started another rewatch a few weeks ago, just watched s2e18 and i.. Okay. i know we all love the livestream comments about buddie, but in light of the texas storyline, what gripped me the most was eddie’s conversation with his parents during lunch at pepa’s house the day after shannon’s funeral.
there is so much to unpack about this scene, but what sticks out the most is what eddie says after ramon tells him that christopher hasn’t been in LA long enough to put down roots as more reason for them to move back. eddie doesn’t hesitate to cut through that—“being with me is what’s best for christopher. i chose this life for a reason.”
in s2, eddie was unafraid to stand up to his parents, he refused to bend to their wishes. he did what he thought best for him and his son and moved them to LA. he struggles, yes, and doubts himself, sure, but he continues to try, learn, and grow for his son—with his son.
something about rewatching and hearing that line after everything that’s happened is especially bittersweet. i hope some of s2 eddie—even s3 eddie, who did not falter in telling buck that he’s made mistakes, but he loves chris enough to keep trying—imbues present eddie.
i want him to stand up to his parents again. to assert himself as christopher’s father and primary guardian. i want him to have another talk with chris similar to the one we saw in ‘eddie begins’ before the move—only this time, one that’s reflective of chris being older. i want him to see that the roots they grew in LA now outnumber chris’ time in el paso, that he chose the life he did for a reason. and i need him to be confronted with all of that. to believe it again. to remember why he chose the life he did in the first place—and to know, without a doubt, that it’s still the right choice.
above all, i want him to relearn and know and be CONFIDENT in the fact that he’s what’s best for christopher. because, he is, undoubtedly. mistakes and all, chris belongs with eddie, and they both belong in LA—back home.
