#750li

My new pretty baby! A BMW 750Li (7 series). The biggest series of the BMW's. I think, or at least one of their biggest. I drove almost 3 hours to a dealership just to get her. Only 63k miles on it. I can't wait to eventually change the rims. It's not a C4 like the previous car I survived a terrible crash in. She's a beast though, with a V8 twin turno charged engine and a lot of horsepower. More then the V8 Cadillac. I'm definitely not average, I've never have had a car note, and you'll definitely never see me buy a Honda or Toyota. At least not for myself. But hey! They are reliable, more affordable, and kinda cute, I'll give them that. I know a lot about cars. I've always loved fast cars, but the first car I truly loved was the STS Cadillac V8. After having that car, I can't do a v6. It would be a downgrade. Time to start saving up again, and start this new venture idea I have. I need to put money to the side and get an engine swap in the Cadillac. I'll never get rid of that car. Almost everyone I know wants it, just the other day a guy at a dealership was trying to make an offer! Even though it needs some work. People who are true car fanatics know how hard it is to find a Caddilac V8 Northstar. I don't like saying my Cadillac because it use to be shared. So I just say the Cadillac. Anyways, the engine that will be put in will be the same big loud engine. Except this engine will practically be new.

It's weird when you imagined you'd grow and come up with someone. Thinking they'd be by your side through the up and downs. Through your failures and accomplishments. It's hard when you think you'll forever have someone by your side. You know, like marry your best friend, and you can just see all the things they'd be there for. Even if some of it is bad. I've come to terms with it though, and it's okay.

Paid for the Cadillac in full at 19, I'll get it in perfect condition again soon. RIP to the Corvette. Got the BMW fully paid at 21. Time to work on my other business idea. If it goes right it'll be succesful. Time to recuperate, and start saving for a condo/or house so I can buy it in full. It may take some time, but it will happen. Just like with the cars I buy, I refuse to make payments. Having a place of my own fully paid off means no one can ever kick me out or take it away from me. Of course it won't always be a smooth road getting there. Lots of up and downs and failures. Of course I'll accomplish other things before I get there. Car wise and house wise though, I will be secure before I hit 24. That's still young right? I hope I'm doing something right. It's a lonely journey but I'm doing it. It doesn't matter if no one believed in me or didn't see my potential. It doesn't matter if no one was patient enough for me to start getting back on track. Or patient enough for me to become fully secure in life. I may not have it all, but it would be great to have someone who won't go away because of that. Someone who can see what I will be, even thought I don't have it all yet. Someone who thinks I'm worth it and no matter what's thrown at them, won't switch up on me. Stay solid, and realize the type of person they have. I'm sure I'll fall off again and struggle, but thats where people who believe in you come in. I don't have anyone who believes in me, I don't think I ever really did the more I think about it. I learned to be strong, not to depend on anyone. For now I'll have to start believing in myself, I'm all I have. I think I'm doing okay for now. That has to count for something...

Anyways I'll stop rambling. This is the new baby. I'm working on naming her. Congrats to me... right? I don't know, I'm trying.