts, making it remarkably easy to slide his fingers in and out. Almost too easy, it would seem.Ā
Youāre blabbering his name, the stimulation hurtling you towards your orgasm much quicker than normal, your heightened sensitivity and emotions turning you into a moaning, whimpering mess. And Feitan loves it - those dark eyes are peering up at you from over the crest of your pelvic bone, blood tinging his cheeks and visible to you.Ā
When he angles his fingers to press against the spongey, sensitive spot he knows you love, you suddenly gasp, a hand flying to tangle into his hair, the other gently pinching and rolling at your nipple.Ā
āFeitan, oh fuck Feitan ām gonna, Iām gonna come-!ā Youāre squealing, something that makes Feitan cock a brow, the pure desperation in your body as you squirm under his touch making him feral, his hips beginning to rut against the bed before he can even think about it. You just look so sexy like this, with your nipples swollen and sensitive, your cunt all warm and wet and sweet, and heāll watch with wide eyes as you orgasm around him, your walls clenching down so hard that they force his fingers out, his tongue and the circles heās drawing on your clit the only thing grounding you. Your back arches fully up off the bed, tits thrust out into the air, and Feitan bites back a groan as his own pleasure hits a peak, the blanket ruined as cum oozes from his tip and seeps into the fabric.Ā
Youāre shaking, literally fucking shaking, and Feitan finds himself trembling too, his hands not as steady against your skin. If heād known you would taste like this, how sensitive youād be, how easy it is to get you orgasming while on your period, he wouldāve done this long ago.Ā
Youāre out of it, blinking up at the ceiling and heaving uneven breaths, but even as sensitive as he is from his last orgasm, Feitan is quickly shuffling to his knees, grabbing the base of his cock and sinking into you, face contorting into something between a grimace and a gasp. Youāre so damn warm, and he groans lowly as he sees the way his cock has pink slick all over it when he pulls back, a mix of your blood, your slick and his cum decorating his length.Ā
Fucking you is heaven, the way you clutch at him and writhe, nearly screaming his name as you come on his cock, and Feitan can only grit his teeth and go harder, spurred on by the way your walls are caressing his length, massaging and gripping like a fucking vice.Ā
It feels good, and by the time heās emptied himself inside you, heās already made a mental note to mark down when your next period will be - just so he can get ready, so that he can get prepared. So that he can prepare you, too, because you wonāt simply be allowed rest after the first night.Ā
Tw: praise, Uvogin has a big dick but don't worry he believes in prep and foreplay, brief mentions of gender roles, slight predator/prey dynamic, Stockholm syndrome, fem reader, MDNI
The way Uvogin talks to you in bed is downright fucking filthy.
He's an animal when your clothing comes off, and the way he fucks you is no different.
He's gentle, at least in the beginning, and prepares you exceedingly well to take what he knows is a very, very sizeable cock. He's rubbing your clit for what feels like hours, his mouth pressing kisses against your neck and collarbones and nipples while he groans and tells you that you're so damn pretty, baby, my ideal woman.
He'll finger you and cock a brow when you gasp and throw your head back, his teeth nipping at your shoulders while he tells you that you look good with your mouth open, princess, makes me wanna fill it up for you.
He'll ease into you slowly, carefully, fighting back the urge to slam into you and absolutely annihilate you, instead telling you in a strained voice that you're so damn tight, fuck, how are you still so fucking tight -
He lets you control the pace, perching you in his lap while he lays back with his hands behind his head, a smirk plastered across his lips as he watches you slowly lift yourself up and down, your cute little cunt struggling to fit him even three quarters of the way inside.
You're endearing, of course, and Uvogin can't help but comment - he's always complimenting you, praises falling from his lips along with growls and groans and deep, low timbres of shit babe, do that again.
But really, the thing that makes his dirty talk so provocative and arousing is the actual sound of his voice. It's sin when he's talking to you, all gruff and raspy and warm when he's telling you that you're so damn tight baby, am I stretchin' you out? Bet you're feeling so full of me, god this pussy was made for me.
His voice gets you gushing slick around him, your nerves standing on edge because god, he just dominates the room, even if you're the one on top.
He's resting one large hand on your hip, fingers groping and squeezing and kneading, helping move you up and down when he notices you're getting tired, his words a mix of a moan, a gasp, and a low growl when he sits up to groan against your neck that you're doing so well for me princess, I'll have to reward you after - I'm thinking I make you come on my tongue a few times, how does four sound?
It's just so deep and low and undeniably, overwhelmingly masculine that it drives you crazy, his presence and the feeling of him touching you and being inside you only makes it worse, your mind scrambling because god, he sounds like the stuff of your fantasies. (And, the longer you're with him, the more you'll realize maybe this is your fantasy - your big, strong, doting, suffocating captor stuffing you full of his cock, whispering into your ear about how you're so good and soft and fitting me like a fucking glove, you must've been for me, huh? My own little hole to fuck and warm and love - shit, isn't that romantic babe?)
And there's something about it that just feels right; the way he makes you feel all feminine and small and soft, like he's your big, strong man, the one who protects you and loves you, only asking for you to spread your legs for him in exchange.
Uvogin has this way of making you go brain dead when he's touching you, his voice sounding like sweet honey in your ears because everything he says just makes you wetter, his breath against your skin just makes you shiver, the sound of his low, rumbling laugh making you clench down when you squirm and tell him that it's too embarrassing, it's too much, I can't take any more!
He's just big and domineering and talks like he's hunting you in a weirdly sexy, strange way - like you're his prey, like he's pouncing on you and will consume you in every way possible.
It's exciting, you'll find. It makes you feel good, wanted, desired, and his booming voice will only further the feeling of being a little lamb trapped in the big bad wolf's jaws - and you're oh so excited to see what your punishment is for getting caught by such a monster.
(Frankly, it'll get to the point where even not in the bedroom, you'll still get aroused just from hearing the simplest, most innocent phrases fall from his lips - exactly what Uvogin wants. You're just too cute and sexy and your cunt fits him just too perfectly.)