#9.22.20

We made it; Autumn is finally here! I’m very excited. I didn’t really get to celebrate today because unfortunately some food I had yesterday left me with food poisoning :/ but other than that today was okay!

Lately I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about consciousness in the context of lucid dreaming and astral projection. I astral travel pretty regularly, and I’ve been lucid dreaming more and more; actually, my dreams have kind of... blended into this weird lucid-hybrid where I’m aware that I’m dreaming and present in my dreams at all times, and can choose to lucid pretty much whenever I want. It’s been interesting to think about and experiment with anYWAYS

I’ve been thinking about astral projection. While I astral travel frequently, I’ve never astral projected before... I tried a long time ago, but it was just soo difficult; it felt like trying to rip myself out of my body. I found it much easier to astral travel, so I just stuck with that.

I’ve tried to project, and I’m finding it difficult. I tried to get rid of any preconceived notions of what I think it should feel like so as not to block myself... I keep thinking that it is this crazy, near-real experience. But I can’t seem to “leave” my body like I think I should. 

I’ve been reading stories of other people who astral project... I’m starting to wonder how different it is from astral travel. There are stories of people who are able to project from a lucid dream... and this is something that interests me. I am familiar with how lucid dreaming feels like. And while it is different from being awake and conscious... it’s not as 100% or vivid as being awake. It makes me wonder if astral projection isn’t that way... and if that’s the case, is there really that big of a difference from astral travel and astral projection? Also, just a side-note but I’ve astral travelled from a lucid dream many times.

Soo yeah. This is something that I’ve been thinking about lately. I’m not sure if I’ll be making any progress on it. I am interested to talking to people who regularly project, though. I think that could be interesting.

Other than that... I’m just kind of relaxing as my energy slowly comes back. This is the last week I have before university starts; then I’m going to be busy. Also... it’s supposed to rain for the next three days, and I’m really really excited about that. Tea and hoodies and lo-fi music for daysss

That’s it for now. I hope that everyone has good night.