#9.19.20

[image id: sixteen inch Belana the Cow squishmallow. belana is mostly white with patches of light aqua on her lower left side and on her right ear. she has small, pale blue horns and round black eyes. her muzzle is light pink with aqua nostrils. she wears a mint green scarf with a paisley print. end id]

HAPPY COW DAY!!! today’s squish is BELANA THE COW!!!

her tag reads: “this creative cow loves to paint and has dreams of going to art school. she paints furniture and woodwork designed by her brother ronnie. after school she wants to open a gallery to share their furniture.”

Dear readers, let me pose you a joke: what does a hamster wheel and Gundham Tanaka have in common?

[image id: twelve inch ronnie the cow. ronnie is white with two brown splotches, one on the op right and one on the bottom left. he has two black eyes. his nose is tan with pink nostrils. the inside of his ears are pink, and the left ear is white while the right ear is brown. he has horns that are the same shade of tan as his nose. end id]

HAPPY COW FRIDAY!!! todays cow is RONNIE!!! 

ronnie's tag reads: "Ronnie loves building birdhouses, last week he made a purple two-story birdhouse with green shutters. His sister Belena helps him paint and make sure they are ready to move in. Do you want to buy a birdhouse from Ronnie?"

I’m going Home - Canyon Moon

This hurts so bad. I can’t go home. You’re not there anymore. It’s your home. I feel like I don’t have a a home. You were my home. You were my home. You were my home. I want to talk to Harry about this. I WISH I could talk to Harry about it. It hurts so bad. I hate this. I’m friends with Niall on Facebook now which is so fucking crazy. He saw one of my messages. No clue what to message him again. I’m scared and don’t really want to or have anything to say. I wish I could write to Harry. I wish I could talk to you. I wish you two weren’t so tied together. I’m so sad and so sorry this is my life’s feelings right now. I’m so sad, dad. I’m so sad. I’m so sad. I’m so sad.

and it’s just another day. if our friends all pass away. it’s ok -TPWK

fucking weird. at least I’ll get matcha soon. Maybe it can be a sweet new year or that’s just a poor influence

I see Bloomfield Avenue in Glenridge and that one long nice street the goes to glen ridge. Ridgewood Avenue. I’m there, with you. The air felt like Stone Harbor today.

Fine Line

Just like in 2016, when I was bedridden with depression the first time, and I’m better now, I relied heavily on Larry to get me through. I’m back there. I wish this wasn’t my life. I want to take the 1-1 program so I can make sure the rest of my life is what I want it to be. No more of this sad victim shit. No fucking more.

You Sunshine, You Temptress. pairs with. You Flower, You Feast.

spreading you open, the only way of knowing you. I know that you’re scared because I’m so open.

I hate this. We’ll be a fine line 12x.

we’ll be a fine line. we’ll be a fine line. we’ll be a fine line. we’ll be a fine line. we’ll be alright.

ooooeeeewww

what a hallow completion. will I ever be full. full. full. full. full. full.

we’ll be alright.

I love you dad. I love California. I’ll get us there one day, buddy. I love you so much. I love you I love you I love you I love you.

B via IG Tammi’s Instagram story!